OK so my life totally rocks!!!!

* I got asked to be a teaching assistant for the Rockette Intensive at Radio City!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ~thats a huge deal!

* Letters from Cullen

* Juicy couture swimsuit ( its HOTT!)

* another UDA camp = more money!!!

* AND Going to OU soon

The only bad thing is all this thyroid stuff, but thats a small speed bumb, i just have to work harder!

wow listen to this irony

last night i made out with someone i really shouldnt hav made out with, and the next day i get a letter from cullen.....how weird is that

i havnt heard from him since he left, i thought he hated me so its funny that the day after i fuck up he sends me a letter. i find this extremely entertaining

i feel better knowing he still cares about me, but it makes me miss him more. i wish i could have him back for one day just to hug him and kiss him and let him know what he means to me.

Gosh I'm such a bad person lol. I feel like a complete bitch. I miss Cullen so much i cant even describe it. And talking to tyler and findong out how much Cullen cared for me made it even worse. No guy i have ever met compares to him, he treated me like a freakin princess. and i shut him out completley.

I did a bad thing, and it was totally unexpected, it was a combination of stress and loneliness that caused it, i was thinkin of cullen the whole time and i know it was soooo wrong of me and i feel awful about it. ( NO i didnt have sex or anything close to that lol)  just dont know how to fix this.