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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

  • emotional

    I've been emotional lately.  I am just so touched by the love that is surrounding me.

    I was freaking out earlier because tickets from California to Minnesota are so expensive.  My good friend from Cali is flying here and it's going to cost her like over $500 for her plane ticket and she's only here for 3 days.  I told her that it's no big deal, that I will fly out to see her sometime in the future (I've been saying this for 9 years now).  She said no, she wouldn't miss it for the world.  Haha, I can't believe after all these years, she still wants to be apart of my life.  I am very grateful.

    I was also looking at tickets for my grandmother and it's like $700-$1,000 (there are no straight flights, they are all connecting flights).  My mom said that if my grandmother wants to come, she will pay for it.  She also said that she will help us financially as well.  I was just so moved by the gesture.  I don't think I'm going to take her up on that because she is still taking care of my siblings.  She said she doesn't have much (which she doesn't) but she said that it's her responsibility to do so.  I don't think so, but I am just so moved by my mom. 

    It's so hard to think about not being here.  I can't talk about it without tearing up.  I can't believe all this is happening so fast.  (big sigh)

Friday, April 11, 2008

  • wedding bells

    well...

    in a few months (4 months), two major life changes will occur in...

                                      1.  Getting married
                                      2.  Leaving Church of All Nations

     
    It's such a bittersweet feeling for me, on one hand I'm excited to get marry but on the other hand, how hard is it going to be to leave CAN.  I finally feel like everything was coming together; my family and I are doing great, my friendships are solid, the church continues to be the best thing that I have in my life, and now I have to leave all this?  =( .  I'll reflect on this later...

    As far as the wedding plans goes, i have no idea what I'm doing
    1. Setting a date
    2. Creating a list of people to invite outside of the church
    3. Deciding the Wedding Party
    4. Setting a location for ceremony and reception
    5. Getting the wedding rings

    Goals for April
    5. Get invitations
    6. Mail out invitations
    7. Meet with Bridal party
    8. Set a budget
    9. Start saving

    ahhh...pray for us!

    That's all for now.

Friday, October 19, 2007

  • I just finished watching "Evan Almighty".  I think it's better than the first one for sure.  I never really liked Steve Carell until this movie.  My favorite quote in the movie was when God (morgan freeman) was a waiter where he was serving Evan's wife, Joan.  Joan who doubts her husband Evan with the rest of the world...

    Joan: But my husband told him that God told him to do it.  What do you do with that?

    God: Sounds like an opportunity.  Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

    A powerful message don't you think?  opportunities... then do we pray for opportunities?

    I gotta go check on the couch cushions, they are in the washer.  i just bought a couch set, actually two.  now i'm trying to get rid of one set.  i hope i break even. 

    nighty nite.   

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

  • well, i guess i'm doing a pretty good job updating this thing, hehe, we'll see...

    Last Sunday was an incredible service, the praise, the prayer of the day, the call to confession, the sermon and cody's testimony were all amazing.  i got chills and i even started to cry.  i wasn't even emotional to begin with, i was just moved by the Holy Spirit.  wow, God is truly amazing.  pastor jin preached about how we give thanks to the wrong things, he told the story about how jesus healed the lepers and only one guy out of the group realized that Jesus was the one who healed him and thanked Him for it.  pj said that we never realize that when it comes down to it, everything that is good is from God.  amen!  it is really a slap in my face, it makes me realize how caught up i can be in this world, how ignorant i can sometime.  God is so good to me, he's been there for me.  He's love is soooo good.  oh sooo good.

    the housewarming party was last sunday, it was a long day but it was a good day.  the ladies and i are very appreciative of all the people that attended.  i love this church so much, i really wanted to have a party to really say that i love you and you are my family.  i'm blessed for the family of CAN!

    I thank God for...

    -CAN Family

    -Since last year we have doubled our membership by 50%

    -The ladies of the house: Hanna, Laura and Karen

    -My relationship with Paul.  Paul has been so strong in the midst of his hard time, i mean our hard times.  we have to trust in God's goodness and grace that we are making each day.  he means so much to me, a gift from God.

    -My friends, as life passes by, my relationship has been filtered not by me but by God's timing.  God knows who He wants in my life and who He doesn't want.  The group of friends that i have are the best that i can have at this time in my life.  God is good.

    -The house, what a beautiful dwelling that we have, a place where we can be an extended community to the church.

    -GRACE, God's endless mercy for me, God's perfect timing, and God's unconditional love for me.

     

    I get bummed out sometime because life is hard, it's been a long life...but if i can calm down and get over myself and realize that life is truly good because we are truly blessed by the life that we have and the life that we live - it's all goooood.  all glory be to God. 

Monday, October 08, 2007

  • I was really sick yesterday.  I barely made it through the service.  I left right after communion.  Whew, I've been tired.   I slept a lot last night, so that helps.  Layne told me to get better, he told me that I can't be sick, he said that it wasn't fair.  Haha, oh Layne.  I feel much better.  I'm at work, supposedly working.  I just wanted to share some wisdom that I received from my pastor the other night.

    I'm not anxious usually.  But waiting for a call...makes me very anxious.  I was talking to Pastor Jin.  I was like what is going on with me?  Why haven't God called me yet?.  He told me to chill.  He told me that I should be preparing for my call instead of asking God to give me one.  He told me that I should continue to work on myself, to solidify my life in every aspect.  He told me that even though my faith has deepens a great deal, I still need a lot of fine tuning.  ( He thinks I'm very sarcastic, I told him I learned it from him /hehe).  A lifetime of fine tuning.  He told me instead of worrying for God to call on me, he told me to prepare myself when He does call me.  He said a mistake a lot of Christian make is that people always want a call, and when they get one, they are either not ready or don't want to.  He said people should get their act together, he said don't work on your own timing but work on God's time.  Pastor Jin told me that he has no doubt that God has a high calling for me.  He told me instead of waiting, he told me to continue to work towards the call.  He told me to continue to be faithful, continue to be healthy in all aspect of my life.  He told me to get ready for God's call.

    What a relief.  He told me that this message is so good, he should preach it to the congregation.  He is right though.  I want to prepare myself for the day that God does call me.  I want to continue to work on my heart to commit my life fully to God.  I am here for God and here to be his servant.  I should not be anxious, I should be rejoicing that I have the opportunity to experience life, to love and to suffer.  I should be grateful that God has chosen me to be here on earth to live to glorify His kingdom.  I have a lot of work to do, but I trust in God's unconditional love.

    I hope my faith continues to be challenged.