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Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 20:45:12 GMT

I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 19:09:38 GMT

wow it's been a while! Yeah been busy and all that. Hanging out wit the fcat crew and they mad cool na mean. It's funny how fast time passes. You look back for one minute and once you turn your head back around there's something new in front of you. Sometimes you just think you know poeple but u really don't. It's really a funny thought. Oh wells like the song says. Im moving on.........( that's all we need to realize......LIFE goes on.........)

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 18:01:57 GMT

Man it's been a while since I wrote in this. Well I guess things are different now. I'm in a different path and I feel like I'm doing the right things. I speacially am happy that I know now how far I was from god. I feel so bad being away for so long. I got so lost and so confused. H'e so good and he's so awesome. How about you? Do you still belive?? Don't worry he believes in you...........

Monday, September 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 00:52:09 GMT

Hhhhmmmmm.......this weekend was aite. So much driving though. Sometimes it takes so much to be the better person but then when you do it's just unappreciated. Anyways, my head is about to explode. I try to keep everything rational and explained but, the truth is somethings you just can't explain. I don't know i guess we're all still in the I'm the center of the universe train of thought. Sorry if you're reading this but i'm just rambling on because the things I want to say i really can't say. Isn't it ironic. I'm writing on an online journal but I really can't say anything. HAHAHAHA! What a comedic relief. Like a great singer once said," Isn't it ironic? Don't you think? A little too ironic! Yeah i really do think ". Anyways I'm just going to try to be the best I can be and start listening to God now. It's really not about me anymore. I've been going around thinking I can do this myslef but once I asked God to help me he gave me a reassurance and I know everything will turn out for the best..........

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 23:30:40 GMT

Let's c. Wat a week!!! Busy school schedule not becuase there was a lot of exams but because I'm actually really studying. HEHE! Funny how things work out sometimes. HEHE! Anyways starting to mod my car now. Got a cold air intake for 81 bucks but itNext it's exhaust and then headers. Sigh. Wat a feeling. I love my car. For that 15.5 seconds or less ( apparently the SH can be faster because it had the capacity to get really good launches cause of the ATTS, guy said he got a 15.09 with just cold air intake). Anyways, we'll c i still hab to get my launches good. I'm turning into one of those guys who has thier brains molded as a car. OK till next time.........

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 22:44:08 GMT

AAAAHHHH!!!! Wat a feeling. I finally got a car!! Prelude type SH! I was reading the manual today and hopefully i can figure out wat up with all the maintenance of the vehicle. It's fun having it but it's also a responsibilty. I pray that i can shoulder all this. Along with school and work and also every unexpected thing that lofe throws at us. I wonder wat's gonna happen. I just wanna take it one step at a time na mean. When u try to leap to far ahead u don't see wat ur leaping at. So ima just clear my mind and pray for the best. Schools so hectic already. I'm trying to just keep one step ahead but everything is piling up hehe. Eh i know me and the champ can get through all these classes. Well hopefully i can hab pics of the car soon. Till next time.......

Monday, August 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:08:26 GMT

WOW!!! Today was my boy jay's surprise b-day party! It was funny because we really got him. He never even knew. Too bad we were all sweaty from bball. We all stunk man. I guess it was worth it because we got him real bad. We got the master. We got Jayson Venturina. It was fun got to geek it out with the crew.

Also went to a bbq on saturday. First I was with my crew and then by myself. It was still fun though. Also the craziest thing. There's this guy I was introduced to and i swear he looked so familiar. Then last night we were talking and turns out I met him at Poly at a may fair. IT WAS SO CRAZY!!!!!. HAHAHAHA! I was very surprised. It was cool though. I was able to meet more people and know more about them. It's wierd. I mean it's a change. I was used to being just with my real close friends and we're always chill na mean. Eh it was an exciting day.

It's so uplifting just to see the change in everyone and in ourselves. I must say i was so different not just 6 months ago. I have different views now and different insights in things. Well i guess that's what life is. Change. Life will be quite cumbersome if we didn't have change. Everything so predictable. I'm feeling so nastalgic. It just seems like a quick evening breeze all these things. I still remember meeting everyone and the feeling I had to actually know someone and now we're all so far from where we began. I don't know. I can't really see the certainty of tomorrows future but I know one thing. I will DIE being friends with my crew. I just feel so blessed to have frineds like you guys. I will ALWAYS have your backs.........

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 01:10:01 GMT

hhhmmmm..quite a lot of things are in my mind. First of all, I just want to tell everyone that I'm human. I will make mistakes so don't think I'm the perfect person. If it comes down to it and I know I'm wrong, I will admit it. Just don't think I'm perfect because when the time comes I will disappoint you.

Also, I know sometimes i can make a hastful judgement on someone. This is just one of my many array of weaknesses. Just like anyone else God made, I have weaknesses. Don't think that once I say something about someone that I despise them or think of them as a lesser person. This is the last thing I would do. I had my past where i was far less than nothing. I don't try to look down on anyone or hover over them like some kind of God. I know everyone in this world has talked behind someones back. Everyone does it. When you say something negative about someone and they are not present or accounted for then guess what, you just talked behind their back.

Another thing I would like to say is for everyone to just sit back relax and laugh. A lot of the things I say I'm saying just to mess around. I guess it's unfair for me to automatically assume that everyone will not take offense to what I say but, again this is one of my weaknesses. I come from a closely knit crew. We can make fun or sriticize everyone a the end of the day but, my friends and i are so close that we know that we mean no harm by it. We can freely say anything to anyone and not take offense by it.

In closing I wanted to tell everyone that I am human. I make many mistakes and I have a lot of imperfections. Sorry if I have offended anyone and sorry if I have hurt you (the reader) in any way. I wake everyday and try to be a better person and at the end of the day before I sleep I still pray for my transgressions.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:12:40 GMT

WOW wat a day. Threw the chamo a surprise party and it was fun. I wish I coulda gone swimming because it was actually not sunny so i wouldn't get dark. OMG! Freestyle makes the best love songs. Talagang na kakakilig. HEHE! I'm trying not to listen too much baka mahulog pa and aking kalooban. HEHE! Finaly i get to work tomorrow again so i can make money. ::Sigh:: Sometimes i wish i could fly you know. I look outside and see how free birds are. They flap thier wings with such diligence. It's as if they're telling us how free they are when they soar so high. Then again i realize that even those birds have problems. But still i wonder how it feels like. To soar so high i everyone becomes like ants and then everything becomes so insignificant. So high that all you can think about is how much higher you can go. It's a dream that I can only attain in my dreams........

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 09:23:55 GMT

GUESS WAT!!!!! I'm now CPR certified ladies and gentlemen. Oh yes!! Wat a good feeling. It was fun having classes with Ace and Ryan as usual. Let the good times roll. I know I take a long time during tests but as Ace would say "TANKS" . After that Cheesecake was cancelled due to funds so we went to Denny's . It's was good though. Any food God blesses us with is umbrogia ( I think this is the right spelling ). Saw a friend in high school and she blurted out my sectret nickname which we will not speak of ( Oh no village flash back ). I wanted to cry cause Ryan and Ace heard it but hopefully they don't say anything. Today is the chamo's 20th b-day. HEHE! Wonder wat we shoulod do. Anyways ima go work out now so I won't look so fat at the pool party. Peace........