Every day is a struggle.  I am so tired, and inexplicably so.

I've started thyroid treatments to no avail.  I'm as miserable and tired as I was before.  And the blood tests are now showing that my thyroid may not be the problem afterall.  Terrific. 

At least I have my two true loves to see me through this: Justin & the TV.

Nothing to report.  Work sucks.  I clench my jaw and that creates my mouth pain.  I'm going to have to work on that.  Oh, and I bought a book, "When You Live with a Messie".  I hope it's a good read.  I hope it will help me to deal with my parents messes and my own.  I know Justin will enjoy it.

Almost Christmas.  Whoop-de-doo.

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Too Long.

I never write on here anymore.  I need to work on that.

I didn't go to work today because I felt... BLAH.  I kinda felt like $h*+ when I woke up & I stayed in bed alllll day today.  I stayed in bed all day yesterday, too.  I must have worn myself out lately to feel so bad. 

Lauren & Jason got married on Saturday night.  I loved the wedding it was so much fun.  Much more fun than I've had in a loooong time.  I saw Crystal, Amanda, & (gasp) Lisa.  I haven't seen Lisa in about 5 years!  It was nice to see her again & I'm glad she's doing well down in Florida. 

Anyway, I'm off to bed.  But I wanted to let the world know that I have not disappeared into the abyss forever.  I'll start writing on here again soon. 

Geez... over a month since the last entry.  I shouldn't be surprised though.  Life is too busy.  Two months from today I graduate college.  What on earth am I going to do after that?!  I'm just waiting on Justin to figure that one out. 

Tons to report, but no desire to write it on here...

Recent events include Intercollegiate Band, Atlantic City, Spring Break things, & the upcoming TBS convention in Clarion, PA.  But, alas, I don't really feel like writing about any of them right now.  In fact, I just wanted to leave a note to say, "I know I still have a Xanga, but I honestly don't have time to update it at the moment!" 

So, goodnight & good luck...

The End.

Long ago & far away...

I hadn't realized that I had not touched my Xanga since last semester.  But tonight, after perusing the internet and wandering into my own notes on Facebook, I realized just how long it had been.  You have to understand that the last entry seems both like an eternity away and just yesterday all rolled into one.  I could wax poetic on this subject, but tonight I have done far too much deep, intellectual thinking for my own good.  I would share this with all of you, but I feel it is to personal at this point to go into great depth.  Let's just say I have said my incoherent hodgepodge, discovered just how I feel about several things, and questioned whether or not you can die within your own dreams and ever awaken after your own demise.  Thus was my evening, and thus I shall not bore you with it.

I bought a game last night at Walmart.  I hope that I get to play this one.  It was quite enjoyable so far.  Of course I have already had to have Justin help me out to figure out some of it.  It's called Nibiru: Age of Secrets.  I think it will choose to be a wonderfully adventurous challenge.  I need more inert activities in my life.  ::Rolls eyes::  While exercise need to be added to my To Do List, I do feel better than I felt a few days ago.  So that is good.

Tomorrow is Thursday.  I love Thursdays.  Why?  Well, certainly not the endless classes for 6 hours straight, or soon-to-be office hour, or the rehearsal or meeting... but instead what comes after all of that is complete.  And what, pray tell, is that?  Well, I'm glad you asked.  It's nothing.  Grade-A, Pasteurized, Processed, Organic Nothing.  Sounds tasty, doesn't it?  Well, it is to me.  Because it marks the moment when I no longer have to worry for a couple of days about homework or tests or much of anything really.  Fridays I work and attend band practice, but nothing more.  I sure do love my four day weekends.  Now, I never really have a day off.  Work, rehearsals, performances, meetings, etc. clutter my time, but there is nothing like the feeling of fewer responsibilities for just a little while.

That's my life in a nutshell.  I'm trying to figure out what happens next, and as of today I only have 100 days until graduation... well, 99 now because it's after midnight.  Scary, huh?

"There's something about a person's eyes... these portals are significant because they let you view a piece of a person that he or she might just be trying to hide from the rest of the world. Perhaps that piece is his or her soul."

The End.

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The sky is the limit...

So, I want to say CONGRATULATIONS to all of the newest Sisters & Brothers!  Woo!  You made it!

And especially congrats to Justin... I know it was a long, hard road, but you made it baby!

So, I'm at work right now.  I'm bored, but I'm going to start reading my book in a minute or two.  That will help.  I've also got to down my lunch.  It's a wrap.  Hopefully it will taste okay.  Not that Bentley food ever really tastes okay.  Yuck.

Tomorrow I head home, but not before some quality time with Justin.  And also not before some laundry & some more room cleaning.  I want my room to look really good for when I come back from this little break.  Thanksgiving should be a nice vacation from LHU, but I've gotta go home and keep working on my papers, etc. for here.  I never really get fully away.  But at least it will give me a break & some time!!

Well, that's all for now.  Mainly this post was to congratulate all of those beautiful new Sisters & Brothers.  I love you all!!!

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