And so, that night, YF and i came up with several theories as to WHY the TRUST concept fades away as one grows older:

1) you've been through so many relationships (the BAD ones i refer to) that you lose trust in men/women COMPLETELY. like all men/women. if not all, 99%. where the remaining 1% -->weird, odd, boring, DULL, impotent. the 1% i will never meet/they will never want to date me.

2) you still miss your ex (or EX-es), you think of a zillion excuses to blame the inadequate love on your current partner-

3) your partner BE IT MAN OR WOMAN (well, i am of course biased i think men will always be nasty creatures) is BORN untrustworthy, character trait (in other words, he has a poor record, u reckon he will just do it again, u just dont' know WHEN) <-- now this is a tricky one, coz they SAY they will always CHANGE for u, but they don't. and they CAN"T.

4) you can't trust yourself, you can't commit and you don't WANT to, so you decide to blame it on him first for not being able to commit to absolute loyalty --> THUS justifies whatever you do... (whatever BAD that you do, of course)

see? THIS IS EXACTLY WHY

SMART PEOPLE STAY SINGLE.

yea but i know, i know, you get lonely. and u are SO tempted to BE WITH someone sometimes, right. ai.

i konw. i konw. i understand. we all are sooooooo bewildered by love and romance....

humans are fragile creatures... charm.

<-- vangie n eric :P hahaha..... i stole this picture from vangie's FB. hehe. without her permission. OOOPS

Welcome TWO new guests- BIG DOG and STITCH MUI! big head mui hahaha

i loveee my mui mui! THANK YOU SO SO SOOO MUCH FOR BUYING ME this stitch! THIS BIG HEAD STITCH!!! (with mum's money kakaka)

i feel ashamed to say that, i have just been DRINKING EXCESSIVELY this week. thursday night, for the first time ever, i had oliver SEND ME HOME because i was too friggin DRUNK from drinking 5 glasses of red wine. i know, i am a pathetic LOSER...

so i was good and i stayed away from alcohol friday and saturday UNTIL saturday NIGHT!!!! mo barn fart, LIVE JAZZ @ Peel Fresco goes with ONLY good wine :) good music + good wine = a LOT of romantic feelings hahahahhahaa

Barbie's bday party @ Azure (pics are on FB!) I FINALLY got to play with Trina!

<-- this guy can't take photos properly.. obviously..

look at the future lawyers of HONG KONG. just LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oi made ths pics smaller so i woudln't get sued HAHAHHA for posting pics without permission :) HAHAHAHAHHA

i'm TOTALLY excited about Sipadan. I can't waittttttttttttttttttttttt.

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I MISS FAI JAI AND CHARLENE from sisterhood!!!! and mui mui too, of course :) BUT AFTER TONIGHT, i have SO MUCH CONFIDENCE in our dance! the choreo is SUPERB just that i'm the WORST dancer in the whole crew :( ai. hai wor. i'm not even joking :(....

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i want to watch LONG VACATION...

Revisiting Ocean Park-

going to six flags in L.A. made me REALLY want to visit Ocean Park for the millionth time, which i did, the weekend i got back. i think i brought some good luck back with me, coz it was sunny and hot the day we went. HAI WOR. given that... it has been raining almost EVERY SINGLE DAY this whole time. we didn't take a lot of pics, just some random ones on the escalator and this one with me and my mini :)

we went on ALL the rides, and i was FORCED to go on the ABYSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am not shitting you i was soooooooooooooooo freaked out going up on that thing. ohkay. but at least i did it. and yes i AM proud of myself.

the mine train- we had a really friendly couple in front of us who yelled words of comfort when i freaked out at the downslopes LOL*

and the all-time favorite... the JELLYFISH tanks! these creatures are so fragile and so pretty! haha yet so annoying when they STING you i guess. kaka

(this part is dedicated to OLIVER NIP)

Wednesday: CAKE BAKING DAY!

Red Wine Chocolate Chip Cake

ingredients: LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE and leftover red wine from drinking with oliver!

review:

 x 8 EVEN AH YIU SAID IT WAS VERY YUMMY hahaha i can't believe it myself! :P

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"HOW TO CURE A HANGOVER"

1. drink lots of water but NO not cranberry juice coz it will most likely smell like what u puked out the night before

2. get someone (yea coz first thing in the morning, u can't focus, u can't do shit, so i'm sure you can't COOK) to make you breakfast of any sort - preferably EGGS! yum

3. walk to welcome/park n shop and buy bananas, pocari or gatorade or some kind of energy drink and breathe in a LOT of fresh air on the way there and back

4. eat the banana whne yo uget home while you're surfing the net

5. feed your rabbit the remains

i'm not drinking anymore.

haha for today..... i mean.

RECAP*

Last few days in L.A....

one of my fav tutors NICK WILSON (he ONLY choreos gangster stuff -_-' HAHHAA and the funniest thing above him is that... he comes to class hungover on a sunday afternoon losing his balance in every move he does kaka)

Zae- simple jazz funk that was FUN, and a tutor with a LOT of character. i could only take ONE class during my trip in L.A. coz he was away most of the time. i'm crossing my fingers hoping he'll really come to hk in oct.... PLEASE COMEEEEEE AND TEACH AGAIN! i love his stuff tooo!!!

I miss Janet and Fai Jai so much already :( haha. i saw this mini outside Debbie and was so inspired! HAHHAA i want to paint my mini's ears tooO!!! which reminds me, i haven't driven my baby YET.

Raging Waters wasn't SUPER exciting, but given Janet's courage to go on most of the slides, it was haha a new experience for some of us. we were FREEZING by the end of the day. first time in a long time, u see our Form 5 NO-MAKE-UP faces kakakakkaa i know. HORRENDOUS! (i meant myself)

Last Night in L.A., i ditched auntie rosa last minute and shopped and ate like MAD with Fai and Janet @Kabuki!!! (nB: fai's shirt says 'i'm a virgin but this is an old Tshirt)

AND i was invited by the EXTREMELY generous and kind Liu FAMILY! to stay at their place for one night before my flight on the 30th. Wah Auntie Rosa is so prettyyyyy and their house... JUST AS PRETTY

Like a STARRR...

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Something horrible happened yesterday morning. I must say, we all don't understand it, nor do we believe it, even though it really did happen. I cannot imagine how it feels to be her best friend, lover or parents. it must be so painful,a feeling of such helplessness that u just can't do anything about it anymore.

it is often a cost too significant to pay when u learn a lesson from someone's passing away. but then again, when our choice to live is in our own hands, why give it up? why? maybe there was another reason, maybe we just don't know about it, but regardless, it's silly to just leave like that. it's... just wrong.

but now that you're gone, i hope you end u somewhere up there, somewhere peaceful, somewhere safe.

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memories.....

THIS. is how much emotional influence ONE song can have. crazy!