AHHH! My computer is still broken! Fixing it tomorrow, hopefully *crossed fingers* heh. Got my new schedule... not to bad only E-K kinda C- math (mondays and fridays) E- government F- poetry G- math H- freeish (RC) J- yoga K- marine sci.
Hung out with Dakota and Yelena yesterday, t'was fun. We saw Harry Potter, i'm not sure if i liked it. I was to clouded by the book the whole time... sucked. But im gunna go see it again tomorrow its ok, im special. hehe! Went to the orthodontist today.. have to have a tooth pulled, im so scared! Its gunna hurt to bad! stupid old fuck im gunna kick his assssssssss. Waiting for jonkey to come to my house. Then im gunna meet up with gary and peoplez in the city. cookies are really good.
I have an FIT appointment tomorrow... to find out about the college. Thats what started me on thinking about this whole mess... Dakotas outside now with joshua i think and i cant bring myself to say anything to her. And I know now why are friendship is/was so fucked up. I think ever since I was little I was so scared of people leaving me. I aways thought they would find someone better to hangout with. I thought that they would have more fun without me so i klung to people and was really fucking annoying i guess. I dont know why im so scared of that, its so stupid. I need so much and no one can give it to me, I dont even really want it. I cant even trust people right... I hate it and i know its wrong and stupid but i dont know how to stop feeling this way. I think dakota couldnt even give me that feeling that I was her bestfriend, she always just assumed that i knew. I always though Anna or Nina would be Dakota's bestfriend b/c she saw them like 3x more than me. And now b/c I have desided not to tlak to her anymore, anna is. I dont know if its the right thing, Doesnt really matter now, but i firgured i should say it, makes me feel better. I really fucking wish i know why i think like that, think its my mothers fault.
Happy Halloween!! (in 3 hours) Yesturday was fun.. went to a party at Agatha's aunts house. Jonathan got extremly wasted and scared the shit out of my all night! I dressed up as a doll and ate all night, heh. Jonkey took me to see Saw II today.. .was really creepy... freaked me out, was really good heh . Tomorrow gunna go to school than the parade or something should be fun, heh.
Friday was fun! Met Jonathan's friends from collage, they seem like really cool people, most of them . I got drunk from Vodka and Pink Lemonade, heh, that's Isadora umhmm. Today I did so many chores: Grocery shopping- Bought so much stuff... I started drinking sugar free chocolate syrup b/c im scared of getting diabetes. But I did get Halloween Fruit Loops with scary marshmallows!!!!And Toy Story and Monsters Inc. Gummy thingyz! Laundry- Did all the towels in my house and my own clothes... 2 hours. I talked to this weird lady the who time... Canadian lady, she kept stressing the fact that she was married to a black man, heh. Did Dishes! I wrote a story for creative writing about a duckling named Ota. Heh, its gunna be a little kids story . Ota is going to make friends with the Ugly Duckling even though everyone tells her not to. Tomorrow I am gunna hang out with Jonathan, and Tuesday I get to see Phantom Of The Opera.
I had such a nice time with Jonathan today, i wish i didnt have to leave.... , can't see that butthead tomorrow b/c of CoLlAgE oOoOo, pufft My teeth hurt, stupid braces, pufft to that too... Going to Jonkey collage's friends house Friday, Maybe a party Keyre told be bout , im free b/c i got boobs! eww, that is terrible... I hope my Wig gets here in time for Eugenes Halloween party! Its from China... not Japan heh hmmm, what else.... I dunno, I passed all my classes but math, stinky math, only need one more class to graduate, errrr. Ms. Newburger, even a stinky name.... (look its spooky writing ^) POLKA
its ok, im special. hehe!
im gunna kick his assssssssss.
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. I got drunk from Vodka and Pink Lemonade, heh, that's Isadora umhmm.
, im free b/c i got boobs! eww, that is terrible...