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Thursday, December 16, 2004

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 18:33:32 GMT

gahh I am SO sad...i cannot stand not seeing it is driving me INSANE...I don't know what to do....I just need to get out....and I don't knwo what to do b/c I can't stop thinking about this.....i try and I just cant i think ok well go you know talk ot someone else or i dunno anything and it just dosent work.....ever....all i need right now is to either be with danielle or see him..

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 20:13:10 GMT

well lol i said i had late start today...b/c I SOOO did not feel like school..but then i called in and got there even later..lol like around 11...yeshh....uhm so today was bbboooring but yes good news today lol i cant say cuz its a secret ((LOL TIIF))...well yeah I am getting ready for MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE UNIVERSES SOCCER THING SO....yesss...lol...so i'll be back around 8??maybe earlier iono...write later about some things..WHERE HAVE ALL MY COMMENTS GONE??lol I know...GONE..b/c I ammm booooorrring...WELL I LOVE YOU! XOXO

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:10:00 GMT

hey well....today I hungout with K n J...went to the mall w/ the sis...n yeah....it was fun......but I wish I coulda seenyou kow who...god I am in SO DEEP..iono what to do...can't wait for the weekend...itll be less stressfull..school has been really extra stress-filled lately and im about to get in a fight....I dunno rrr....i am talking to b-tron right now...HE IS SUUUCHHH A GOOOOOOOOOOOOD FRIEND! OK! lol I llllooooove him...lol oh did i mention I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND...god I cannot wait till i get what i want..lol well b-tron is distracting me...lol so I'm going to go.....talk to him...andlay down..and read ..and stuff...I guess so I'll write lata...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WITH ALL OF MY HEART..douche bag....

xoxo

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 18:08:01 GMT

So well he came over again last ngiht lol...thats all i feel like writing right now...so ill write more LATA!

Monday, December 13, 2004

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 14:24:16 GMT

Hoi...well everything is all better...now kinda...so yeah....yesterday I went to The Olive Garden AGAIN..lol...and I got a new north face...yesss...uhm so anyways I come home right...and....i called katie cuz she called when i wasnt home...and she wanted to go to the mall....so her and j came and picked me up right when we were leaving stephen pulled up...but he didnt go with us.....and yeah we got there...and I bought Stephen presents!...I got him the cd/dvd thingie he wanted and some gages..it was so cute too cuz we pulled up and he was like did you get me spinners ((gages)) and i was like oh no i couldnt find them in your size..AND I DID..I was so happy....I got him the right thing..he is so gosh darn kyyuuute GAHH!!!...so yeah haha I got my livestrong band back form him too...he was like NOoo i wear it and I think of you....gahh I love him...LOTS N LOTS...well anyways..yeah...so then I came home..haha and now it is..MONDAY and I amhome I skipped I left...uhhh 2nd period...yesss.....and now im just eatin n stuff....lol well I'll write later......XOXO

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 03:46:09 GMT

Well...I am upset again..and this time I don't know what to do except for to resort to you know what...and I can't because everyone will make a big deal because I can't hide it..and they've all seen the scars...but people...just don't know...what it does...you know unless they are there with you 24-7 ...they just don't know...there are a few people who understand...but it dosen't really make a difference when there is only ONE thing on your mind and everything stresses you out....I've put on a face this whole year..and I haven't expressed my feelings....and now everything has built up..and I'm breaking down again.....but I can handle it somehow...it's happened before..but now it is alot more...nate is talking to me...and it is making me feel somewhat better...i really honestly miss him, he has been there since i was little...and now i need him b/c he isone of the few people that do understand...It's just I miss stephen...like I told myself I wouldn't get attatched yet..and I am and so is he...I miss him being here...because now he is my everything...i feel so special when I am with him..he makes me feel so good about myself..and the littlest things he says....mean SO much...because I feel protected..and loved..and that he really does care..and I know he does..honestly...and it's just we don't want the drama so we can't do anything about it right now...but I will stand by him, throughout EVERYTHING, and even this, I will STILL commit myself to him, no matter what, because it is what I want, I will ALWAYS be there for him, and all I ask for is for him to care, and he does, and he knows this...I finally am in love again..when I look out my window and even see him drive by..it makes my day...complete....fully and entirely, and I can't wait until I see him....he is sick right now and I FEEL horrible about it....I just want him to be here...with me...my only comfort...to be able to just grab me tight...I am just dealing with so many things right now...and all I want is him...hopefully soon he will just be here...it's so late..and my body aches...my back is killing me..I just want it to...be the day that i get to see him...today i was supposed to leave i didnt....earlier i did i went to the r to wait for j to get off work..i got bored..and left...i didnt leave...and i should have...tommorow..maybe the mall...i want to get a christmas present for him....but I dont know if im even up to that.....he has to work early so if i go early..then good, so i can talk to him later...I am just glad about the things he says..like when I say i need to talk to him about something later...he ameks me say it then....b/c he dosent want to worry about me all the time being upset..I love him he can hold up his promises...i love him with everything ive got...honestly i do..i cant even say anymore about it//

This feels so right..
Whenever your body lying next to mine
Cause Im trying to make you feel
Make you feel so right
Whenever your body lying next to mine

this feels +SO+ right

.:+I LOVE YOU BABY+:.

Friday, December 10, 2004

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 01:38:10 GMT

OO ok well loves Chels N' Mads are over right now.....lol we are makin freshie spirit tees for tommorow we are about to get CrUnK tamarra!LOL!! YES!....god we are going to be up forever doing these dam tees haha at least Chels is because we've voted her....the creative one lol..in other words...we are too lazy to do it haha...well today was fun....Shel n Mads came home with me....argh had to walk in the DAMN EFFING RAIN ARRGH..anyways...I woke up LATE AGAIN today daaahhhmm..lol and yeah I had flippin english...argh reading more Tarzan haha...then uhm uck P.e haha I played soccer w/ jeff haha...hes annoying he always makes me a bet that if he makes a goal I have to kiss him hahah..I was like yeah ok sure but then no I just hit him with a badmitten racket instead b/c....uhm he is ugly lol! Ok then...science....BORING worked on chromosomes...and stuff...dunno cuz I kept falling asleep....then History but that was awesome cuz I LOVE that class and it's my fave....then yeah we got home and just ate and listened to music n stuff till like 5:30 then Kath got home then Chels came ova after her doctors appt....n yeah then we left to go get our white tees and ribbon and baseball socks...yeah then we took shel home...and chels n maddie came back here n then YESS lol deanie weenie came and picked us up and we ent to go get mcchikens on which to the drive there we almost got in 566 car accidents lol he sucks at driving well he always speeds..and....it is raining..lolHahah and yeah mads n chels are staying the night ahh ...gotta wake up at like 5 hahah...argh lol oo we all decided on our cars....I got a hot pink maaco paint job and maddie gets metallic and chels gets red CIVICS WHAT WHAT the civic girls hahah...yeah then we are movin in next to eachother YOU KNOW! HAHAHA YEAAA!!! ok well tommorow argh...no plans yet lol...ok well XOXO right later ahh long night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 01:11:39 GMT

Ok so well I am so happy HE CAME OVER....with fagboy haha...I burned them a cd lol....they are like in love with cds..and also sometimes i think they are both gay...gah he is SOOO SEXY!!! i cannot wait till' MAY!!! YES! OMGOSH!!! Ok well yeah they came over and we hung out and he's comin' by tommorow I had a wonderful day today....got to sleep in my classes me maddie chels are goin shoppin for spirit day tommorow...write more tommorow, by the way I LOVE THE NAME COLTON! LOL! Mwa Mwa XOXO...goin to read in bed! Loves!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 19:51:45 GMT

Well my loves,.... have you taken notice to my my comment box over herre to the left.....wait no RIGHT!Haha

--------------> well yes there it is so you guys should write on there...aww my Nicole Richie background went away....she is gorgeous...Oh goodness...well before I get started I've gotta go tanning bbs, and I'll write later! >LoVeS< XOXO BABES HAVE AN AWESOME DAY!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 03:19:42 GMT

So now....finally ah my site...it's finally me..and I am soo glad..because I can express my feelings HERE. So ok...well I guess I am starting over...kinda I never really explained my self and situations ((this could get long...I like to talk))...anyways...ok my name is Isabella.......I live in a town where....people aren't accepted for ebing different...but for being the same, following the trend. As it seems people who are "different" are so-called "outcasts"....I will be completely and truthfully honest..because this is what this is for...I am part of the also so-called popular group...it is just the way it is....I'm not as rude as some people think...unless they give me a reason....people assume just because we do alot of things people can't do...that we are some sort of bitches....really though the term for us is being outspoken...we stand up for what we want...no one tries to even talk to us mostly because they call us the "rich bitches"....don't know who came up with that Oh BoY...this year, we are all freshman...and as coming in as eigth graders LAST YEAR...we were entierlly new to the school, we were the ones that new nothing...but there was a certain group of freshman girls we said we'd never be like...but now as the current "kings and queens" of the school, we are getting used to be the ones who "rule" it. This summer has brought about MANY changes for MANY of us...some people fell apart and some people bonded to a point of no separation....one of our girls...Amber...in the beggining of the summer, a boy named Nick came into her life, and now has completely ruined it, he is 18 and she is nearly 15, they live together, he says jump, she says how high...and in all of this, Amber isn't in our "group" anymore...we harldy talk..we tried and tried...but just couldn't hold things together....and then again there is the lovely one and only Chelsea...my best friend....forever...some things...can't really be talked about happened over the summer between us...and with it it brought us so much closer...really she is liek my other-half...we just hate it because people are constantly trying to find something wrong with our freindship...but they NEVER will because there isn't anything people just can't stand that we are so honestly true to eachother, just something about it...so now, left out of things that happened this summer and over last year, we are left with the four girls, who really, have abit of everything, and that...basically makes up "US" the Spice girls, and might I say the four of us together are unstoppable, with unstoppable connections. This year is already going by fast it is DECEMBER!!!Christmas one of my most annticipated holidays is upcoming in.....19 DAYS! Well insisting on the fact that this is MY journal I'll explain a little bit more about my self...I am very short...as in 5 feet short...I'm very noticiable to MOST people....the blonde and black hair...the outspoken personality, or just the fact...that everyone always hears a little something...I am just recently out of not a very long relashionship...but 4 months at that....three of those being almost the best time of my life....until I discovered there are other people in this world...being in that relashionship showed me alot of things, and that I need to say what i want and do what i want and not let my life be controlled by someone else. Now finally after alog time of finding what went wrong and what I need to do i have finally found someone...someone who I couldn't absolutley adore more...but there is one slight problem..I can't quite have him yet..lately we have been hanging out and so called (sneaking around) and we are just tired of it..so we are giving it some time..I am not considering this very much time because, we have both felt the same way or always wanted in on this since last year.....just give it time..and for all I have been through I am willing to wait...let's see let's see...well my parents are recently divorced...I live with my stepmom...she has done so many things for me throughout my life...she is truly wonderful....my real mom lives with my aunt....I guess we are the better off side of the family....let's just say my stepmom drives a beamer...my dad has a lowered truck...and is currently buying a z something some kind of convertible...what beauty....to look at but no, I am just waiting until May 12th....the day I can finally get my s10 that is all I want I have a perfect image in my head!!! Anyways I've grown up here pretty much my whole life..I've always been kinda quiet until the summer of 7th grade...I guess it's called BlOsSoMiNg....because might I say I may not yet be nicole richie...but for a freshie, no one beileves that I am as young as I am .... I guess if you read that you must have amazing stamina, and to what I owe you I have no clue, and we should talk on here because you must be awesomely great. ANYWAYS...now that I have brought out all of this...I will tell you every boring/Juicy detail of my day...kind of.. So today...I got up SO late as in 6:30...this week is spirit week...let's show some spirit kids!!!...well...I got to school I had law... I finished my class in amazing time...I thought today was going to go by amazingly slow in since I thought I was going to be thinking of Stephen all day...but I got by....I had math...my least favorite subject, but then I had foods ok which was totally hot because now that we have selected our groups we have the best kids, and I loove it it is so fun trav, liv Mandie, LUV YOU GUYS!!! Then I had spanish and in which my teacher is a complete JACKASS. Ok....really though he can't even deal with like 5 minutes of people talking...he is physco so we just stopped talking, I asked bay for her blanket she gave it to me...and I slept for an hour...so did Katherine...it was WONDERFUL...well....oh LUNCH..was uhm SO dumb because me and olive got stopped in the hallway by some ass of an art teacher i mean c'mon he is new tho..so mr. t saw us and was like uhm no let them go, haha JERK...anyways...so....we ate in the caf. MAJOR PROB. so many kids in there....and it is SO crowded...and...the tables are packed...anyways...Chels came home with me today....fun...we got some pics developed went to miccY D'S...got some food and then OMGOSH went to the opening of t'j's....YESS...I am so excited!...then we went to Starbucks..and came home....now she is asleep in my room.... I couldn't sleep too much on my mind...well one thing specifically..Stephen....all I want for Christmas is to wake up and tell me things can work out NOW...because I want him now..I miss him being here already...I want him to just be behind me....rubbing my back and reassuring me...I miss his hugs...so much...I WANT TO CRY but I won't I've had enough of that already...well anyways..I am so excited I've got a solo..just another cahncce to further what i love doing..singing last year at christmas was so fun, I got to sing at the cafe!!!!Yay...well anyways...I really don't want to go to school...not at all...so....I'll be very short tommorow..w/ everyone most likely...but that is ok..because I will ALWAYS have a smile on my face...anyways..tommorow...grr I am coming home..and I am calling a certain someone...I just want to hear his voice...but NO ONE understands.........It's alright though...soon things will be looking up, I mean c'mon I am hanging out with the one and only BiLlIaM this weekend..i love him, he will listen to me at least! Well I am getting extremely cold...and it's getting late and I've got an early morning...so I will write tommorow, XoXo loves.

p.s....if anyone ever needs advice or wants to talk I am always here for anyone..I love helping people...just leave a comment!!!...Keep Smiling!!!