why does everyone around me keep dieing?

it seems like death is all around me these past couple of days..i can't seem to change it and it's never gonna change..

this thursday i guess i realized how much life is so important. how much a friend's life is and the people who care about you most, your own family. i don't know what i'd do if anyone else i know and love were to die again..this is just getting too much for me to handle. i can't help thinking about life in general and how much i am afraid of death. what i'm trying to say is, this past thursday i found out my grandma, the only one i have left, has cancer. it didn't really hit me at first when my mom told me crying on the phone, but once i got off and someone asked me what was wrong...is when it really hit me. i hate it when people bring something up that you don't wanna talk about because you just know you're going to bust out into tears..and yea i know everyone's time comes someday but it's so crazy to think that just last year everything was fine, no one was in danger of anything happening to them and i remember even thinking to myself, "man, i don't know what i'd do if one of my grandparents were to die.." with kel's death, zach's sister's death, derek's grandfather's death, and now my someone in my own family is in danger of their life?! my own family? it just doesn't seem true at all. i don't want to accept it, and i don't want to deal with it, but one day it's going to come, and after that, what next? will i be able to cope with it? or will i be one of those lonely sobbing people tucked away in their rooms not being able to express my feelings..i don't know what's to come, and i don't want to sit around waiting for it to happen either.

thanks for listening,
danielle nicole canales

i love best friends..or well, just friends in general..

me and miss rena.  (cali cousins for sho)

the tres amigos..keepin it gangsta for sho on super bowl sunday (shuga shane's birfday)

me and zachary (justin from american idol<3)

after eating at estaban's (shuga shane, me, and joey jo jo today)

he def out did me

peace, love, and happiness.

R.I.P. Kelli Amanda Herd..we all love and will miss you.

wut the hell have i been sayin this whole time about myspace?? damn no one ever listens to the minority! well well myspace as you all know is takin over and like naima said, xanga is old news!

BAH!

everyone meet wyatt. he's the coolest mutha effin sophmore/napoleon lovin' person i know. and just the other day was this kidd's birthday. he's so cool, you just don't even much know mann..

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y W Y A T T !

GOSH, HECK YES, FREAKIN IDIOT!

Currently Watching High School Reunion Collection (The Breakfast Club / Sixteen Candles / Weird Science) By Brat Pak see related

that shit was soo 80's style..

justa couple of pictorals from last night's 80's prom held for julie since she's going away :'(

haha holdin it down in them leggings!

the group shot, definitely not everybody but eh i think ash looked the most 80's ;D

julie and ashley...so nice so so nice

a little boob licking action with ashley and sarah, she didn't even need those balloons for real..

aparently julie thought so too..

me, ashley, abby, alex, whatshername, and vicky (ma sis)

and then the night got a little more crazier...

the girls decided to wrap ash in streamers lol

everyone seems to want fake balloon boobs nowadays..

but i just wanna be a rock star

Currently Listening Drunk Enough to Dance By Bowling for Soup see related

- emily

what time is it?! tonight is party time, it's party time tonight!

longest straw EVER!

yea, it ended up going all the way to the kid in the next table...good times at mr. gaddy's

throwin' up da peace sign niggas!

gurrrl shake dat laffy taffy, dat laffy taffy!

BAH! the three amigos (who almost got burt by that big ass fire!)

 da mamas with the little flame Ooo YEA!

fucking mexican'ts looking out for border patrol!!

OUR LAST GOODBYES TO EMOly:

goodbye twin...