 
Hi. It's been a while since i've written a long update. And right now I have nothing better to do because I got grounded for a few weeks and can't go to homecoming tonight. =[ This is like what, the second time I've lied to my parents and they found out? Now i'm really beginning to learn from my mistakes, but still -it happened two months ago. Whatever i'll live, i guess.
So lets start with the subject of SCHOOL. I like N-Dub. It's pretty cool. The first few weeks were hectic because I was a little behind in my classes. I still have homework just about everynight, but its not a whole lot more than I had at North. I've made a lot of friends and its wonderful to be going to the same school with some old friends too. On the other hand... I miss North & most of my friends. I never realized that it would be such a huge change. But I have no regrets. I'm glad I no longer have stress on my hands or my family's. Slowly but surely things are getting better. I do miss CHEERLEADiNG though, but then again it was kind of nice to be able to dress up and wear whatever to go watch the varsity games. I'm really not sure if I'll try out at NW in the spring or join ECLiPSE.. I'm still debating. hmm.. Private lessons for tumbling is amazing. I keep improving as each week goes on. It hasn't taken as long as I thought it would be to get back into doing it.
BOYS BOYS BOYS! Theres really only one person that knows exactly how I feel. (other than myself) Its complicated, but idk its just something that I can't really explain. As much as I love having a boyfriend I really don't want one right now. I've learned/realized a few things from past relationships that ended short. I need a guy thats willing to get to know me and not start talking to me one week before we actually become a couple. I guess I'm the kind of person that likes to know the guy pretty well and be friends with them before anything happens. I find things are much easier that way and it'll last a little bit longer. Obviously, no relationship lasts forever . HELLO--We're in highschool! I'm just waiting for that "special someone" to come along and for a relationship that will last for a while . . . Then again maybe I'm the one with too high of expectations?
NEGATiVE
+ i miss my long hair.
+ i miss cheering for EA
+ i'm tired of winter, because i can't go out and golf.
+ the littlest things can make me jealous, but i say i don't care.
+ i wish i were young again
+ i seem to play mind games and i wish i didnt.
+ i hate akward silence
+ i dont smile as much as i should
+ i hate making other people miserable
Yeaaah well I've ran out of things to say so umm COMMENT!
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