Closing prayer activity from Youth Ministry. My goals for the three.

School: Goal wise, I want to get grades. Yeah, everyone else's goal. But back in high school, things changed for me dramatically. My freshman year, I had above a 3.0. I was a hardworking student, & I kept on top of things. Then sophomore year came. I messed up, badly. My grade dropped from a 3.0+ to a 2.0+. The lowest I've ever gotten, & it was because I put so much stuff before school. Junior year, I attempted to get a 3.0+ again, but I didn't really succeed in it. Senior year, things started going back to the way it was supposed to be, & I actually got a 3.0+, but cummulatively (sp?) I had a 2.6ish. & It was because I messed up. I remember back my freshman year, I wanted to be a Cum Laude. Failed. So now I'm in college, & I really want to get a 3.0+. I want to do good, I want to make my parents proud. I'm trying so hard not to procrastinate. Yeah, I've kind of fallen behind in Psych readings or something, but I've caught up. & for now, I'm doing good. My parents have told me that they're proud of me. I'm taking school seriously again now. & I'm working hard. It's time to make a change in college. Time to get on top of things.

Faith: I've definitely grown faith wise from what I once was. My goal for this year was to make more of a connection with God & to keep myself involved in Church. I wanna pray more, too. I've definitely gotten closer with God. I feel like I've been able to make that connection with him. I'm going to Church so much more now. Every week, actually. & I go because I want to go, not because my parents want me to go, or because my friends are gonna be there. It's MY choice for once. & I've been so involved in Church. I think it's the most involved I've ever been in Church. I'm a Eucharistic Minister, a member of the Youth Adult Choir, in Emmaus, & an 8th grade CCD teacher. Yeah, I'm, a cathecist now. I never thought that I'd teach CCD, but I am. & I'm proud of myself for that. I want to keep up with it. I want to continue to help others understand & know more about their faith as others have helped me to do. Praying wise, I don't pray as much as I should. I never prayed before meals, I never prayed before I go to sleep, & I only prayed when something was going on or when I was at Mass. I never prayed to thank God or to talk to God. But I want to do that more now.

Yourself: I remember writing on the index card that I wanted to break out of my "bubble" & be more out there. I'm self conscious of the things I do. I hold back a lot & I'm shy. A big part is because I'm a fraid of what people will say. & the only person I've ever told that to was Schmeal. But that's how I am. & I want to be able to break out of that. I know that it's gotten better since I first joined Emmaus three years ago. I've broken out a little more. I'm not nervous to speak in front of others when it comes to Youth Ministry or CCD. But I'm like that at school sometimes. So I just want to break out of that bubble of mine & just be out there more. I want to be more open too, with others. When I'm upset with someone, I usually just keep it in, write it down, or vent to others about it. The one thing I won't do is confront the person about why I am upset with them. There's only so few people that I'll actually be open & honest to. I get so cautious of what I say, too, in front of others. Not because I'm shy, but because I'm afraid that I'll get fucked over in the end. But I know there are things about myself that I need to change, & I'll plan on making that change. & something else I wanna do. THINK before I SAY. I fuck myself over sometimes when I just blurt stuff out. & often times, it's stuff that hurts someone. So I need to watch it.