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~*Christine*~

HOLA!

Well the past 2 days have been VERY interesting.... lets start off with YESTERDAY!!!!

THURSDAY:

Chorus I sang or course!!! Then in english I did absolutely NOTHING. History I watched a movie. THE GERMAN!  Ok well.... Frau arranged the seats in little groups and well of course I picked the group of desks that faced... Mike! So of course I was looking at him the whole period! lol! Then toward the end I wanted to ask him SO BAD if I could walk him to his next class. (Since him and I were going in the same general direction ) So anywhoo... I am like OMG i want to ask him and he was heading to the door and Mrs.Thomas was like "Just ask him!!! JUST GO DO IT!!!" Well, I took her words and asked him!!!!  NEARLY PASING out after he said yes i was like OMG! I kno ya'll are like w/t/f is her problem.... she just walked with him.... WELL LET ME TELL YOU... if you would be in my position....you would understand....ANYWHOO.... it was the BEST 3 MINUTES of like EVER! lol! We talked about how he really screwed up his ankle, and we talked about his wrestling season... basically all the talk was about him which was fine for me! lol!  But the walk soon ended and well I was off to music class. Lets just say that.... that conversation and just being with him topped everything! lol! I then went to my music class.... started this new program on the computer... very exciting...went to lunch.... then to BORING chem.... and then to Algebra.... the  stayed after and took Sheffner back to her house and like explored her driveway with the tree branch!!!! TOO FUNNY!!! Then went back to the high school and Kirsten, Sheffner, and I practiced! IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! LOL! Hilarious piano moving! lol! Then... last night I went to a B-BALL game with Jess! We talked about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING! We talked alot about Mike!!! tee hee! lol! Urm then came home and went to bed!

TODAY:   VERY EXCITING!

Started off normal... Chours: sang.... English: sat there and didn't do much of anything... History: Finished the movie. GERMAN!!!: Jess wasn't there which was a bummer and Frau moved the desks again so my whole plan was SHOT but as I was sitting there.... I was comming up with a new plan... in which i will have to discuss with JESS!!! Must get her oppinion on it! lol! Mike made a joke to and it was funy!!! So like I laughed and he smiled   LOL! To funny! Then class came to an end... went to Music class and finally picked up my FLUTE! WEE.... that was fun and a half! Kirsten tried teaching it to me.... it was to funny... ya had to be there! Kirsten and I have such GREAT times! lol! If anything happends it happends to us... Then went to lunch... that was interesting in itself.... then off to CHEMISTRY! OMG.... doesn't this picture just say it all........ Thats Rusty.... OMG!!!! We came up with this comclusion.... "This is Rusty's rigamortis pose" OMG MEG!!!!! Todays class was TOO FUNNY! So yes then I told Rusty to "strike his pose" while I ask Mr. Babb why Rusty was like that. Mr. Babb thought I was insane but it was all good! I told him that we put the "spice" in his teaching life... LOL! We got yelled at for not doing our work but it was all in good fun! lol!  Then study hall came  and Michelle and I were making cracks about anything an everything... twas a good stufy hall... Mr. Babb though we were drugged with something.... but once again it was all in good fun! lol! Then Michelle and I were beating the crap out of eachother but all good fun! lol! Then Algebra came next and welp that kinda ended my day. Oh then I had to go to work... iced tea leaked. Oh boy! All in all it was a good night.... met two new workers... they were very nice... they thought I was a college student but nope! Im not! lol! Than Ashley came in and everything went well! lol! Then came home and well I'm sitting here now! lol! So I think im going to get going! toodles everyone!

~*Christine*~

~*Some call it OBSESSION... I call it LOVE*~

^doesn't only pertain to piano either!

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HOWDY!

Well, got to school today and the parking lot was a sheet of ice... STUPID me didn't notices that and went to step out of zee car and did a split in the middle of the parking lot.... but its all good im ok! Other than that today was a good day, Chorus... didn't do much of anything, English... handed in my outline and then did nothing. Ms. Haydt was talking about a mole (an animal) on the from cover of a magazine... quite interesting. Then in history we got to listen to Eric present his topic on art and Pupusas?!?  lol! Twas fun, then we got on to talking about "drinking brown things" it was quite the class to be in today! Then we started to watch a MOVIE! lol! Then the bell rang and I hurried off to GERMAN where I got to see the lovely MIKE! I gave him a card... he liked it very much so indeed!  Many things went on in German today. I just LOVE that class! lol! So much fun sitting with Jess and then sitting across from.... *sigh* !!!! lol! Then went to music class... it was meh... ok.... tommorow i get to sit on a computer! YAY! lol! Kirsten and I had a great day in that class with my CrAzY noises we were making! lol! Oh yes and the SOPRANO notes! lol! Then me *trying* to hit a high note on the way to lunch... it just wasn't happening.... BUT just as I walked in the lunch room I saw Mike! tee hee!   If you haven't figured it out by now I like him... A LOT! lol! Got lunch, and talked to Michelle... she gave me a hug... odd but it was nice though... I haven't given michelle a hug since............. who knows!!! lol! Urm then went to Chem.... BORING... i don't understand the shit anyways... whos cares about chem I mean really.... then I went to Math and took a test in which I didn't get to finish so i am finishing it up tommorow! YAY! Other than that life has been good!!!! I had LESSONS tonight. The songs I am playing are so beautiful! I can't wait to play them in church... we are shooting for the 5th for me to performs them! lol! Hopefully ill be ready by then! Other than that not to much else to report. Life is good as of now! I didn't think i would be saying that for quite some time... but yes... life is actually good.... Things are turning around...FINALLY! Well i must be going! talk to everyone later!

~*Pristine Christine*~

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Im in SUCH a good mood!

~*Joy and laughter emerge from you, FINALLY*~

HEY!!!

Ok so my life has been nothing but a whirlwind for the past few weeks... Let me update you on whats going on....

*NOTE*-- Jason and I are OFFICALLY over.. to end all confusion.... read on for more info...

THURSDAY-
          Stayed home from school because I have been sick for quite some time (I still am too). BOY was I sick.... It all keeps going down hill...STILL!!!

FRIDAY-
          Went to Wal*Mart with Jess.... had some CrAzY expericances with the self-scanners and the guy on the bike at McDonalds. Also, the odd people in the trash bins but we won't go there. Jess and I talked about a lot of things that were going on in life... a lot of the issues had to deal with me... but its nice to have someone to turn to and to be able to talk about issues!

SATURDAY-
          Had to work 8-3... Then came home and got ready because Eric and I were going to go to the mall. We origionally didn't know what we were going to do but then we figured that the road led us to the mall...Eric bought an awesome shirt in Hot Topic.. it so fit him and his personality oh so well! lol!  Then went to Borders... i kno me in a book store... it was quite fun... I came across the "Phantom of the Opera Companion" but I decided to wait to get it. We also came across various books that were very intriguing! Urm... then we went to the bank and saw something shady going down.... lol turns out they were planning something for a birthday party at Snuzzles... on account we saw the people walk in the door at Snuzzles and Eric and I kinda looked at eachother like... urm... they were at the bank! lol! So we sat down to eat (at snuzzles lol if you didn't catch that by now) and we were criticizing people and just talked. It was nice once again... we were talking about our past times since Eric didn't know anything about me since I only went over to Brandywine a year ago... (YES... its been offically a year). Then we came back to my house and watched none other than NAPOLEON DYNAMITE!!!  He was in hysterics!!! lol! We both were. Then after the movie we went and played on my piano and then took him home. I didn't get home until ELEVEN! lol! But it was all good! I got to know a lot about Eric as did he with me! Twas a very nice day/evening.

SUNDAY-
          Had to work... came home and got bitched at by none other than Jason.... He was yelling at me because I didn't call him on saturday... well to bad... I think that it would be rude to call someone and yell onn the phone when I am with other friends.... but whatever... he always has to get his way and well you know what... I am rebelling against what he wants. As of now.... he has struck the last and final nerve....so I guess he just botched it up for himself... because as of now there is NO hope... and after work tonight....well... lets not go there... I found out some info and well im not quite happy about it but ya know what... im over it... im done....

NOTHING but LIES... 

NOTHING but BROKEN promises...

NOTHING to REMEMBER anymore....

Why should I put my life on hold?!?

I shouldn't even ask the question cause it isn't going to happen!

I am going to many emotion still heres a short list:
                          Anger, frustration, broken hearted, used, lost, confused, SHATTERED
       Oh yes... thats ONLY a short list.

As of now.... my heart is confused.... all I know is that there are rumors whizzing around and I DON'T LIKE THEM! So, if anyone hears anything and wants the TRUTH come directly to me and I will tell you within reson!  but for now I think I am going to do something constructive! Toodles everyone!

~*I trust you and ONLY you for you understand me like NO ONE else*~

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-James Blunt

~*The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.*~
-Anonomous

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-My heart is now MORE than SHATTERED. The ONLY heart thats left is the one laying BROKEN and DESTROYED on the FLOOR!-

STOP THE  DAMN LIES! 

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Buckle up its a long one...It goes on after the piano pic....just a bunch of thoughts though... kinda how I REALLY feel at the moment... maybe this is how I will be for a while... who knows? I really had a lot to get off my mind. READ TO THE END!  
(if you care)

Well... just got back from the mall. I took Jess along with me... we had a bunch of fun and then we went for ice cream! It was a lot of fun! We should do that again sometime Jess! lol! Had 2 mid-terms today.... they went... meh ok i guess... But the real drama i guess was when I came home... found something out before I left to go to the mall... that news WAS NOT pleasent at all but you know what.... I guess thats how life is and at this point I really don't care anymore..... Even thought people can do what they want it still hurt... and actually made me want to cry... but I composed myself and thought...... where would I be without the help of friends. Jess thanks so much for talking with me. You really made me come to my senses and made me think that things will get better for me. THANK YOU so much! I think right now.... being single is the best way to be and if someone decides to come along then so be it.... I HATE being alone... but you knwo what.... I'd rather get back on track with myself than to go right out and find someone else. But... I really have not an idea as to what I want to do... I feel ALONE.....OH SO ALONE....  There is no one left to turn to with my problems..... is this hell im living in??? I really have no idea anymore.... Do people realize what they are doing to me... obviously not....

No more chances....

No more promises....

For every chance was useless...

And every promise was broken....

What is there left?

Trust?

LOVE?!?

No.... for that has been shattered to....

Memories are also destroyed...

There is NOTHING left....

Why should I waste my time anymore...  I really hope they call from that piano place.... I just want to.... loose contact.... with the old world.... Start off new.... THIS IS WHAT I WANT....all I need are the girls from K-town... and my friend at Brandywine... no one else.... why should I live in the past.... when... it most likely won't be in te future??? Pointless yes??? It makes me wonder.... what happened to the crew that was made a few years back.... Keshia, Kendall, Bernie, Kristie...and the rest of the crew.... WHAT HAPPENED???? Is there anyway of getting back together.... Remeber all the good times we had and yet still have... but seperately.....

Keshia- our memories are still going on.... our recent one being the deer....

Bernie- Remember our talk shows..... and when we went to the beach

Kristie- I don't even have to mention all of the dumb shit we did lol

Kendall- How we stayed up late dance and mocking movies.....oh and the big "bang" lol

What happened to the good old times???  Of LATE NIGHT movies... and going outside on newyears to roll in the grass.... THRILLER... WHAT HAPPENED???? It makes me wonder... I wish I could go back....so that I could have avoided everything that is happening now... Well I guess thats all for now....

~*Christine*~

~*Falling... falling so hard and so fast... with no one to catch me..... Let me fall and shatter to PARTICLES OF DUST!!!!*~

~*Your the ONLY one that can feel my PAIN...*~

Line from The Phantom: The tears I might had shed for your dark fate... grow COLD and turn to tears of HATE!!!!

Last Verse of "I Dreamed a Dream"
From: Les Miserables

"...I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living,
So different now from what it seemed...
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed..."

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-worthless-

~*No one to dry my tears*~

UPDATE!!! Just heard a song that kinda expesses my life right about now... read it if you want! This is comming from a male point of view.... if you get what I mean...

"You're Beautiful"
By: James Blunt

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As I walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Lalala lalala lalala lalala laaaaaa

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you

~*oh so true*~

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Another GREAT song that expresses my life...

Goodbye My Lover
By: James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

~*Oh so VERY true*~

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