| I WISH I UNDERSTOOD MY BOYFRIEND..BUT I DONT..I USE TO KNOW HIM NOW ALL I SEE IS A STRANGER WHO LOVES ME..BUT HE DOESNT GET IT..I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART YET I GET TREATED LIKE SHIT..FOR FOURTH OF JULY WE SUPPOSE TO BE TOGETHER YET FOR 4 DAYS NOW HE HASNT CALL.IVE BEEN HAVING A FEELING HE BE CREPING BUT I HAVE TO TRUST HIM RITE..BUT IM FUCKING PREGNANT WITH HIS KID..DOES HE CARE..ALL I KNOW IS THAT ITS MY FAULT...MY FAULT TO HAVE THIS BABY BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO LOSE HER..AM I DOING SOMETHING WRONG...WHY CANT HE LOVE ME AND BE THERE FOR ME..I CRY AND CRY OUT HIS NAME YET HE CANT HEAR NOR FEEL THAT I NEED HIM..WHY ME..WHY DID I EVER DO TO DESERVE THIS..I LOVE HIM AND I WANT TO BE WITH..YET I DONT THINK HE WANTS TO BE WITH SO HE PUSHES ME AWAY..WHY..ALL I DID WAS LOVE HIM AND GAVE HIM EVERYTHING I HAD..DOES HE EVEN APRECIATE THAT...IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME??WHY CANT THE GUY OF MY LIFE COME TO ME..WHY CANT HE BE A BOYFRIEND..WHY IS HE PUSHING ME AWAY FROM SOMETHING I WORK HARD FOR AND GAVE UP SO MUCH JUST TO BE WITH HIM...AND NOW ALL THAT WORK AND YET I GET NOTHING..ALL I GET ARE TEARS AND SLEEPLESS NIGHT CAUSE IM WATING FOR HIM..FOR HIM TO CALL OR POP OUT OF NO WHERE AND SEE ME...BUTR YET HE CANT EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE AND DIAL MY NUMBER...ITS ALL ABOUT HIS FRIENDS..AND IM NOTHING...HIS GONNA BE A FATHER AND YET HE DOESNT CARE TO BE WITH HIS BABY MOMMA...IVE TRIED AND TRIED...ALL I WANT IS HIM..JUST ME AND HIM..I CANT EVEN HEAR HIS VOICE BECAUSE EVERYTIME HIS FRIENDS CALL HE OUT THE DOOOR..HE IGNORES ME...AND EVERYTIME HE MAKES PLANS WITH ME AND TELL S ME ABOUT IT..I WAIT AND WAIT ..HE STOOD ME UP SO MANY TYMES BECAUSE HIS FRIENDS WANTS HIM TO GO WITH THEM...AND YET HE DOESNT CARE TO CALL ME AND SAYS HE GOING WITH HIS BOYS...ITS LIKE IM JUST A BOOTY CALL..THATS HOW I FEEL IM PREGNANT AND YET I STILL FEEL LIKE IM A BOOTTY CALL TO HIM...WE HARDLY SEE EACHOTHER HARDLY GO OUT AND HARDLY LOVE EACH OTHER...IS THIS THE END OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE GUY I TRIED SO HARD TO GET AND KEEP..WHY...AL I WANTED WAS HIM TO LOVE ME AND YET I GET A KICK IN THE ASS..I SEE COUPLES AND THINK WHY CANT HE BE LIKE THAT...WHY CANT HE HOLD ME WHY CANT HE BE RIGHT HERE WITH ME...IVE TRIED AND YET I STILL FAILED..EVEN IF I GOT HURT DO YOU THINK HE'LL KNOW...HELL FUCK NO BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE CALL HE AINT GONNA BE HOME...AND THATS WHAT SCARES ME CAUSE IF HE AINT THERE WHEN I GIVE BIRTH TO HIS DAUGHTER...THEN IM SORRY BUT WE AINT GONNA BE THERE FOR HIM WITH EITHER...MEAN IKNOE BUT JUST BECAUSE HE WASNT THERE HALF THE TIME FOR ME HE AINT GONNA DO THAT TO OUR DAUGHTER...I DONT WANT TO LOSE HIM BUT WHY IS HE DOING THIS..WHY TO US...WHY CANT I BE HAPPY WITH HIM...WHY CANT HE BE HAPPY WITH ME..I DID EVERY THING HE WANTED ME TO DO BUT YET HE AINT ENOUGH..WHY CANT HE BE HAPPY WITH..ALL I WANT IS MY PAPI.
PAPI WHERE ARE YOU..I NEED YOU...
 
WHAT WE USE TO BE...I MISS HIM AND I NEED HIM..I WISH HE WAS HERE... I WANT MY PAPI TO COME BACK TO ME..
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| I GUESS THIS IS THE END OF A LOVE THAT ONE WANTS AND THE OTHER TRYING TO HAVE THAT LOVE..I DELETED ALL OF IT...I DOESNT MATTER ANYWAYS CAUSE YOUR HARDLY LOOKIN AT THIS SITE..BUT READ THE NEXT ENTRY ... |
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| My hurt and broken heart
You changed me, made me realize things were wrong
I have to admit, I thought you were that special one
You came into my life, turned things around
messed with my mind and now making me feel so down
I got it bad and you know its because of you
making me things things
and as you said, "I Love You"
I knew i loved you too
Now I'm weeping and crying, wiping my falling tears
I never knew i would love someone just like i loved you
I will never trust a soul no more
I will never give my love
somethings are worth not having, but some things are worth waiting for
YOU'LL NEVER THE REAL TRUTH TILL YOU ACTUALLY TALK TO ME..BUT OBVIOUSLY ALL I HAVE IS THIS SITE TO TALK TO CAUSE IN YOUR EYES AND HEART IM NOT THERE..I LOVE YO WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL..BUT YOU CANT SEE THAT...TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND I HOPE SOME BODY ELSE GIVES U WHAT I COULDNT...I WISH WE WORKED IT OUT.. BUT I GUESS YOUR NEVER REALLY HERE..YOULL ALWAYS BE IN MAI HEART AND ILL ALWAYS WANNT TO BE WITH YOU BUT I THINK YOUR THE ONE THAT DOESNT WANT TO BE WITH ME...I LOVE YOU RICKY AND I WISH YOU JUST LISTEN HOW I FELT AND WHAT M GOING THROUGH INSTEAD OF IGNORING ME..IM NOT TRYING OT FIGHT BUT TRYING TO BE ATLEAST A GOOD GIRLFRIEND UT I GUESS IN YOUR EYES I WAS DOING BAD..I LOVE YOU AND I REALLY MIS YOU ..GOODBYE... |
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