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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 4/25/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: cLubBing, bowLing, teNnis, volleyball, kaRoake, snuGgling up in a comfy couch and reaDing roMance novels =0)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Computers (Hardware)
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AIM:  babydre8mr
Member Since:
10/27/2002
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| I can't believe it'll be a month tomorrow at my internship at Boeing! It's been quite exciting and it's just not about work. I've been getting to network with alot of different people, joining different festivities. I love volleyball, so I've been heading to the beach for some beach volleyball. It's so fun and it's a great source of network. There's just so many people to meet! It's just crazy sometimes. I don't know how people are able to remember everyone's names, I'm so bad at it. Today I went to my first happy hour...it was pretty fun. We went to Michael's Sports Bar and Grill, I think. They had pretty good happy hour specials...
A couple of more days, and Dave and I've made through 3 months! That means 7 more months to go! I can't wait till it hits midpoint....I miss you Dave! <3
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| For awhile now I've concealed my worries, my sadness, and most definitely my loneliness...I try to be happy and cheerful for the most part, cuz hey who would want to chill with a whiny baby?...but I have to finally admit, this is the whole package of being an army girlfriend...LIFE HAPPENS...don't get me wrong, i'm not a depressed little girl who's curled up in the corner crying...it's just, there are ups and downs that I've learned to face...my Dave is deployed now for a lil over 2 months....and I finally realized....it's okay to release these feelings, cuz it's REAL.....It's been a rocky ride but I have faith that he will come home safely, and once we get through this, we'll be that much stronger not only as people but as a couple.
I don't have any friends that I can relate to since I don't really have friends who are with a soldier...but here are the things I've come to notice about myself....changes in my habits, my way of thinking...
- I don't mind a phone call waking me up 3 a.m.
-Seeing an unknown caller or a weird number gets me excited wishing it is him calling me
-When people ask about us, I tell them I'm doing well and that communication is well kept between us, even though it can be tough sometimes
-I try not to get too emotional when someone asks about him, I simply answer "We're doing well and he's safe"
-The smallest contact (short email response) from him makes me happy the entire week
-I get teary-eyed over an email that says nothing more than a hello, i miss you and i love you
-I'm happy to see his sn on AIM or Skype. It's comforting to see him on and know he's safe and reachable
-I leave my computer on all night in hope of reading a short message from him when I wake up in the morning
-The recruitment commercials on TV catches my attention and I think of how proud I am of him
-I get super excited but disappointed all at the same time when I know he tried calling but I had missed it
-I feel myself growing more and more in love with him even while he's so far away
-Planning letters and care packages is more exciting than going out for a night of drinking/partying
-Get a little annoyed when I hear someone say something along the context of "I haven't seen my bf/gf in a week"
-I get from happy->sad->angry->crazy and then->happy in a matter of minutes.
-I sleep with my phone right next to me as an alarm of course hehe, and just in case i get a call from him.
-I know exactly what time it is over where he's at, imagining what he could be doing at the time...whether it be sleeping, eatting lunch, or working
-I don't really care about how I dress or look going out
-Seeing someone in uniform makes me think of him
-I save voicemails from him so that I can listen to his voice when I miss him
-At times I feel I lost a sense of self, but I snap back telling myself I have to be strong to survive this wait
-I try to keep myself active in more interactive activities
-I stay away from drinking too much because I know that gets me emotionally out of control
I'm going to try to keep this up to date to show the ups and downs of my life without him by my side...a good way to realize what's going on with my thoughts...to reassure us the importance of being strong for us to get through this...thanks for listening to me babble...
good nite...
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