Sometimes, I tell people they are my friends... but sometimes to others I just say it because, I have no idea if I should say, " I think we might be more than that." Because I don't know if they feel the same and will agree to what I am thinking.. So I kinda force the guys I talk to into a friend mode or just someone I know.... I want a guy who can take charge, and tell me what he wants. And if he wants me, he just has to be agressive and forward about it, because I won't unless I know how you feel. I can't make the first move, but i sure as hell won't be a fool, if you make that move, be sure that I will make that second move. I'm a girl who believes in that old fashion relationship. Sure I will offer to pay for stuff, but don't take advantage of me, be a man tell me to put my money away and you pay for it, unless I really want to pay for it.

If you are unclear with what I'm trying to say is.. I'm new to this relationship/dating game. But I'm not a fool. I may be that ditzy girl who likes you, but doesn't know how to show it. But don't treat me like that ditzy girl, show me ways to show you how I like you...(not in a dirty sexual sense... too soon buddy lol..) Well maybe it can be a bit dirty, I'm not stuck up so I know how to have my fun...

I sent this girlfriend application to this guy Ivan on myspace... He seems cool for that second I talked to him... but then my mind went blank and I couldn't think of a thing to say.. he didn't start a conversation.. So I've been ignoring him online, until I find the courage to talk to him without being so hestitant and shy. I need to be myself around dudes. Not to be concieted, I'm the coolest person to be with, ohh yeah! lol... Just hope he won't find this and read it.. he looks like such a cutie. But if he does, he might get a hint and be more agressive? Yea right.... Maybe a single Chanda is good.. I'll be like Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed. I would look soo hot in that custome she had  on at that senior prom or some dance. I've been single for a long time, I think that makes me, me. The fact that I'm not boy crazy and I don't worry about boys 24/7. But it is nice to get in some action in once in awhile. (and action like making out and what not.. nothing invovling sex.. not till I'm 18 boys. :) lol!)

AHH!! 2:48... I gotta get up soon.. need to be ready by 8:30 to be in Boston....

GooD Night world... Let them bed bugs bite, i heard its very kinky..LoL.  << those were my emotions for this whole entry.... you can place them anywhere you like... Gosh don't you love me?! yes you do!!! LOL