i'm trying to say how complicated my mind is, as i cant type in other places

so i re-open my xanga for dis time.

if anyone see this, please keep it as a secret.

after my gurl get mad tonite i think, she shud be mad.....

all i want to say is, im not intended to do that....  but..... u do give me a very gd feeling, sounds like making me feel that im in love and i do enjoy the moment that being wiv u..... its the first time i did that..... duno wht u fink or wht can i say or do to u next, if i annoyed u, im sorry for that.... but .... thx anyway....  im not bad.... though i did that to you..... just cant stop myself from doing that.....  may shocked u if i tell u in person i think.... so i better write in here...     

maybe i reli dun like her that much....... or i dun feel like im having a gf..... whtever happened later.... i dun care reli....

after talking on phone with my aussie dude, i feel a lot better, and i guess i knw wht shud i do nxt.

Let It Falls, Let It Downs Let It goes, My Love Will Stay Da Same

Every relationship in life is a lesson.

Everything we do is meant for a reason.

Doesn¡¦t matter what¡¦sthe out is, we will at the end realize we have gained and learned a lesson and some experience

i'm not going to know anymore gurlz,i swear i wont' treat any gurlz gd anymore,yes i'm annoying....

"Burn"

[Intro]
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Yeah!!!!! thx for brother ryan's japanese cake....!!!cool ....

and after meeting wif him, i'm clearly know wut i need to do now.....and i'm going to concentrate again, and for you.......i'm sorry dat i realli dunnoe you are interested in me or not, and i dunnoe wut to do now....just keep our relationship like it now....and i'll promise if i got anything indications from you, i [promise dat i'll get you immediately, wutsoever things happened within dis year i must get you!!!!!and dis year i'll tell the others, i'm single but not available cos my love is reserved; exclusively for you

Nickname: B Jai

Age: coming to the end of the age the just reach the legal requirement for watcing category 3 movies

Gender: Wut Do you think if i said i always think that my chaaracter is like a gurl more than a guyy, cos sometimes i act like a gurl

Height: 175

Weight 130lb

Country: hk, if we recognized it as a country

Marital Status: Single But Not Available...cos......

Race: HongKongian

Bloodtype:  Can Help Everyone but also the rarest blood type in the world  

Religion: Catholic, but i've not beeen to the church for a long time as i always critize the god for not granting me that simple wish

Drink : When i feel sad or hyper

Smoke: I learn it this year becos of frequent depression

Body Type: Indescribable

Hair Color: Holy Black, just too black ....

Eye Color: Black again

Spoken language: Native English when i'm drunk, Extremely angry for cantonese

Education: A Pathetic Hopeless student waiting for the freaking AL exam in hk

Professions: Student, Mind thinker, Water Blower but i tend not to exagerrate things, Problem solver but i can neva solve my problems, especially problems in love affairs

Love: Drinking wif guys, chatting in coffee shop, fooling around, addicted to a gurl easily and forget them easily, but not for this timee, that's a real different feelings den any before

My Relatives: One God Brother, 1 God Lil Sister dat's you stella, Dozens of god elder sisters who i remember is just Ada Ho, Queenie Yip, Mandy, Amy, Coey.......forget others already...dun kill me

About my love life, that's a real crap dat you just can't imagine a guy who is not stupid in any circumstances, except love affairs, wif a not dat bad appearance and knowledge, a normal guy characters, still can't get a gf for so many years .....though i admit dat my gurls should be of high quality and i do admit dat i dun possess enough qualifications suitable for my wants, and now she appeared ,  dat's the reason why i critize my god dat she dun give an eye on me maybe, or she dun have interest on me.....wut the fuck.....

Dun judge me by wut you see or wut you hear, judge me by how i treat you, for those who dun know, i like to joke around and doing any stupid things you can imagine, and i'm always hyper when i'm facing guyz and pretends to be gentle when i first meet a gurl, afterall you will know dat you know a wrong person...i must treat you gd if you speak frankly to me and be your real fd, and i'm not usually getting fd wif someone who is a guy and a bitch, or you cheat me!!i relali hate those gd damn sucka

i got los of gd fds who treat me gd, and they give me so much face lorr....=_=,but mostly my soul brothers are not in hk and studying abroad which makes me feel extremely lonely, just a few left in hk but they are always being occupied by someone or somethingg......holy.......god how should you treat me like dat?!i'm optimistic but mostly pessimistic

i have much gurl fds , we can chat everything about mines but notmuch a realli fd wif mee, but seems you dun wanna listen to my voice lor.....

Adapted From Ryan: No Regrets For Life = Living It Up....i want to do that i'm going to work it out in my life from now on, so i swear dat i wont' miss any chancess anymore

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avril-------nobody's home

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside

my happie ending---------------

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending

Freak out ---------------

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go
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drink at woodstone 4 shots of whisky, ; 1 Gin, 3 Vodka, 2tequila, 3 pines of carlsberg, 5 cocktails down 5-6 of dem  = thrown up twice

chat wif mike, learning something importans from him...hahai'm gonna play this game although you said i must lose, even if you are me.....

got 2 fds dis summer, one weird, strange, secret, i know dat dis people have so much so much dat i dun know and the truth maybe a real shock to anybody as you can't never imagine.....kenneth, nice guy introduced by mike, the one can speak frankly wifout anything hiding.....

no more gurls until the coming MAY...already .........too........

maybe i'm so drunk last nite, the alcohol droves me crazy, and i wish i can him/her before, it will be better for mee

maybe i'm not a gd bf , but i'm sure i'm your best fd if you speak wif me FRANKLY, the people who lie to me sucks!, FUCK DA LIARS

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Black Eyed Peas --- Where Is the Love

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

Now ask yourself
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

went out early in de morning for those boring business talk, den lunch wif silas and queenie....... had my tutorial as usual.......den mope around cwb....book the table for tomoro nite, bumped into anthony and cathy....this couple is just too sweet for me....den michael come.....just chat for 5 mins den i gone

my standpoint is:  Dun Act Like A Bitch or dun do anything to make me feel that you are a bitch if you are a guy, i still can't find out anyreason that for guy's who bitch everywhere and told everybody the other's secret, wifout thinking wif your shitty ass...i won't tolerate you the next time....dun try to make me mad and still naively think that you can handle me properly.. i should notice you dat the one who is going to die is you but not me if you piss me off