I saw her, walking down the street, skinny and ugly.

I collasped emotionally, walked on. Body started to sweat, it was heat aired from the centre of my heart, pushed along the blood vessels and extended to my brain. It shot right through the arteries and I could feel how this feeling will gradually be replaced by despise.

I'm so glad that I am heading back to where I will not see any related ugliness.

I still cannot believe that someone can be that ugly both externally and internally.

New hair cut!!!

:)

my friend said i look younger AGAIN. ng hai ah ma.

For those who hven't seen me at all these months..

this is Me.. me and shanghai.. :) and caca of course ^^

So now what do i feel.. getting it from everyone but you.

maybe one day i will not be afraid of days of certain particulars approaching anymore, and I would be more than open to leave the situation just as far as I care and stop hoping for better things in this world.

Since I realise, looking at the other side of the garden.. there're a lot more to see and explore. If garden is looked after by different gardeners and they don't keep it as well as I do, I might even consider walking back even when there are vineyards for me to look after.

gonna leave for Uk soon, and then I realise there are so much I cannot let go in this place. Then again, letting go migth be a good choice cos it's never wise for a person to be overly sentimental over unncessary aspects in life.

Do i actually know what I am doing? No i don't think so, aside from being cynical and bitchy.

lalallalalalalalalala

c'est la vie.