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So Far So Good. TGIF :)

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 12:59:03 GMT

I have been home since Sunday morning and returning to NC on the first of October. Upon returning to that hell hole, I will have five days left, excluding my weekend, and I will be back home on the 7th of October. *freedom at last* My active duty contract for five years has been served but I still have THREE years left to be STILL called back. I think when I land a good job and enrolled in a college, they should not be able to call me back so I'm doing my homework on that loophole to see if that's true.... Lately Afghanistan has been acting up so I won't be too shocked if they called me back sooner requiring my unique and special skills in my area. I'm up for it in any case because I'm still working out and keeping up my physique. You never know when the call comes, might as well prepare for the worst and hope for the best. Being at home has been great and but I get into petty squabbles with the family sometimes, usually overreacting with my sis or mom. They get on my case often as of late, I know it's because they care and all, but restricting my freedom like I'm NOT 23 yrs old, really gets annoying at times. I try to keep my cool but it's ridiculous, those two don't understand I NEED to get out of the house sometime! I do not like living a sheltered life and cooped up like a caged bird. I want to stay active and not adapt the hermit life my sister is. Seems like no social life but that is what I see from my eyes. But other than that, everything is gravy. Visited my grandparents and cousin a great deal of times. Spent some time with the Worthingtons, Alex, and etc. All is well so far... Gaming, running, staying in shape, whatever to keep this guy active and satisfied. Went out last night with a friend to downtown and it was an excellent night but one of my friends' didn't want to come so it could of been better. But being stubborn as he is... I went solo with my other friend along side and had fun out in the night. :) I came back around midnight, I dropped her off at her place, and drove home thinking how fun it was that night. I TRIED to dance at this bar but I felt like a white boy trapped in a Cambodian body.. lol no rhythm but I steadily got down the basics and went with it. I had fun nevertheless and it was good, felt the eyes of other woman or it's my paranoia acting up again. I was dressed pretty decent as well as my friend, so we had our share of gawking people as well as gossip to how bad my dancing was... I did not let that stop me from having fun or keeping my cool. They would of seen PANDEMONIUM at it's best and things would get messy, so luckily for them, I kept a cool head, and ignored the HATERS. That's how I roll. :)

NeVeR a Dull Momment..

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 02:32:53 GMT

So pissed off and disappointed on the last few days on what had happened.
Our reputation as undefeated has been tainted b/c no one on our team was doing anything right, no team work, communication, or intensity. On top of that, my friend Meza and I was benched the whole time!!! I came to every practice except a few days I had my final physical, which was Monday* We were SHUT OUT!! 0-5 and last year we were 15 - 0!! My friend and I walked off the field after the other team scored the fourth goal and they still didn't put us in, by that time everyone switched at least three times. After my hard work and working out to be in top shape for this game and finally received my uniform! Only to witness my team getting slaughtered by a mediocre team and watching helplessly from the side lines... They deserved it for not switching out to give people rest properly. It was a wake up call to deflate their egos, the other team wanted to win and had better team work, that's it, other than that, they weren't all that good at all. A lost is a lost and we got our work cut out for. We scrimiged on that Friday and worked out our quarks. I got slide tackled pretty good by our goalie, Capt. Fulsom, lol and is still hurting but recovering just fine. Taking it easy for a bit and finally updating my little slice of life that is somewhat interesting to show everyone a piece of Pandemonium in the Marine Corps. Never a dull momment. :)
On another note, I am preparing to leave for vacation for home on the 19th and coming back on the 1st of Oct. I EAS on the 7th and getting a huge sum of dinero and interest from a certain rat bastard for getting my car impounded as well as lying to me so many times! Manning up to your mistakes and telling the truth isn't so hard as lying w/o regard or morals!!
On top of that, this week was crazy!! A junior Marine of ours... upon coming by to find out what's with my car... we took a look at his house and found it atrocious as well as the stench of death/crap seeping from the house.. My friend and I pushed forward to find out what's that smell and persuaded to see inside what it was.. To our horror.. it was much dog doo doo... everywhere! I mean everywhere!!! We took it through the proper chain of command to help these two because they were too lazy and irresponsible to maintain cleanliness of the house!! * Just had a baby and wanted to bring a new born in that crap hole.* But in reality they were staying at a friend's house which was less filthy but still filthy regardless!! No place to raise a new born child! Unfit parents with no sign of morals or INTEGRITY. Lied to our faces three times saying that they never got two violations/complaints about their filth!! We got down to it and took care of it personally to the Manager of the base housing and it was out of our hands from there. We helped them but they were super pissed at us.. We did the right thing and accused us for kicking them out of their house... News Flash, the house was already lost when we had to step in to help them because they were too lazy to clean up after themselves... Especially the housewife who doesn't work!! Cleaning a little bit at the house isn't hard! She is getting taken care of and the husband is bringing in the money! I was never so disqusted or disappionted in my life!! They had ten days to clean up the mess or get evicted. They were lucky and it's going well so far, but the house is condemned and $8000 worth of damage to be replaced on furniture and etc due the damage of the two dogs/puppies who crapped everywhere!! I'd show you pictures but it's too gruesome for anyone to see.. Those pictures went to my higher ups to get it managed and fix this problem. I could of been cold hearted. I would have just asked about my money and left. But I cared and noticed it because was so obvious that something was seriously wrong. It was pure pandemonium.... Did so much driving, talking to people, and walking that day.. But I made a difference and they would thank me later, even though they are angry at me. Sometimes, you got to be cruel to be kind. They didn't want to help themselves so we ASSISTED. It got ugly but straight to the point and it was done and over with. :) Smooth sailing so far and reconstruction has started. This guy was all jacked up, finances, and so fourth, he needed help but didnt ask for any all... Pride or ashamed, afraid? Who knows but I found out and did it myself. Did my best and it's turning out for the better in the end.

Playing the Patience Card..

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:44:37 GMT

This week and last, I have been going all around this unit to get signatures as well as turning in military gear to get out of the military... What they don't tell you is that it's freaking easy and peachy to get you in but getting out should be the same right? WRONG, totally opposite, it was a pain in the butt and took almost 3 days to get completely checked out and got attitudes with some of them because they don't care that I'm in a rush... This one guy who stayed in too long who needs to get out of the military who gets out, will be the pitiful one who all he knows is Marine Corps.. He got all butt hurt that I talked low to ask to get check out sheet and blew up on me! I'm like saying WTF is wrong with this guy... in my head of course and holding my back to say anything smart b/c this guy controls my paperwork... Luckily for that so I didn't say b/c it wasn't nice so why waste my breath, that's what I've been taught anyway. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. Certain exceptions *ahem* They try so hard or be so particular to get their signature even though they know very well you need it and therefore, they take advantage on it to slow you down to get you heated! For instance, one of my flak pieces was a bit damp, not wet at all, she sent me away and had my dry it outside before I turned it in after waiting for four hours waiting in line and turning in the rest of my gear. I dried it for like ten minutes and turned it back in, " I'm like wow, anything else? " I have to get Sgt Major, S-1, and NBC signatures to finish off my battalion section complete and company is easy after that. Another problem just hit me yesterday, they told me to correct a minor error in my package... It was 31.5 so I had to change it to 31 days exactly because I cannot take a half day.. Wow this unit and military is retarded... Petty BS and that's why I'm getting out, all the petty BS gets nick picked and pointless mistakes that could be easily taken care of but decide to reject it back you to delay my terminal leave!! Trying to keep a cool head and be patient on all this.
On another note my roommate and good friend is leaving Saturday so we are chilling out at the beach Friday afternoon on the four day weekend we are getting. The week after that is supposed to be my window to leave but it might be closed because they want to take their time....Ugh what luck and WHY ME!!!!
Hope you guys are having better luck than me and that's why everyone out there who thinks their life is tough, you have it easier and you are taking things for GRANTED! Try the Marine Coprs, 2nd Tanks Bn!! That's it for now and got my next soccer game on Thursday. :) Wish me luck, eh? haha take care everyone and see ya next time. :

Weekend at RI :)

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 14:52:10 GMT

Cousin's Wedding Commences at 5 P.M.
Mood: so fresh and so clean, just got my hair cut. ;)

I arrived in RI Friday morning at 2:15 P.M. after a long twelve hour bus ride from NC on Thursday night. Mom picked me up, unloaded my gear at the house, met with family, cousins, and grandma at my uncle's house because they were anxious to see their Marine of a nephew. *lol go figure* My mood was extinguished when I found out that my grandpa had a heart attack because of the stress of all those people around the house and my family knew that he should of stayed there a bit long to recover. But my aunt decided to bring him back a day early only to suffer. So I'm worried but I know he'll be fine because I'm strong willed and all the traits learned because of him. So I know he'll recover just fine and hope that he gets to see me again before I leave. I wouldn't know what to do if I found out the alternative on the day of my cousin's wedding. Keeping my fingers crossed and praying that he'll get through this.
Today this morning I went to pick up my best friend Cham, from the airport at 9 A.M. and got our hair cuts. Got to look sharp for this we know that much. ;) Pick up my long awaited guest of honor who I'll meet for the first time, face to face.. butterflies in my stomach, haha, at 2 P.M. at the train station or whenever she gets there, hitting my cell. :) So far so good, best friend is here and all I need to do now is wait for my guest of honor for that fated hour at 5 P.M to commence the wedding!!! Taknig so many pics of course and I'll post it ASAP when I have the chance. On my off time, Halo 3, Call of Duty 4, Soul Calibur 4, and Metal Gear Solid 4 it up in the Pan residence. hehe

Life Lessons From Yours Truly :)

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 05:52:07 GMT

“The Ten Most Dangerous Mistakes YOU Probably
Make With Women—
And What To Do About It...”

Here Are The Top Ten Reasons Why Men Fail With Women—And How To Make Sure YOU Avoid Every One Of These Deadly Common Mistakes...

MISTAKE #1: Being
Too Much Of A “Nice Guy”

Have you ever noticed that the really attractive women never seem to be attracted to "nice" guys?

Of course you have.

Just like me, I'm sure you've had attractive female friends that always seemed to date "jerks"... but for some reason they were never romantically interested in YOU.

What's going on here?

It's actually very simple...

Women don't base their choices of men on how "nice" a guy is. They choose the men they do because they feel a powerful GUT LEVEL ATTRACTION for them.

And guess what?

Being nice doesn't make a woman FEEL that powerful ATTRACTION.

And being NICE doesn't make a woman CHOOSE you.

I realize that this doesn't make a lot of logical sense, and it's hard to ACCEPT... but GET OVER IT.

Until you accept this FACT and begin to act on it, you'll NEVER have the success with women that you want.

MISTAKE #2: Trying To
“Convince Her To Like You"

What do most guys do when they meet a woman that they REALLY like... but she's just notinterested?

Right! They try to "convince" the woman to feel differently.

Well, I have news for you... YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW A WOMAN "FEELS" WHEN IT COMES TO ATTRACTION!

Never, ever, EVER.

You cannot CONVINCE a woman to feel differently about you with "logic and reasoning".

Think about it.

If a woman doesn't "feel it" for you, how in the world do you expect to change that FEELING by being "reasonable" with her?

But we all do it.

When a woman just isn't interested, we beg, plead, chase, and do our best to change her mind.

Bad idea. One that will never work.

MISTAKE #3: Looking To Her
For Approval Or Permission

In our desire to please women (which we mistakenly think will make them like us), us guys are always doing things to get a woman's "approval" or "permission".

Another HORRIBLE idea.

Women are NEVER attracted to the types of men who kiss up to them... EVER.

Don't get me wrong here.

You don't have to treat women BADLY for them to like you.

But if you think that treating a woman well means "always getting her approval and permission for things", think again.

You will never succeed by looking for approval. Women actually get ANNOYED at men who seek their approval.

Doubt me? Just ask any attractive woman if Wussy guys who chase her around and want her approval annoy her...

MISTAKE #4: Trying To “Buy” Her Affection With Food And Gifts

How many times have you taken a woman out to a nice dinner, bought her gifts and flowers, and had her REJECT you for someone who didn't treat her even HALF as well as you did?

If you're like me, then you've had it happen a LOT.

Well guess what?

It's only NATURAL when this happens...

That's right, I said NATURAL.

When you do these things, you send a clear message:

"I don't think you'll like me for who I am, so I'm going to try to buy your attention and affection".

Your good intentions usually come across to women as over-compensation for insecurity, and weak attempts at manipulation. That's right, I said that women see this as MANIPULATION.

MISTAKE #5: Sharing
“How You Feel” Too Early In
The Relationship With Her

Another huge and unfortunate mistake that most men make with women is sharing how they "feel" too early on.

Attractive women are rare.

And they get a LOT of attention from men.

Most men don't realize this, but attractive women are being approached in one way or another ALL THE

An attractive woman is often approached several times a DAY by men who are interested. This translate into dozens of times per week, and often HUNDREDS of times per month.

And guess what?

Attractive women have usually dated a LOT of men.

That's right. They have EXPERIENCE.

They know what to expect.

And one thing that turns an attractive women off and sends her running away faster than just about anything is a guy who starts saying "You know, I really, REALLY like you" after one or two dates.

This signals to the woman that you're just like all the other guys who fall for her too fast... and can't control themselves.

Don't do it. Lean back. Relax.

There's a much better way...

MISTAKE #6: Not “Getting” How Attraction Works For Women

Women are VERY different from men when it comes to ATTRACTION.

You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.

When a man sees a beautiful, young, sexy woman, he INSTANTLY feels a sexual attraction.

But does the same apply for women?

Do women feel sexual attraction to men based mostly on looks? Or is something else going on?

Well, after studying this topic for over five full years now, I can tell you that women usually have their "attraction mechanisms" triggered by things OTHER than looks.

Have you ever noticed that you see a lot more average and unattractive men with beautiful women than the other way around?

Think about it.

Women are more attracted to certain qualities in men... and they're attracted to the way a man makes them FEEL than they are to looks alone.

If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

But it's not an accident. You have to LEARN how to do this.

And ANY guy can learn how...

MISTAKE #7: Thinking That It
Takes Money And Looks

One of the most common mistakes that guys make is giving up before they've even gotten started... because they think that attractive women are only interested in men who have looks and money... or guys who are a certain height... or guys who are a certain age.

And sure, there are some women who are only interested in these things.

But MOST women are far more interested in a man's personality than his wallet or his looks.

There are personality traits that attract women like a magnet...

And if you learn what they are and how to use them, YOU can be one of these guys.

YOU DO NOT have to "settle" for a woman just because you aren't rich, tall, or handsome.

Let me say this again: If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

MISTAKE #8: Giving Away
All Of Your Power To Women

Earlier I mentioned that it's a mistake to look to a woman for approval or permission.

Well, another similar tactic that a lot of guys use is GIVING AWAY THEIR POWER to women.

Said differently, guys try to get women to like them by doing whatever the woman wants.

Another bad idea...

Women are NEVER attracted to men that they can walk all over... Women aren't attracted to Wussies!

MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing
EXACTLY What To Do In Each
Type Of Situation With Women

Now I'm going to blow your mind...

A woman ALWAYS knows what you're thinking.

Women are approximately TEN TIMES better than men at reading body language. That's ten TIMES.

I know, it might be hard to believe. But for example, if you're out on a date with a woman, and you want to kiss her, she knows it.

And if you don't know exactly what to do and exactly HOW to kiss her, and you just sit there looking at her and getting nervous, she won't help!

And this goes for ALL aspects of women and dating...

Approaching a woman, getting her number, asking her out, kissing her, getting physical... everything.

If you don't know what to do in each situation, you will probably screw it up... and LOSE EVERYTHING.

And you KNOW it.

It is VITALLY important that you know EXACTLY how to go from one step to the next with a woman... from the first meeting, all the way to the bedroom.

MISTAKE #10: Not Getting HELP

This is the biggest mistake of all.

This is the mistake that keeps most men from EVER having the kind of success with women that they truly want.

I know, guys don't like to make themselves look weak or helpless. We don't like to ask for help.

Hey, I've been there myself.

Journey From RI to NC With the Quickness. >_<

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 05:32:04 GMT

I left Rhode Island to start my journey back to NC on Thursday, 11 A.M. and arrived on base at 10 A.M. finding out that everyone at my unit had a day off today after a battalion run. That is so awesome and it worked to my advantage today. i thought I was going back to work. NEVER AGAIN will I ride the bus home, it is long 10 hr ride and boring as heck w/ some interesting people you meet up in there. I finally got to my room, unpacked my clothes and set up my electronics : Xbox 360, Game Cube, and my laptop because I have my internet/cable set up. So my room is my sanctuary from now on.
So far so good. :) Monday is going to suck but whatever my motivation is restored and I'm ready to take on the crap that is THE MARINE CORPS!

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Dark Knight People! :)

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 18:34:38 GMT

It has been a good week so far guys and I still got some time to use for whatever so hit me up if you want to chill! :) That movie is AWESOME and if you haven't gone to see it... GO SEE IT DAMMIT!!! YOU ARE MISSING OUT!! On other note, it has been awesome on my leave of R & R but unfortunately it's coming to a close on Thursday. >_< Sad to say but I'll make the best of it somehow and someway definitely. It's not over until the FAT lady sings... *Looks at Ashely-Cham's soon to be divorce wife* But other than that I'm good and chilled w/ the family and friends. So far so good, my spirits has been renewed and should last until Oct because I have my cousin's wedding to look forward to as well as my DATE, and my September terminal leave, on top of that my final sending on Oct 7. EAS out of the Marine Corps from ACTIVE duty and into 3 years reserve unit. Hopefully going to jump start on my career in aviation mechanics in Boston, MA. On that note, take care of yourselves everybody and see you next time on the flip side! :)

Homeward Bound Feels So Good :)

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 16:14:19 GMT

I'm here to update my post since I got home Saturday instead of Friday b/c they left early. I had to catch the next flight in the morning and now it is SWEET being home! So glad to home and have been relaxing way better than I was in North Carolina. The weather has been nice lately and rained once a few days ago. I went to see Hancock with a friend two nights ago and stopped by a friend's house to chill playing Super Smash Bros Brawl, Dragon Ball Burst Limit, and Metal Gear Solid 4. It was awesome catching up with a friend that I haven't seen for five years. So far I chilled with Austen and Shawn, my best friends, but missing my other one Cham, who went back to AZ. I'm going chill with my other friends that I haven't seen in awhile, hopefully they are free.
Friday I got some plans to play some tennis and etc with some friends in Boston. I won't be going to North Carolina until the 25th of this month. Then coming again in August 9th for my cousin's wedding and after that, September! That will mark my days to take my leftover days for terminal for like twenty seven days. October 7th comes by and BAM! I pick up my DD 2 14, my ticket earned from surviving this ordeal that is the Marine Corps for five years in active and three years in reserve left to go for a total of eight years on my contract. That's it for now, just gaming on my 360, playstation 3, and gamecube, Wii coming soon.. Love this life and grateful looking forward to it. I've been through some hard times but tough times make tough people. Definitely learned a great deal that some experiences that no one will have what I've been through and seen.

Today Ends My Seps And Taps Class

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 16:52:14 GMT

Music Fav. - Rick Ross - Feat. Nelly; Here I Am
Mood: Good to Go

Here to update my blog and sorry for slacking on this lately so here it is. October 7 would be my mark my 5 year commitment to the Marine Corps. Not many regular people can say that and survive this for 5 years of pain, misery, BS in general, high times, and low times, freedom taken away into drone-like behavior.. I am about to get it back. My rights and etc, I have eanred it and am grateful for it. Seeing things from a different perspective from civilian to military and military to civilian. It's easer to stay in because most people adapted to this lifestyle but some military stay in so long that they forget how to adapt to other better lifestyle that awaits them after applying the skills acquired from the military service.
Real traits when leaving the service: Honor, Courage, and Commitment. Definitely discipine.
Been to all over the east coast, Iraq, Kuwait, and Fullujah earning my combat action ribbon award for clearing houses, patrolling mobil, providing security, enjoyed my Halo 2 tournament as Halo 2 tag team champion award in Iraq Recreation Center, good conduct ribbon for three years of keeping my nose clean, and my Iraqi Campaign ribbon for surviving that hell hole.
The past 4 days has been an enlightening experience because I really learned so much about the opportunities that is presented to me after this career is over. I didn't expect all this job offers who value our traits that can be made very useful in the real world. It's amazing what they offer and benefits for that job. Looking for the right job with the right skills that I have acquired after a 5 year commitment to this service has taken it's toll one me. I did some soul searching to find out somewhere I belong. It seemed nice in the beginning but then my choices that led me here up until now, knowing that I didn't make the best decisions but every decisions has it's own comforts. Survived here and now, somehow I was doing something right. I knew that I didn't plan on staying in because I knew it wasn't for me and I couldn't do that to myself knowing how miserable it actually it is. *from my experience* It has been a wake up call and it made me realize that how ungrateful I was in wasting my opportunities while I was at home. I was so ashamed of myself for just working after I left high school so I sought this as another chance to redeem myself hopefully to not waste this opportunity find out what I'm made of. My merit and value because I owe myself for letting myself getting this far in this crazy roller coaster called the Marine Corps. Definitely miss my family and friends, it's time to see what can I do after all this time. 5 years was not a waste, it was invested to sharpen my skills for sure. The world is bigger than I thought after leaving this second world of Marine Corps life.
Learned so much and met some great people along the way. Good luck to them if they want to stay in or whatever, as for me I'm choosing a different path to find my success story and happiness. Maybe find a good woman along the way who can tolerate this former Marine ongoing toward back to normality. Here's me spilling out my mind a bit. haha
Until next session people, take care!!

So Far So Good :)

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 20:09:32 GMT

This week went surprisingly smooth but it was really hot this week. Just another work week, just moving around so many trucks around the motor pool for preparation of the change over ceremony coming this week. We have to do drill and it has to be all formal and fancy... I dread it so much because on the so called parade deck, it's going to be a roasting ground for the masses. During that time many people have a high chance of passing out and eating concrete while breaking your jaw in the process. Lately I have been working out like regularly and running so much, to get back to 150 or 155lbs would be my goal, back into my top shape.. A long and painful way to go so far... >_< That's what I get for splurging all that and letting up. It does catch after you after awhile if you don't watch it. Another lesson learned, but anyway, last night I watched Kung Fu Panda and The Happening. Both good movies btw, Kung Fu Panda was hilarious and The Happening is freaky scary and a bit weird of a plot though. All in all it was a good movie and tomorrow I got martial arts training to get my gray belt. I need like 30 hrs to upgrade it and it will tone me up also. heh two birds with one stone, eh. Miss everyone so much but I have to tolerate this BS for a little bit longer in order to take leave for July and saving up the rest for my cousin's wedding and terminal leave on September!! October seems so close but so far away.. October 7 is my official leave date of my contract ending active service and 3 years left in reserve. They could call me back any time in those 3 years time... Whatever happens I'll do my best and enjoy it while I can. The higher ups are trying to convince me to stay in, they are crazy!! 35,500 for reenlist bonus and taxes take out a huge chunk. You wont even get all of it back in taxes, maybe most of it and a steady paycheck on the 1st and the 15th of this sorry excuse of a paycheck. I won't miss that, a normal job already beats that and less BS than Marine Corps anytime. 2.5 leave days a month isn't bad for the Marine Corps but you don't have that much time to use because of training and etc. So many gray areas of the Marine Corps and I've seen enough. Some of my friends gave in to reenlisting, good for them but it's not for me, I won't judge on their call but I hope they got a good and strong reason to stay in. It's like poison and I hope they can stomach it for another 4 years the government will own them... Oh well onto better things, can't wait for the transition from military to normality, still a Marine by heart but will it be hard or is a mind thing? We'll see won't we? I'll never know what the future has in store for me for only my choices will steer me in the path that will soon be clear and I'll do my best. Definitely a better person or at least an improvement compared from now and before I joined the corps. The Marine Corps was a good wake up call, a good thing to help me realize things I took for granted, and how much potential I had into becoming something more than normal. heh I'll miss some aspects of this life like my friends and the never a dull moment days. But some things I can leave behind but left inside my memories where they belong. More ups then downs but not enough downs to make me stay in this life of what is the Marine Corps. I have come to terms and sticking to my decision while others will give into the reenlistment bonus.. Take it, it's blood money and I don't want it, money can get it anywhere and more of it to come by. So much I have gone through and I'll never forget why I did this for. Family, friends, country, and finding myself again, somewhere I belong..
Until next time peoples, later.