I feel soooo wonderful today. I love the feeling of my bones....I love knowing that each day I am getting thinner and thinner. Im freezing cold right now and my stomach is growling like crazy...but I still love it.....Those feelings are part of what keeps me going....Everytime I my stomach growls...everytime Im freezing cold....everytime I stand up and get dizzy.....It reminds me of how as each day goes on I will be lighter than the day before....I love ana...I don't know how I would live without it...and the best part....nobody suspects anything...my family is so happy that Im finally thin...they don't look to see how its happening....everyones to busy to realize it...and I love it lol.....Im so happy...I have soo much energy right now...I think I could go run 10 miles....How are all of you doing? Haven't been on in a while....but I plan to be on all the time now....ana is the best and Im not going to leave her again.....well I am going to go weight myself....much love!

Today was actually a really good day. For any of you out there who are mia....I think you'll know what Im talking about.....I love being ana...but sometimes I just don't have the energy to have the self control....I can't be strong....Im so tired with school and working out and trying to finish my volunteer hours......then stressing over getting a job.....Its crazy....and not eating makes me sooo tired...I love it but Im always pretty much tired lol..........Just those days where your too tired and weak to even think about moving.....Well today and yesterday were those kind of days......I ended up eating one meal.....i don't even remember what it was yesterday that I ate...Idk why but I dont....but today my father brought me home a salad.....I was feeling soooo weak and tired that I gave it....I felt so bad about it....I knew I had to get it out of me.....so I went and for 30 minutes threw all of it up....I had to do it alot of times to make sure it was all out of me....I wish I knew a better way to do it so that it would only take a couple times....how do you know if it is all out of you anyways? But it made me feel alot better....I love it....I love purging and starving myself....you feel so powerful and strong....It makes me really happy....Its so easy......but the thing is I don't want to stop when I do it.....idk......I threw up both yesterday and today....It felt so good....anyways Im so tired...so I am going to go to bed...I hope you all are doing well...Much love!