| | "Whose Standards?"
Last night at dinner with Annie and Jenni, I was very vocal
about who I thought was hot in the cafeteria.
Jenni looked me in the eye and said, “You are worse than a girl in high
school.” I paused, and gave a notorious Jared
look. I thought about this…she was
right. My hormones are in over drive. Jenni
asked, “Are you horny?” I looked at both her and Annie and said, “Its
not that…I am sexually frustrated. I need
to feel another guy on top of me.” Annie
said, “Well, what are you waiting for?”
I admitted that I am not really one for hooking up, and
moreover, that I have the “analyze and emotional” problem. They both agreed that I was young and deserve
to have fun. I told them tough that in
gay culture it is hard to “have fun” and maintain a positive reputation. They both looked and me and said, “Jared,
screw them. Don’t worry about labels,
you are you, and have needs that need to be met.”
I got to thinking, that if you are a 20 to 30 something gay
guy living in Cincinnati,
and refuse to settle and you’re sexually active, it is inevitable that you’ll
rack up a certain number of partners. But, how many men is too many men? Are we simply romantically challenged or are
we sluts?
I am not going to
define “slut,” I feel that is up to you.
You have to accept your actions.
And, I agree with Annie and Jenni, screw what other people think. As for me, I know I want something long term,
but I figure that in the mean time I need to live life and go with the flow. If that makes me a “slut” under your
standards…well that’s to damn bad. |