A little update on my life. I went to the pool today after an entire semester of saying that I would. Felt great...what doesn't feel so great is breaking up with someone. Yeah, I've got to break up with the guy that I posted it was going so terrifically with. Several factors played into the demise of the once-shiny relationship, but the key factor was time. It's been almost a month since I've been able to see him and I'm leaving to go home for the summer in a couple of days...that's 4 months for those of you playing the home-version of our game. Thankfully, the relationship isn't really that old. Only a couple of months. He's pretty attached tho, which is a problem for me. I don't feel the same way that he does...I suppose that for me, the relationship was more of a transitional thing; it's good to have a relationship sometimes, but I really wasn't looking for a hard-core, long term thing I guess. If it turned into one, great. But I wasn't about to force it into one. I've been there and done that and I was the one hurt and in therapy for 4 months because I was the one attached like a love-sick leach after two months. It's so hard...he's such a great, sweet-natured guy with a good heart. You all know how rare that is to find. He never once tried to get in my pants or take advantage of the relationship. I was a part of his emotional anchor rather than a committed guy that just happened to be a nice piece of ass whenever. It was nice. It still is nice...but I have to have someone to hold if I'm going to be in a relationship. And obviously, there must remain a bit of attraction the whole course of the relationship, whether that be in marriage or a long term relationship, or whatever. If you're not attracted anymore, then there's a problem. If you stop caring about the other person romantically, then there's a problem. I don't feel the same as when we started dating and there are a couple of things about him that I'm just not attracted to at all. I thought I could look past them and just deal with it, but I can't. Maybe that makes me shallow and prick-ish, but so be it. You can't help how you feel. *sigh* I'm just glad finals are over with. That's one less thing I have to worry about. it's been a long road this semester and I'm quite ready to be gone for the summer. It'll be nice to spend time with family and to work and attend summer classes that aren't at this God-foresaken place. It's really getting to me...I hit burnout about 2 years or so ago. And I'm going on 7 because things keep going wrong. Maybe the summer school and working and getting back in shape will revitalize me so I come back ready to go out with such an explosion as to put Chernobyl to shame...lol. Alright, kids, I must go now. Have a great day to all!

Justin

I think I may close down xanga...I hardly visit anymore... *sigh* Maybe I'll have more time to fool with it after this rush at school dies down. Hope everyone is well!

Hooray for prescription meds. I went to the clinic today and got all kinds of goodies for my nasty bug. Apparently it warranted an antibiotic...lol. The doc took one look at my throat and went, "um..hmm....I'm going to put you on Amoxicillin" So I'll be over it in a couple of days! Yay!