Currently Listening The Battle For Everything By Five for Fighting see related

Gosh I hate insomnia!! It makes me desperate to find things to occupy my mind back to sleep. I start doing things like thinking about the future and the now and reading journal entries from several years ago, wow so much has gone by in just a few years. I stop and think of where I'm at right now in my life and I just want some loud and clear answer on where exactly I am supposed to be. I have so many things pulling me in a million directions right now and it is so hard to stay focused, to stay connected, to stay asleep, to stay awake.

a leap of faith.......no net

sink or swim, let's just hope that it's the later

Currently Reading Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential By Joel Osteen see related

I've been extremely busy here lately but I have a fun and exciting thing to show and tell:

visit my new website for IMTA @ www.ashleyinnewyork.com

Hope your summers are going well, and slowly at that :D

Honestly, I'm ashamed of myself that after almost twenty years of life I still have to reteach myself about people and their potential to make life happen. This isn't to say that I don't see potential everyday within the human race to make some profound difference in someone's life or in many peoples' lives for that matter, but for me I thought I had this person figured out. The events that had transpired over the past year, I felt were truly going to shape the way life was going to play out within my family. It just felt like we were all growing apart and there was hardly a trace of anything that held us together anymore. Holidays were different, Birthdays were different, Life was different, and how do you fix emotions and feelings when you can't physically reach out and paste them back together. It's like trying to fix a shattered vase, while fitting the bigger pieces back together, you are always going to have a dozen missing little shards.

Self-less act, Sacrifice, Undying Love, Faith, Hope in those you love.....all these things and you know they love you back

I need a special Father's Day gift this year, if you have an idea drop me a line

Saw the Omen tonight and I think I bout shat myself, it was freaky. I think I nearly squeezed Russell's hand to death. My kung-foo grip was even beginning to hurt my hand. I was really glad Sammy went with us because he had seen all of the old ones and knew what was getting ready to happen, well a idea of what was going to happen anyway. I think that's the only way I can handle scary movies is if someone has seen them before me and told me what to expect or play by play like tonight. I think it just makes them easier to digest. The whole scary movie thing is definitely me going out of my comfort zone, but its a good thing. SIDE NOTE: Mia Farra is one scary bitch and freaks me out to know end, see the movie and you'll know what Im talking about, off to bed I have an eight oclock calling with the smith family and I must have some rest before my job tomorrow.

Hope everyone else is sleeping tonight.....