so tomorrow im leaving for missouri...
wish me luck.
last time we were there for christmas, we "mooed" at the cows and would see if they would moo back for fun...
im there for 8 days
again...wish me luck.

but hey i'll be super tan laying out
and i'll have probably read 9002541 books. thats always a plus right?
again...wish me luck.

haha love you ALL!

Currently Listening Details By Frou Frou see related

I LOVE:

*summerohh6
*mavs games
*tanning outside
*taco bueno
*big sunglasses
*chronicles of narnia
*being a senior
*starting to seriously look at college stuff
*sonic
*text messaging
*work... ironically.
*davinci code
*sleepovers
*pictures
*tank tops
*my best friends
*my work girls
*my amazing boyfriend
*guacamole
*graduation parties
*reminiscing
*old teachers

summer has been going fantabulous already.
all the busy stuff is about to happen. and im finally getting excited about it.

goals for the summer:
get a kick ass tan
hang out with as many people as i cane>

Currently Listening I Wish We All Could Win By The Afters see related

wow i must say...since the past three months that ive even checked this thing...xanga has stepped it up quite nicely...like the photomanager, intrests. trying to become more like the ever growing ever popular myspace? hmm.

so i think im going to be old school and bring my xanga back...for the summer atleast. its a good diary, to where myspace is all about the comments and pictures. which is cool, but this can give me a place to just chill and say whats on my mind.

So, school it officially out for summer....cna i get a HELL YEAH! and now im a senior! i honestly never thought i would get to this day. you always hear about becoming a senior and "oh graduating" from older family members but you just never see yourself as the oldest in the school and about to leave and go out on your own. So this is my last summer as a crazy highschool kid, because next year i'll be graduated
im excited about this summer sno cones tanning hanging out untill late tank tops sleeping in late movies.
but for some reason im hesitant to move into this summer.
i mean heck what is to worry about? i have the greatest friends on the face of the planet, i have a best friend who is just plain amazing, and i have a wonderful boyfriend. i just cant help but to think how much has changed from this year going into next year. i miss old friends and how we used to hang out CONSTANTLY and thats really what made my summer last year, but sadly those friends have faded and are now just memories that sometimes make me sad. also im leaving an organization that i have truly been a part of for 5 years and it is the place i have met the ones close to me...yes i will say it. im going to miss band next year and all the amazing people in it.

camp will be amazing and i really need a spiritual high right now. something inside needs to be refiredup (is that even a word?)
im incredibly excited about pals and the things i will be getting into next year. i just cant find the reason for my hesitation.

who knows...
well thats about all for now...i have to bring this back slowly i suppose.
i love all my friends and god bless each and everyone of you!
♥

Wow this rain or something made me have a xanga widrawl. And my and my lovely ry ry were talking about it. and i know many people dont even read these anymore let alone look at this so...im taking it as an opportunity to be a real journal on how i thinking feeling...and all around just random thoughts that have been going on lately.

after watching the movie Elizabeth town the past couple of weekends (at work because we just rock hardcore like that around the timmaron area.
i've come to conclude that i am a "substitute" person. if you have no idea what im talking about...go watch elizabeth town.

a substitute person. is there when you are needed to fill a gap that is secondary in someones life. example: Kirsten Dunst is the substitute person to her boyfriend because his work comes first in his life over anything else. and she is there to just fill in the gaps in between.

lately i have seen through many people my purpose as being the substitue person. No its not a comforting feeling, but kinda something that ive always been.

im not one to put myself into a position to make people like me by compromising my morals. it just doesnt work for me like that. and what gets me the most is that those compromising morals/sluttyness, skankyness works 99.9% of the time. yes im sure youve gathered that im talking about guys liking slutty girls...just because they are well...slutty. sorry for the language.
You see guys who really like a girl...guinely like a girl. and the girl doesnt like them. but has the notion that she can get attention from this guy because in fact they do like her. aka...she is leading him on

fortunately enough for myself, i have seen this happen twice in around the last month or so. a guy i might be interested in, and also has a slight interest in me, all of a sudden has this girl that pops out of nowhere, leading him on again. no she still doesnt like you...she just is no longer getting the full on attention anymore. so she decides to make you (guy) think that she likes you. therefor making you fall for her once again leaving the substitute person behind.

oh well. atleast ive realized what guys want. too bad im not low enough to be slutty or lead them on...hmm
i give up.

_{OH AND JUST FOR THE RECORD;;}
Ûthe weather today is
            SLIGHTLY SARCASTC WITH A GOOD CHANCE OF ;
a. INDIFFERENCE AND     
              b. DISINTEREST IN WHAT THE CRITICS SAY

xanga dear xanga...i think i might be quitting on you...or atleast untill i have something important to share...but you just take way too long to use...and yeah.

plus have the icons dont work anymore...

<3 dearly.