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Name: Joleen
Country: United States
State: Kansas
Metro: Topeka
Birthday: 3/1/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Doin the good college kid things - staying up late, watching movies, avoiding study sessions, drinking, hangin out at the boy's house, fundraising lotsa money, goin to church
Expertise: Getting superslaphappy with Mallory
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
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AIM:  Oo BaconBitz oO
Member Since:
10/19/2004
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| I'm pretty sure I'm quitting my job.
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| ThoughtsSo I know it's been months since I posted, and I thought I was done w/Xanga. But, I just had some thoughts and no one to relay them to. So here goes.
In all the time I dated Nathan, none of my friends spoke highly of him, not one mentioned that they really liked him, which was fine. But in all that time, none of them ever outright told me that they didn't like him, that he was wrong for me, etc, etc. So here's my thought. Is it really your place to tell your friends that you don't like their significant other if they're really happy? It puts them in a really awkward position. 1 - do they tell the significant other, and if so how will that person react? 2 - do they keep it to themself and then just know that every interaction from then out will be slightly tense/awkward/strange for him?
So Zac, being slightly intoxicated, decided to go route #1. I agree that my interactions/hanging outs with this person haven't been the most comfortable way for me to spend my time with Zac, but I figured it had to do with the way things started between us and also just getting to know each other. But other than my being in a weird mood a couple of times, I don't see how I presented myself in the way that was described to Zac. The long and short of it comes down to the fact that, now that I know, why would I want to spend time at their house where I know I'm not really welcomed? Now that I know, why would I try to show myself in a good light? I already didn't talk around this person much, but now I'm probably going to clam up completely. There doesn't really seem to be much of a point if he's already got his opinions made and voiced.
So I'm glad that's off my chest. Aaaaaand good night.
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| weekendI made a checklist of what I don't want in my wedding this weekend. My cousin's wedding was really nice, but there were definitely some things I would change. First, I don't want my friends and family's view to be obstructed by the photographer at any point. All of my processional pictures will be staged, and I'm okay with that. Second, I don't think I have to worry about this with my pastor, but I refuse to be referred to as "his bride" if he's not referred to as "her groom" at any point in the service. Marriage has changed, I'm not there to serve him if he's not gonna serve me as well. Third, people aren't there to hear a sermon, so the message/readings should be less than 10-15 minutes. Fourth, music selections need to fit their purpose in the service. Lighting a candle doesn't take 4 minutes, so the music behind it shouldn't be 4 minutes. As for the reception, I just need to make sure I get to throw my bouquet before everyone leaves. Then there's the thought, am I actually going to have a big wedding? I hope not, just close friends and family. But, I think I'll have a bigger reception. Maybe, we all know how I don't like people very much.
Mom and I spent Saturday night in Wichita, and then decided a trip to the IKEA in Dallas was necessary. If you don't know, IKEA is possibly the best home store in the world. It's got every other home store I've been to beat. We were going to stay in Wichita that night, but when we finally got there at 10, I wasn't very tired and convinced her to keep driving. There was an ulterior motive - Zac was in town. He was gonna surprise me by coming into town, but I got to do the suprising :) We got to spend all of yesterday together - it was nice cuz neither of us really had anything we had to do like normal when he's here. It was one of my favorite days in a long time.
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| How did such a good day turn into such a piece of shit?
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| My room officially hit 90 degrees today, and I gave up my boycott of the AC. Lee wins the bet of who could last the longest, granted we never really bet on anything. I'm pretty sure she's gonna rub it in my face all summer. In all honesty, I only gave it up halfway - I don't care if we don't turn on the one that's downstairs. I just can't sleep without being covered up, and I can't be covered up if I'm sweating profusely.
Tomorrow should be good - I'm getting paid a hefty sum to sing one song at a church service in Salina. I'm pretty sure the hefty sum was for gas/lodging, but I'm hitching a ride and only staying for the day. KaChing! I think I'm a lot like Bridget Jones. Mostly the fight scene - I really think that someday two guys will get into a fight over me. A real fight, one where they go through glass windows and use trash can lids to knock each other out. She doesn't like children either. I'm still waiting for my Colin Firth. Maybe not. Things with Zac are going really well. We had our first dance this weekend - he sang the entire song to me. I don't ever let things like that get to me, but it did this time. Silly boy. Life should be interesting when he moves back for good. But until then, it's 2 hour conversations about nothing.
Tomorrow Salina, Saturday Great Bend. I have to go to Western KS twice in one week, which is slightly ridiculous in my book. My cousin Jodie's getting married, and then Mom and I are gonna spend the rest of the weekend in Wichita shopping and gallyvanting around. Should be a good time.
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