hey! sorry its been awhile! finally i am on spring break!!  

spent the last 2 days with my friend, and i always eat a lot when im with her. BUTTTT since 3pm today im doing a liquid fast till at least tomarrow 3pm. hopefully longer? but who knows...

today i got my hair off, its a new look, i like it, its a lot shorter tho. i got 6inches cut off!! its about 2 er 3 inches past my shoulders now..

anyways sorry this is a short update but i gotta get going

stay strong

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hey guys! so i guess yesterday was okay, i had to get my friend out of the house so that her mom could set stuff up and so ppl could come over and we went to steak and shake.. ickkkkk.. and i had a shake but later on during the night i snuck out and i went behind a tree and purged.

i dont really purge that often but it seems like lately i have been. werid.

today i havent ate anything.. and i did yoga booty balley hip hop abs.. wooo weee that  was hard i can really feel it! i love thoes taps they are f.a.b.u.l.o.u.s

and tomarrow it is back to school... ickkkkkkkkk...

but thank god i only have school monday-thursday and then its spring break and our SB is really long this year. its Friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, wensday, thursday, friday,saturday,sunday. sooo 10 days. woot woot. im not going anywhere tho so thats kinda  a downer. oh well that means that the local YMCA wont be busy and i will be there everyday. woot woot.

well hey im gunna get going, i have to clean my room.. ickkkkkk

stay strong

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doing okay i guess. kinda down but oh well... shit happens right?

2 days ago i ate a TONNN and i ended up purging..untill my throat and stomach couldnt take it anymore and they burned the rest of the night and the following day. oh well i deserved it, i shouldnt have ate.

yesterday i did OKAY, i didnt eat anything untill dinner, and i wasnt even planning on eating dinner i was gonna go to my friends house but my parents decided that i should go out to eat with them...

THENNNN today.. idk  how today will turn out. im guessing bad. b/c its my friends surprise bday party and her mom is gunna have food and stuff there and its not like i can just not eat cuz my friends will ask stuff and idk it will just be a mess.... so ill prolly just eat light..

lately idk ive kinda been feeling like ive been falling apart. just havent been myself.. and idk i cant explain it.

but hey i gotta get going.

<33 sorry this was kinda a gay update!!

hey  so lately things have kinda started to turn around for me. hopefully they stay that way. been doing super good with my eating, thats always a good thing. lol.

anddddd i really like this guy zach, and i found out he likes me too. lol and we went on a date yesterday and hes super hott, and super nice and really fun to be with.  

so im hoping things will remain good. keeping my fingeres crossed.

so far today the damage was a cookie. bad i know, but my friends kept making comments on how i don't eat lunch, i havent ate lunch since about 6th grade so 4 years.., its a werid phobia of mine that i have... but anyways.. i just ate a cookie so it would cut me some slack.

prolly gunna go do some yoga booty ballet. its prolly the best work out tapes ever invented. i Love them  then possibly after that go do 8 minute abs. thoes hurt.. but hey it will pay off. lol  the only bad thing about the yoga booty ballet (ybb) is that right now it hurts to bend my right knee, because 2 days ago i fell in a river and smashed my knee on a rock.. and i live in Michigan so it was freezing and i hurt my knee pretty badly. but hey... oh well?

but hey i gotta get going, hope your all doing great

ill leave you with this.. i LOVE this song.

<33 I guess its time i run far far away, find comfort in pain,
all pleasures the same, it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, Like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but i'm not here for trouble.
It's more then just words: its just tears and rain

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hey babes   thanks for the comments. hope your all doing f.a.b.u.l.o.u.s!

yesterday was good for me. i didnt eat anything.. yay for me. and then today i was planning on fasting but i had a appt. and my dad made me eat taco bell. but thats all for today... so i guess its okay.

tomarrow is a half day.. im planning on have my friend alyssa over so we can work on some shit for our huge debate we have comming up. *[[i hate that class SO much]]* and she wants to go out to lunch with a ton of people.. but idk.. the thought of eating infront of people makes me cringe. it's a phobia that i have.. i can't eat infront of people... i mean a certain few kids i can.. but usually like at lunch when im at school i can't eat anything.. its good in a way but anyways im rambling! lol

got a sweet new purse today!!  

other then that not too much has been happening... THANK GOD tomarrow i have a 1/2 day and then friday i have NO SCHOOL. so yay for that.. i NEED a break. i really do.

OMG haha so today... i was in english and i was layin on the floor reading our assingment thing. and the bell rang and i sat up and i hit my forehead on my desk REALLY hard. so i have a HUGEE lump on my head and of course its purple! haha it was funny. but it hurt like a bitch. and all my friends and the class saw it happen so that cool? not.

i went to meijer today with my mom and while i was waiting in the check out i was looking @ magazines and nicole is down to 85 pounds and i guess a doctor told her "if you dont start eating you will die". but who knows if that is true, its a tabloid! lol

well im gunna go comment and get working on some hw.

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