THE NEW SONG UP HERE IS FOR DERRY. THIS SONG REPRESENTS US COMPLETELY!

"Miss You"

It's been too long and I'm lost without u
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
(Said I need you)
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school
You up and left me
We were close friends
Also lovers
Did everything
For one another
Now ur gone and I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
No one here to love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do or be without you

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
(Tell me what I'm gonna do)
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

well.. i'm crying.. thinking about my baby.. and how he left to go to college to play football.. i miss him so much and he has only been gone for 5 hours.. i tried calling him 3 times..but it didn't go through.. and he won't be calling me until later tonight.. hopefully he can get through.. i'm going to miss him soooo much! i won't be able to stop crying! but the night before he left.. [last night] was fun but really frustrating..[here it goes] well he picks me up at 3 and we go to his house to hang out.. and he decides that he wants to throw the football .. so i'm like alright.. my arm doesn't feel all that great.. and the first 3 throws suck ass.. and he gets pissed.. and then he stops after a lil while.. and i get mad because i piss him off.. and then i try and say sorry.. so we stay outside waiting for his mom to get home.. and when she comes home.. we eat pizza for supper.. and then we decide to go upstairs to his room.. and laydown in each others arms for the last time.. and around 9 his best friend.. [JP] comes over.. and derry decides to embarass me about something i believe.. and he tells JP.. i get pissed.. and derry asks JP to leave so he could talk to me.. he does and i tell him that i didn't like him embarrasing me like that.. and i don't want him to do it again.. and i started crying and told him to just live his college life like i wasn't with him.. he told me that he couldn't do that.. that he wanted me to be with him.. and we just layed there for 5-10 minutes.. then we start to pack everything in the car so that he could leave in the morning.. he takes me home at 11.. and on the way home a sad song starts to play.. and i start to cry.. and he puts his hand on my leg.. and i put my hand on top of his hand.. and for a moment.. i believed [and still believe] we can make it and spend the rest of our lives with each other.. well i get home.. and i start crying when he stops in front of my house.. and i told him that i should go.. and he's like.. are you sure.. i don't say anything.. and i turn back around and hold him.. he starts to cry a little bit.. and i leave.. that night when he got home he called me..

i'm going to miss everything about him.. but hopefully my parents will allow me to go to his homecoming with his parents so i can see him.. but i hope he has a wonderful time.. and i will be here when he comes home.. I LOVE YOU DERRY!

*~Jenny~*

Derry Tyree Chalker, JR. and Jenny Blair McPherson

02.07.05

hey people! well i'm only updating because derry told me to and i'm at his house..and he is playing p2s. ok.. well he says that i'm is in his arms.. well i got nothing much to say.. except.. i got my cruise to go to next week ok sunday! i leave sunday! YIPPEE! i don't come back until the next sunday.. i will soooooo miss my baby! i don't know what i will do without him! but oh well.. well i guess i gotta go.. nothing to talk about!!! love yah'll

*~Jenny~*

WOW! almost a whole month since i have updated.. hehe.. well everything is going great right now.. but it won't last long.. and i'm prepared.. but anyways.. tomorrow is the last day of school [except for next week, but that's only exams], track is over, and yes! me and derry still go out!.. i finally had the courage to tell my father that we go out... like two weeks ago.. and he still hasen't talked to me about it.. so i guess that's good.. but i wanna know what he had to say about it..but oh well..but pretty soon derry will be leaving to go to college.. so i will be very sad..and i will miss him a lot!but uhh..today was pretty fun to... and boring.. but first block i had to sit and watch people do their recitals... i had to do mine on tuesday..so i was looking all pretty for school! but uhh..second block.. we had a "survivor" game on information about world geo... so that was kinda fun.., and then third block.. i spent talking.. the entire time!.. and then fourth block.. was health.. and we watched a movie about assault.. then derry picked me up from school and went to his house and chilled.. and then i just came home.. and remembered that derry wanted me to update my xanga.. or he just kept asking me if i had updated it.. so now.. i can tell him i have.. but i guess i will go.. so bye!

*~Jenny~*

I love you baby!

hey everybody! haven't updated in a while.. and when i did.. i did some tests.. or questions stuff.. i don't know what people call them.. but.. how is everybody doing? haha.. well i'm going good! it's SOL week (s) so i got  to sleep in today.. well not really.. skye woke me up askin if she missed the bus.. haha.. and then derry came over and we played pool.. and just hung out until the bus came for the second round.. haha..but wednesday i'm going to his house before school.. cuz i can sleep in again that day.. but tomorrow i got a math sol.. so i can't sleep in .. but i'm going to finish that thing in 30 minutes.. so i will be gettin a nap..

oh.. i won't be going to mexico anymore.. this summer.. but...... i will be going on a cruise the same week we were suppose to go to mexico.. we are going to be flying to san juan, puerto rico to catch the boat.. and then travelin to the bermudas, antigua, st. thomas, and other places.. so i'm really excited.. i will be gone for 8-9 days though.. i will miss everybody! haha.. well only really one person.. but i'll have the whole summer!.. so uhh.. not much else to say.. just waitin for my baby to get back home.. so i can talk to him.. well bye bye!

*~Jenny~*