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| can't believe it's been a year since i last made an entry. sadly enough, my state of mind is no better than what it was then. to make it short, i got a new car, unwillingly, and have flashbacks every time i'm driving on a road with more than two lanes. still living in houston and already dreading the summer. and trying to resist my urge to pack up and go somewhere far, far away... | | |
| well, today marks my first month as a houstonian. and to commemorate it, i now have a huge dent on the passenger side of my car from the garage pillar. i feel like breaking down in tears, but i can't seem to be able to do so. the sad thing is, i don't know if this is better or worse than the day i flew down here...let me just say that i left for the airport in dc at 8:00 am edt and did not check into the hotel in houston till 10:00 pm cdt.
it just seems like things continue to go wrong and are trying to tell me that i am in the wrong place. i feel so overwhelmed and exhausted and frustrated. everything was sailing in dc, and here i am, helpless. i don't know what i am going to do if things in and out of work do not get better. i definitely underestimated the job position that i have signed myself up for. now that i think about it, 2007 has not been good at all. i started the year with a sinus infection in january and then the flu in february (yes, i had the flu shot). and march was start of the relocation madness. i need a bubble bath... | | |
| merry christmas from buster, brownie, and me!  | | |
| has it really been a year and a half since i last posted something? well, to start, happy 2006! today is the start of a new chapter of my life as a homebuyer. as i approach my 2-yr mark living in the dc metro area, i've decided that it's about time i stop throwing dollars into a black hole, aka rent, and look into building some equity. anyway, it was quite an adventure going to these open houses. it's very similar to apartment hunting except for the fact that the cost are magnitudes higher and there are others bidding against you. i'm once again faced with the decision with what i want versus what i can really afford. other than this, the only other thing that stands out is my trip to europe this past summer. i revisited vienna and salzburg in austria and also made my way to prague, at last. let's just say that i had goulash almost every other meal! | | |
| update on dusty's weight: 19 oz as of mid-july
so now, i'm in my fifth month of work. living-wise, i'm more or less settled. work-wise as opposed to school, it's slowly sinking in and not looking up at all. basically, the thought that keeps swirling in my mind is work for the rest of my life till retirement, which is quite depressing. i'm certainly having a difficult time going on about my life without an endpoint. to illustrate my point: it was sixth grade in elementary school, eigth grade in junior high, senior year in high school, and senior year again in college. but now that i'm working, i simply don't know anymore. i don't think that it's so much i miss school, although i do with some aspects of it, but it may have more to do with my fear of this "foreverness." and with this, i feel a lack of motivation in general. i need to keep moving. keeping still isn't a favorite pasttime of mine but yet a driving force is amiss.
as i was coming home from work today, there were these parents helping their daughter move in. i've come upon a few of these. and then i recall how i came out here alone and waited for the movers for my things. i don't know, sometimes i wonder if i'm truly to be independent. i mean, i've looked forward to be finally on my own, and now i'm not sure... | | |
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