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Name: Annelise
Gender: Female
Interests: Basketball, Music, Christianity, Reading, Mathematics and History, Politics, River Rafting, Snowboarding, going to the arcade and playing DDR, the beach, golf, and serving anyone who needs help.
Expertise: I guess I dont have any main expertise. I like to do a little of everything which is probably why I'm so troubled right now. >.<
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  oboefreek358
Member Since:
10/17/2004
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| Hey guys. I think I'm doing a lot better. Things at home still a little rough, but I'm getting through. Actually things with my dad have much improved so I'm really happy about that. I know I've been doing this a lot. Happy one day and depressed the next. Thank you to those of you who have been by my side through all of it. Even though at times things may seem like crap, I still need to remember I'll always have God no matter how far I seem from him. Please keep on praying for me everyone. Appreciate it. <3 | | |
| A lot happening...yeah like I've never started any of my entries like that lol Just trying to get through it. Things going on with my dad, I'm not quite sure whether its good or bad. Thank you to everyone who is always sending me messages and being there for me. I really appreciate it. Even the phone calls you guys make to see if I'm okay is awesome. I'm having a lot of trouble in school, and in a way I'm excited for it to end, but I'm so confused about whats going to be happening in the summer, I dont know whether its something to be excited about. Oh well...whatever happens happens. Basketball is going alright, but my coach is little upset I've been missing a lot of practices. Finally when I start playing more, I can't even be there to play. Grrrr...maybe I should just go back to music. As you guys know, I've been really into Evanescence lately. Its been sparking my interest in piano again, and my close friends have really been encouraging me to try singing. I think I'm going to give up oboe for a while and take piano lessons again, and also see if I can start singing for real as well. By the way, my hairs black.
The worst is over now... | | |
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TOURNIQUET
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
I want to die!!!
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God My tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied? Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide
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| Ugh...stress stress stress, thats all things have been. Last weekend my sister in laws aunt passed away so I cleaned her house for her that same day. Plus I've been babysitting and cleaning houses like mad trying to earn some money. I have so many things I have to pay for. Pedros birthday is on mothers day, so I have to buy a HUGE gift for him cuz hes like my bestest friend ever, I have to get my mom a gift, I have to earn money for the online drivers ed class I'll be taking next month, and I really really really really really want an I-Pod.  I saw my dad like three days in a row, isnt that crazy? He came to my basketball banquet on Wed, which was cool, he took me out to eat yesterday, and then today he took me golfing. He promised me long ago that he would pay for half of whatever I wanted to buy, and so I brought that up and asked him to pay for half my I-Pod. He said he would! Why am I suprised? Because my dad never keeps his promises  Hes still keeping the one about giving me his 2004 Acura TSX in a few months so he could buy the new MDX, but I have to convince my mom to pay for insurence, and I have to pay for gas. I wasnt expecting him to pay for it, but he actually promised to take care of that too as long as my grades were up. Um...this weekend I'm going to Leadership Camp. Thats actually the camp for my dads school >.< They take the top 60 8th graders or so and take them up to Big Bear to learn about "life lessons" and such. I'm a junior chaparone  I used to go when I was little with my dad and I used to say I cant wait till I'm in high school so I could be in charge of my group and all. But my dad isnt going  He hasnt gone for the past few years. He used to do a session, but he says he doesnt believe in what he used to teach so he doesnt go anymore, which is depressing because it used to be the one thing I looked foward to every year >.< *Sigh* OMG and school!! My AP European History test is in two weeks!!! And next week we take three tests for one class in one week!!! Mon is Ch 29-30 test, Wed is semester final, and Fri is year long final!! AHHH!!! Prayer please!!! | | |
| Well this was pretty much one of the most horrible weeks I've had in a while. Almost everything went wrong and I was a bit depressed. My dad still hasnt called me even after I called him, and thats a sure sign he pretty much doesnt want to call me. My grades came out extremely horrid, I woke up late every day of the week, and I almost never went a day without at least one missing homework assingment. Plus I hurt my ankle in basketball. Eh. I just like wanna die right now. The only good thing about my week is I got to talk to Louis ^_^ Hes such a sweetheart! I love our conversations like so freaking much. I wish he lived closer so I could see him... Maybe someday...anywho I just bought this book at church on Sunday. Its titled "Who made God" Its so awesome, its got like answers about God that I didnt even know. Louis and I will be discussing about what I read  I'm excited for that...um...basically it asks a question and then answers it with like full detail and scriptures. Its great. Um, I sang at church last Sunday. I got so many compliments, it felt so great ^_^ Pedro thinks I should get singing lessons. I dunno...what do you guys think? | | |
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