I finally have a break this week. Yesterday was my only day of class soo I'm done with that for the rest of the week. For work we are closed Thursday and Friday and I don't have to work Saturday. Sooo I work till Wednesday and than I have the rest of the week off. Freedom from work and school. Oh thank God!! I have  been looking forward to this for a month now!!!!!!

Freedom!! 

Soo I have a few emotions flowing through me right now. I'm scared, frustrated, worried, lonely, left out, and I don't know what else. Tuesday is my second pelvic ultrasound. I really haven't talked to anyone about this, I don't really know to bring it up. Right now is is nothing to worry about, and may never be, but being an 19 year old girl with a future in her life it is kind of scary. I've been having pelvic pains and so I went in for a pelvic ultrasound to be sure all was ok. Everything was fine but an slightly larger than normal cyst on my right ovary. Cyst are normal for females to have. They come and go as months go on. This one was something to bring me back to get a second ultrasound done. Hopefully it has gone away, if not that it would call for surgery. It's just one of those things that sit in the back of your mind and comes to mind here and there.

The other thing that has been getting to me is that I miss my friend terribly. I feel left out and alone, partially cause I'm still home. I know that is by choice but I don't have the money for college and I do not want to take out a lot of loans. I feel so distant from my friends and it took me this long to figure it out. I don't know how to fix it. I guess I could call them or visit them more but my schedule is sooo crammed I couldn't visit. I could call them more often. I just feel so distant and left behind. I just don't know what to do.

Justin has been my life saver though. The fact that I feel distant from my friends kills me. The only thing keeping me up and moving everyday is Justin. He kind of makes me. He means everything to me and I love him to death!! He is amazing. Every girl deserves a guy like him, but too bad cause he is alll  mine!!!

Ok I'm going to finish watching Grey's Anatomy....just had to get some things out.

I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!

I'm just soo sick of it. I have such time consuming hard classes this fall and I'm freaking out. I feel overwhelmed, frustrated, and really not wanting to go back next semester. If I didn't have to I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't. I need a break. If I get into the program next year (which I hope I do) I won't have a break till I'm alll done. I'll be have clinicals during the summer also. Being a full time student and work over 20 hours a week can be real stressful. Alright I'm going to jump ahead on my medical terminology class and get my quiz done.

Soo things have been a little crazy lately. I've been slammed with soo much school work its crazy. For having only 4 classes its soo over whelming. But those 4 classes equal to be 13 credit hours....soo yea not a lot but it is for me. Plus on top of all the school work I've been sick for a week. Tuesday I came home early from work cause I started to get sick...yea throwing up at work is just disgusting!!!! But hey I'm feeling better now. Its just been a little crazy lately. Soo I go in for the 100th dr appointment in the next 2 weeks. Ok soo maybe its not the 100th but it is like my 6th just in 3 months. I'm kinda freaked....cause during the last ultra sound I had done they found a lump and I'm going in for a second one in the next few weeks to see if it has gone down. If not than that means more dr. appointments. This all started by having stomach cramps and now its somthing crazy. More than likely it's nothing....and I really hope so. But its one of those things you can't see and you have know Idea if its getting better or worse you just kinda have to wait. That is the latest thing on my mind right now.

But hey I'm on fall break right now!! I'm soo happy to get to relax a little. I'm going into work early today soo I guess really I'm not relaxing...but tomorrow Justin and I might go see a movie before I have to work at 3. I want to Syndie White....I love Amanda Bynes. Than Saturday we have family coming over. We are have a cookout around the fire. Soo that maybe nice...but I'll probably will be doing a lot of my homework that night being that Justin has to work. Well That's all for now I've gotta get ready for work..blah!!