| okay lovers sorry i havent updated been a lot going on but im alive and
im in love with laguna beach!! YAY!! okay lovers ill holla atcha laters
when i have more time to type. ADIOS!!
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hey gangsters!! sorry..i havent been updateing regularly...ive been so
busy but ive bene having fun!! but yea im going to san antonio with
adam untill thursday so ill holler at you guys later!
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kay...im not thinking about my sadness anymore..ive moved on
so yea summer is fun
summer is for LoVeRs...
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I have been feeling really down lately. I know that i never show it,
because that's just the way i am. I cant go moping around all the time
or be complaing about everything all the time but on the inside...i
really do feel super sad and just....cheated i guess. i was thinking
about this today and just started bawling but you know what...i've
never been able to be a kid. like...seriously. and
that..effin..sucks...im so old on the inside...maybe that's y i act so
goofy because i really want to be a kid for a while, but i cant. i've
been working since i was 14. friggin 14 dude. do you know how young
that is? and i have never WANTED to work...i did it b.c if i wanted to
have things, i had to work. that is just...not fair for a kid. when i
was 10 i became my sister's mother b.c my dad couldnt take care of
himself let alone a 3 year-old her. since i found out about my dads
disease, i have been worried about myself and my sister and if we
caught it or not. partly because i didnt understand it and partly
because i am a worry-wart. but yea...now my sister can take care of
herself pretty much...but still..for 7 years i was her mom and that
dosent just stop. currently i work 2 jobs so i can pay for a car and
insurance and things for me. yes...like an adult. even tho im only 17.
for once, i wish i could worry about school and friends like normal
people my age do. i dont want to work. i dont want to have bills. i
dotn want to do anything but have fun. is that selfish? who cares if it
is. i've never really had a chance to act my age and have fun...and
it's probably too late. o well...just feeling down and had to get some
things off my chest, but now i have to go get ready to work at one of
my jobs for 6 hours..what fun.
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Just got back from my trip to the beach with Line and Josh it was O SO
FUN!! We fought the waves, lost, got sea weed in our pants (ew), laid
out in the sun, fed seagulls, ate soggy cookies lol, "shopped" on the
strand, had dinner at joe's crab shack where we danced the macarena,
and then drove home with out getting in a single wreck!! My momma made
us promise her that we wouldnt drink any adult beverages while we were
down there, tho b.c apparently the po-po's look for that stuff and will
pull u over and haul u to jail. Yea...nobody wanted that, so we didnt
do any drinking. It's all good...still had an AWESHUM time with my
buds. O yea and on the 4th i went to Mrs.Line's house and chilled and
played a drinking game called "circle of death" that is pretty fun. I
liked taking the little green men off the cup and "caw-CAW"ing like a
retarted crow lol right Line? Well yea...Lindsay is retarted and ya
know.. for some reason when i started sobering up, i decided to drink
this CRAZY DANISH SHIT that Line has that's like, 100% alcohol so i
would get more drunk..yea..well..i got more drunk. We will stop the
story there. Lol nothing REALLY bad happened, so dont go thinkin nothin
crazy yall...just some things i plan on forgetting (if Line and Josh
will allow that! haters..lol) So to sum it up my week so far has been
pretty gangster, but stupid Line is leaving me for another week for
stupid freaking camp...gosh. Lol o well i know she's gonna have fun.
Anywho, i gotta work all day tomorrow so im gonna be heading off to bed
now...adios gangsters!
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