At the risk of sounding 'Emo,' I seem to be failing at everything.  Everything I give my time, money, and all my effort, I fail at.  At that is when i'm lucky.  When i'm not lucky, i succeed, but then I almost wish i hadn't.  It's like you love Apples, and you work really hard to grow an really rare apple tree.  Then after you take a bite of the apple, it not only tastes horrible, but everyother apple you eat from then on also tastes absolutely disgusting.  Look, I even fail at making a decent analogy. 

In fact, the only things I seem to be suceeding at is school work, at that is just given too me.  I Don't have to try to give good grades.  I don't earn them.  And you know what I predict.  That I don't get into the college that i want, by the narrowest margin, or worse, i will and find that i end up hating it.  Euh.  I am so depressing.  And then people are going to comment showing pity, and then i'll feel bad, or they wont so i don't feel bad, and then i'll feel bad because no one pities me.  How do i always end in in no win scenarios?

Euh... Just ignore me for a bit, just venting i think.  I'll be fine by Saturday.  Saturday is going to be a good day, unlike this one.  meh, at least i wasn't 'poopervised.' If you don't know what that word means, go read a much better written and more timely updated xanga. OhForSixes. 

The days i need a hug are always the ones where i don't get one.... and that is all the whining i'll allow myself for awhile. Like a year or two. Man... i'm really whiney....  I'll update in a month or two.

Ciao