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alyssa.

Just once I want someone to look at me and right away think Im beautiful. Not after they get to know me, or after they see inside my soul just me.and not lie to me like my friends do when they tell me im beautiful to make me happy. I want to walk into a room and light it up.

boy, don't take her for granted. you told her you
wanted to hold her and look into her her gorgeous blue
eyes and tell her she'd be yours for eternity. now
don't screw it up for yourself, you won't be the only
person to get hurt tonight </3

&& he said:
you`re cynical and beautiful.
you always make a scene.
you`re monochrome delirious.
you`re nothing that you seem.
I`m drowning in your vanity..
your laugh is a disease.
you`re dirty && you`re sweet.
you know you`re everything to me.
& I want to tear down at your defences..
til there`s nothing there but me..
you`re beautiful when you`re angry..
your love is such a tease.
I`m drowning in your dizzy noise.
i wanna feel youu scream. <3

She wanted something else.
Something different.
Something more..
Passion && romance, perhaps..
Or maybe quiet conversations..
in candlelight rooms.
Or perhaps something as simple
as not being second best.

so what if we prank call people on Friday nights. so what if we think “yo momma” jokes are hilarious. why does it matter that we sometimes talk like we’re mentally challenged and dance like we have to pee. we’re best friends and we love it. now go ahead and continue with your boring, normal and oh-so-mature lives.

an update..

Be strong now
because things will get better.
It might be stormy now,
But it can't rain forever.

The teenage years are the best years of our lives
even though theres tons of drama tears & heartbreaks
theres also friends that you trust and will never
leave your side .. theres the boy who whenever you
see you get butterflies in your stomach .. theres
parties && breaking the rules. now tell me, at
what other point in your life are you going to be
able to have all those things all at once?

you know those suicide stories
where everyone jumps off a building to kill themselves?
people do that to see who comes running up those 20
flights of stairs to save them; to stop them from jumping.
it's sad that the unfortunate few who do actually jump
have no one coming to their resuce.

he's the one thing worth holding onto; no matter
how long you two go without talking, he will always find
a way back into your heart. no matter how hard
you try to forget him, you can't. it's the little
things that mean the most, but break your heart
all the same. just wishing he thinks about you...
just the small thought of maybe, just maybe
there might be an '` us `' gives you the strength
to hold on that much longer. you never realize how
much you love something until you lose it. and
you're one of the lucky ones if you get it back..

your best friend listens to you when you dont
make sense. stands by you when people call
you names. argues when you're not right at all
trust you when she knows you'll mess up. when
you cry she's there helping you out & thats how
you know shes truly your best friend'

Sometimes they take people, and they don't say why. Sometimes people leave and never say goodbye. Sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you. Sometimes there are no next times, sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to heaven. Sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.

I'm not going to act fake to get your
attention, you should like me, for me.

She was much too pretty and much too depressed
they saw the beauty & overlooked the mess.

you learn a lot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them

i wanna be the girl who changed everything
that girl that made a difference
that girl who gave everyone a story to tell

and she finally gave up; she dropped the fake smile
as a tear ran down her cheek & she whispered to herself;
i can't do this anymore.

You know what I think hurts the most?
The feeling of being replaced.
It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough

You've got to learn to lie
to make everyone happy.
and you're going to have to cry
to make it on your own

You know, people always ask are you okay?
but they're never really expecting the truth.
'Cause the reality of the matter is, if i was okay,
you wouldn't really have to wonder.