AHA! THAT'S why I have no money! I go to birthday parties, and give money when I don't have a gifty-gift, but then I don't have parties for myself, so nobody gives me any money.
Everything is illuminated now.
I feel like I should have a party, or dinner, or something.. (and, no NOT so I can get some money) It seems like nobody ever knows when anything happens to me, because I don't make a big deal out of anything.. My own fault, I know, it's really not fair to them at all!
Maybe I'll do dinner out, and have people come along.. We'll see.
I really don't know. It's comes and goes in waves, you know?
Like, today, I randomly got really excited, and took Mum out to lunch at Red Lobster.
Yesterday, it occurred to me that I would be eighteen, and after a burst of energy, I felt like I was going to puke.
I've been "stress eating" alot for the past few weeks. Except I'm not stressed, but I hope you get what I mean. It's like, it will hit me how old I'll be, and then I'll go eat something. It's weird..
I am so tired, and so energized, at the same time! It's making my head feel really loopy.
School's going pretty well, but I need to crack down on my anatomy. It's hard for me to work on it outside of class.. Which is one or two days a week, so obviously that attitude will not help in keeping me from falling behind!
On a seperate note, I really would do well as someone's personal assitant. Keeping track of events and obligations, scheduling aforementioned things, and making sure the person stays on track.. I'm doing a really awesome job of it right now, and I could actually get PAID to do it?! Somehow though, I imagine the job satisfaction just wouldn't be the same..
No shows, because of classes.. I will admit, that was a bit of a blow.
Also, I'm rather tired of people behaving like they think that just because I have a boyfriend now, I'm going to be a little whore. Listen, if I had wanted to be putting out all those years, I wouldn't really have needed a relationship, now would I? I'm sure there would have been plenty of guys who would've killed for a "no strings" kind of deal like that.. My point? I wish they'd stop.
So that's what they call a family Mother, father, daughter, son Guess that everything you heard about is true. So you ain't got any family Well, who said you needed one? Ain't ya glad nobody's waiting up for you?
When I dream on my own I'm alone, but I ain't lonely For a dreamer, night's the only time of day When the city's finally sleeping When my thoughts begin to stray And I'm on the train that bound for Santa Fe
And I'm free Like the wind Like Im gonna live forever. It's a feeling time can never take away All I needs a few more dollars And I'm outta here to stay Dreams come true Yes they do In Santa Fe
Where does it say you've gotta live and die here? Where does it say a guy can't catch a break? Why should you only take what you're given? Why should you spend your whole life livin' Trapped where there ain't no future Even at seventeen Breaking your back for someone else's sake If the life don't seem to suit ya How bout a change of scene? Far from the lously headlines And the deadlines in between
Santa Fe Are you there? Do you swear you won't forget me? If I found you would you let me come and stay? I ain't getting any younger And before my dying day I want space Not just air Let 'em laugh in my face, I don't care Save a place I'll be there So that's what they call a family? Ain'tcha glad you ain't that way? Ain'tcha glad you got a dream called Santa Fe?
