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ok. you wake up in the morning at 540 because your cell fone goes off. you answer it.  you get happy coz you hear a close friend's voice that you havent heard in a while. "Jordan's dead.  He...shot himself in the head last night.  I'm calling because his parents think I'm the only one he would have liked to make the calls.  I don't wanna talk about it.  I'm just letting you know.  See you around man.  Maybe you can come by this summer.  Peace bro."
<dial tone>
this is the second suicide in 14 months. the 4th death in 14 months. what is it about people and dying? especially the close ones. why cant people die with honor? there is no such thing as dying peacefully anymore. all these old people dying with cancer. they have all these tubes plugged in them. then they go into cardiac arrest and seize all over the place. then they flatline. why does this hafta happen?  What's the point of friends?  All they do is fucking die on you.  Then you're left all alone.  That's the worst feeling ever.  I would rather feel lonely amongst a group of people than to literally be alone.  Was this supposed to happen?  Does strength really come from adversity?  Will I learn something from this?

If you're reading this, I must regard you as a friend or acquaintance of some sort.  I suggest you run away.  Far away, all my friends end up dying.

Today is the last day im posting on this. a friend has brought it to my attention that MySpace is better so im gonna start making the transition over the next few days. http://www.myspace.com/10823044

by the way, kudos to that one person who prolly doesnt even know i have a xanga. thank you. you were the only person nice to me today. but if you do see this. thank you.

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3 hour message bladda bladda.

You know what blows? we had the talk today. my folks say i hafta get a job this summer. so bleh, thats not going my way. grades are decent, not too bad/good. but mostly not too bad. aaaaaanyway, if your parents need someone to work this summer and youre too lazy. im da man!

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I like filling these out.

Name - Tom
Bday - May 21st, 1988
Bplace - San Jose, Costa Rica
Current Location - Bako
Eye Color - Hazel, like the little bunny in that one book....
Height - 5'9?
Righty or Lefty - Right side everything, eye, hand, foot
The Shoes You Wore Today - erm...sneakers....i dunno the brand coz its worn off and covered in dust
Your Heritage - French, Puerto Rican
Weakness - probably feminine wiles, but im also too trusting of people,
Fears - being completely, utterly, alone
Your Perfect Pizza - extra cheese, pepperoni, and some pepper
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year - get laid
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger - erm...fukt if i know...no really "fukt if i know"
Thoughts First Waking Up - "Damn, she wasnt real."
Your Best Physical Feature - i dunno...im skinny so i have a decent stomach, but mostly ppl compliment my eyes
Your Bedtime - i think its sposed to be ten...but im on till ike 130 sometimes and they just say "close our door when you go to bed"
Your Most Missed Memory - being in Monarch, Montana, in the -50 while its snowing...just knowing that somewhere within a mile of you, something is being blessed with the peaceful death of freezing. then just realizing the serenity there, its just so peaceful.
Pepsi or Coke - Coke
McDonald's or Burger King - Mickey Dees.
Single or Group Dates - well i spose thats entirely case by case basis
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea - Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla - vanilla (D do not make a joke) though if i had a real choice itd be strawberry
Cappuccino or Coffee - coffee
Do you smoke - no
Do you swear - ive never fucking cursed in my life
Do you sing - a) in the shower b) in the car c) not very well
Do you shower daily - every morning
Have you been in love - i think so
Do you want to go to college - yes i do, although i dont think i woulda had the choice to say no anyway
Do you want to get married - yes
Do you believe in yourself - sometimes, very rarely though, which is interesting coz some ppl say i speak with such confidence, bordering on arrogance...meh...dont judge a book by its cover i spose
Do you get motion sickness - thank God no
Do you think you are attractive - not really, i mean, i dont think im too bad to look at, but im no trophy
Are you a health freak - are you nuts? i eat stuff off the ground, i have food from freshman year stuffed inside this hole in my garage...i think its still there..unless the ants and roaches got it
Do you get along with your parents - hardly
Do you like thunderstorms - only when they dont cut out power while im watching tv....it killed right wheni was watching the Godfather
Do you play an instrument - yah, and im "meh" with it, then im piss poor with another one
In the past month have you drank alcohol - only a shot to help me to fall asleep, of course this month has only been 3 days so far...
In the past month have you been on drugs - no
In the past month have you gone on a date - no. and by the way, this is a terribly cruel question for those of us who have problems initiating relationships with the other sex.
In the past month have you gone to a mall - no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos - omg like 5 packages of the double stuft ones
In the past month have you eaten sushi - yes, Akira's forevah!
In the past month have you been on stage - no, and im too paranoid to ever do it by choice anyway
In the past month hav eyou been dumped - no but i was rejected thrice in one week back in february
In the past month have you gone skinny dipping - oh God i wish these questions were just "have you ever" instead of over the last month...but to answer the question no, not this month
In the past month have you stolen anything - about 15 dollars, an orange, a box of shell noodles, a pillow, and a Twix
Ever been drunk - i dont remember
Ever been called a tease - no, i dont have that much luck in the flirting dept.
Ever been beaten up - enough times to learn getting punched isnt fun
Ever shoplifted - yes
How do you want to die - an old man, who simply dies in his couch watching tv and eating cheetos, or i woudltn mind freezing to death, and id love to be a martyr, after starting a revolution i wouldnt mind being sniped in the back of the head
What do you want to be when you grow up - coronary surgeon
What country would you most like to visit - oh God, mebbe France, mebbe Amsterdam, mebbe Russia, Japan, meh i dunno. part of me wants to see Vietnam.

In a boy/girl

Favorite eye color - brown, hazel, green, blue, bah i dont really care
Favorite hair color - brunette, though dishwater blondes set me off
Short or long hair - i prefer long, but im paying more attention to her face and body so short would do just fine
Height - she hasta be shorter than me or my heigth exactly, i just feel weird if shes taller, unless of course shes so much taller that at default height im already in her boobs
Weight - less than me, we cant go out looking like the number 10
Best clothing style - erm, i dunno, mebbe...i dunno...haha...if shes "the one" shell look good in anything
Number of drugs i have taken - just 1, gateway drug my nappy ass
Number of CDs i own, oh i have not the slightest clue...upwards of a thousand
Number of piercings - none
Number of tattoos - none, but i want "Exit Only" on my asscheeks
Number of things in my past i regret - lemme count....1..times 42300....plus 8....dividied by 92....carry the 4....bah screw it...just a lot

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well ok, this weekend has sucked. nothing happened. after Sin City it went straight to hell. had to wax the RV and then spend an extra few hours with my family, then because i pissed them off, i lost the truck for saturday and sunday. a homey came and picked me up saturday nite, went to his house and just ate food and watched tv. i finally saw the incredibles, great movie. woke up at like noon on sunday and got dropped off back at home. did more work for my parents, went to my aunts' (the twins) birthday. meh, it was alright, i got doughnuts and kisses from the babies. came home, folded clothes, and here i am now...

Peace and love...