Currently Listening Mezmerize By System of a Down see related

wow i definately forgot about my xanga... surprised?

well lets see a lot has happened and i'm just hoping it all works out.

Sometimes the things we do odon't seem so bad until you begin to face the consequences...

For so long I've been
Putting all my effort into you
My heart is bare
I've been looking everywhere for truth
You know...
Exactly what you're doing to me
But that's okay...
'Cause I'm not playing anymore

CHORUS
I see what you're trying to hide
It didn't take me long to realize
You can't fool me with your disguise
I can see right through your lying eyes
You took your shot, pushed me around
You're never gonna take me down
So get out of my face...
With your masquerade

Since I've moved on
Things are going everyway but wrong
It's a brighter day (across the sky)
A new life, new friends
It's got me wondering where I've been
I was in a haze
I know...
That you're still bearing down on me
That's okay...
'Cause I'm not running anymore

CHORUS

When it all comes down
You won't have control over me
You can shape it how you want
But you have been revealed

You took your shot, pushed me around
For so long I've been
Putting all my effort into you
My heart is bare
I've been looking everywhere for truth
You know...
Exactly what you're doing to me
But that's okay...
'Cause I'm not playing anymore

CHORUS
I see what you're trying to hide
It didn't take me long to realize
You can't fool me with your disguise
I can see right through your lying eyes
You took your shot, pushed me around
You're never gonna take me down
So get out of my face...
With your masquerade

Since I've moved on
Things are going everyway but wrong
It's a brighter day (across the sky)
A new life, new friends
It's got me wondering where I've been
I was in a haze
I know...
That you're still bearing down on me
That's okay...
'Cause I'm not running anymore

CHORUS

When it all comes down
You won't have control over me
You can shape it how you want
But you have been revealed

You took your shot, pushed me around
You're never gonna take me down

made praise team! yay! lets see, not too much going on. i've been in a really good mood lately. almost done with my junior year... wow, hard to believe i'm going to be a senior. *sigh* 

i've realized how generous and patient God is... especially with me. it never seems like i get things right, yet he gives me more chances and never gives up on me. Just, Don't Give up on Me i'm trying... i really am.

what a night oh what a night...

last night was C R A Z Y --- in a good way. i had so much fun... weeeeee! so the turtle that me and shanna found in the woods, yea i took it back because i felt bad for it... so no more turtle... but...i'm on the hunt for a new one . so yea, and this is our last real week of school and then next week finals and then the SAT weee. i'm just SOOO excited. but this weekend i met some guys from uhs (some of them were pretty cute) so maybe i'll know someone... hopefully. knowing me i probably won't remember them... ha.

Shanna came over last night and we had the best time ever... 5 hours of talking, then crashing, waking up and talking for another good hour while still in bed and then off to the woods behind my church where we found a turtle and now area joint caretakers of the adorable little turtle that we have yet to name... if you have any ideas for a name for a girl turtle... please comment :)

It was nice to vent to someone... really nice. it was nice to talk about the things girls talk about... who we like (hers was obviously andy... and mine... well... thats for us two to know) and we decided to we're going to have a little camping/ bonfire/ swimming thing at the end of the school year so hopefully that works out. I've realized something, me and shanna have a good bit in common... its nice... 

overall, i'm glad i came to trinity... i've met so many new people and this year has been far better than the last. and that's the way the cookie crumbles... 

Currently Playing Based on a True Story By The Starting Line see related

So my ex calls me a slut... ouch at first... then i remembered my nickname for him. ha. mine nickname for him is very true and a lot harsher. i know why he calls me a slut... because i cared for him... really cared... and he took advantage of that and decided to be a dick...

okay enough of that....

so say it like you mean it... what if i can't? if i say how i truly feel, i'm vulnerable and i don't like to be vulnerable. but if i never tell you or anyone else then i'm missing out on something that could be more than what it is right now. but knowing my luck... you could care less. lets face it, i don't like to be the one with something to lose... so why start now? argh... i don't know. i wish i did.