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orchestra festival today..wish us luck because we really need it..

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festival turned out aiight.we got two 2's and two 1's..didnt qualify for states but the scores are still good...on the way home from havre de grace,me melissa,amber,and jessica were singing nsync,spice girls and green day and sum kids disco CD thing..lol it was soooooooo fun and everybody was lookin at us like we were retarded..lmfao good times!!.at track practice we had to run all the way to otter creek (its about a mile and half the way we ran i think..) then we played this frisby game..i dont really like it but oh well..then we did ab exercises then went home..my dad was rushin me..then i get home and my sis calls and said her car got towed and my moms actin like she cant go get her so instead of bein the responsible mother..she gets my brother to go get her..i mean pure laziness..then she starts yellin at me sayin i dont respect her and shes gonna stop respectin me im like wtf..aint nothing new! then she said all this other shyt like dont ask her for no favors..im like okay i dont ask you for anything anyways..but anyway..im done here..buh bye

eh..i stayed home from school today..i was gonna go but when i woke up..my eyes were all swollen and puffy and shyt cuz they were itchin real bad last night.. i looked realllllly bad so i was like i refuse to go to school looking like that..not that i needed 2 impress anybody anyway..i was still tired and i got a lot of stuff on my mind.. but im still goin 2 practice at 2 30...my brother is gonna take me...tomorrow is festival for orchestra...n its at havre de grace so im not gonna be in school all day and i get to spend the day with my lovely orcha dork friends amber,jessica,kashiem,melissa and everybody else!! =D i look foward to it...blech...thats how i feel...im tryna release everything from my head  thats been bringing me down and stressin me out..keeping myself from crying has used up almost all of my energy..but now i dont really feel the need to cry anymore...hmph...ima go now..i mite update latersz..matter of fact i might do a survey...just look out for me!!

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*sigh*..i think i deserve that feeling....hahah jennifer.........

anyways..

i just want that one guy..all of my friends got somebody that have mutual feelings for them and i just seem like the oddball with nobody..and nobody likes me back..this sux really really bad..i have a few interests but i doubt they will work..ima just keep to myself until the right one comes along.....=/

well..i guess i gotta get over him..he likes somebody else (nothing new) and im sitting here looking like a dumbass for falling for him..oh well..i dont need to be focusing on boys anyways...i got more important things to focus on like my cello and my running skills..uhm..today was an aiight day..not much happened..soo0o..ima end it here

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okay..maybe i lied..heres a survery

i definitely didnt get a good sleep last night and shipoopi has been in my head all effin night! lol..i wanna listen 2 yo yo ma but im about to go to the busstop and my CD player is broken..welp i got another week to face at school..im only really looking foward to track practice pretty much but  oh well...ima go now..ill update later

-:-i never thought,id lose my mind, i never thought of suicide,until you took your love away-:-

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school wasnt as bad as i thought it was gonna be..1st and 2nd period were real boring as usual but in orchestra we played rosin eating zombies..and i like that song a lot..then in spanish..me and el meechio were singing like every song from the music man....isnt it terrible that i woke up like every hour last night with shipoopi in my head? lol..i was about to go crazy. 5th period..me and sean mingled..its definitely not the same but its cool for now...blah.. i dont wanna put him on a guilt trip or anything (sorry if your reading this) but i really really miss him..and its just things arent right anymore..like i miss walking with him 2 class and to his locker and seeing him waiting for me outside of my 4th period class..it was the best..=/..=(..okay at track practice.. we did pyramids...two 200's,two 300's, two 400's and two 800's.. then it went back down..omg i did like the first 200's and 300's by myself then i caught up with brandon and ahmad and we did the rest of em together..we pretty much jogged them all because i am not a 800 meter or 400 meter runner..they were kickin my ass..but the 200's were okay.ahh i just read my fortune that was in my fortune cookie and it said "the best prophet of the future is the past"..i dont get it but oh well...aiight..well now ima just prolly take a nice l0o0ong bath cuz my body hurts..peace homies

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