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| I wanna beat the crap out of you! You suck!XANGA i miss you!!!!!
i'm not really used to writing on this n e more... no one prolly reads it coz the myspace took over... and no one really reads blogs on there n e ways, so its pointless.
chemistry is pretty much kicking my ass. i hate that class - pretty stressful.
People are gay. doesnt it suck wen u just wanna beat the living hell out of someone, and you just can't... because you cant. ppl piss me off... i piss myself off. don't you hate it wen you really wanna believe someone, but deep down, you think "dont kid urself". i dont wanna be naive, but i dont wanna be all freakin out and assuming things either... but sometimes i just cant help myself and i see the worst in people, even tho i tell myself that i need to see the best...
i miss kairos damnit. it was amazing. i just liked how i felt there. no one was being mean to eachother, and that was really nice, especially w/ all them girls being around eachother for 4 days straight... i wish it woulda meant a lot to everyone, but i think a few ppl just blew it off b/c "it was retarted" or some lame shit like that... ever hear of being open-minded at all? i know i'm always not, but come on, Kairos was a great opportunity to get to kno urself and ur classmates... and God if you believe in God. it just was frustrating that not everyone liked it i guess... but what can you do? i'm sure theres always ppl from every class that just dont see whats to great about it... i just wish that everyone could.
The End... for now.
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| so i miss my xanga! no one really updates them anymore, and its sad....
anyways, i get to go see Brad and April today!  yay i'm excited. it will be an awesome time. I think i'll end up running into Madi as well.
right now i'm doing absolutely nothing. just watching cartoons and w8ting around to go to BG. kelly never calls me back... wtf?
band camp is going to be uber fun this week. parties! woohoo.
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| so TN was pretty much sweet. i got to be lazy for a whole week, which was really nice. coming home was weird. goin back to work was even more weird. i walked in and i was thinking 'o god this sucks. i think i'm going to ralph' but i didn't. work wasnt even that bad. i got out at 10:05 and i was even the closer. score for me... my boss pretty much hates me in the summer b/c i ask off so much time. i already asked off a whole week. then i need off for my cottage and "band camp." also, i need to ask off another friday and saturday b/c brads family might be taking me to TN with them in Aug. for like 4 days, and right after that, i think my dad wants to have me come down to his house, which i hate doing b/c i get really homesick. blah, o well.
idk what i'm doing today. i woke up like 30 minutes ago, and i dont have n e thing to do. i want to do something fun, but i'm in Fremont, so that kinda limits my choices. maybe i'll just go take a shower....
i love you brad! 
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| hola all. i guess its time for an update.
check out the background pic! its amazing. anyways, my weekend felt busy, even tho it really wasnt. i wanted to have a fire last night, but i dont have n e good fire wood n e more, and not many ppl showed up. so me and april ended up watching 13 Going on 30, which was totally cool w/ me. it was a good time - that movie makes me cry, but of course, it ends up happy in the end.
today i'm working at 5:00. blah. they only gave me 2 days this week. why can't they give me like 4 or something. that'd be perfect. 3 is alright tho, but it just isnt giving me enough money. if i had 4 days, i'd have about 26 more dollars thrown on my check, and that'd be sweet. i need to start saving money, and i'm having a hard time doing it.
Friday morning i'm leaving for Tennesse!!  i miss it down there. its so beautiful, especially where my Aunt Marty lives (thats who i'm going to see). she lives in a valley, and she has like 2 neighbors that live where you can't even see their houses. shes pretty isolated down there, but its so peaceful. i dont kno of any place around here that looks or feels like her house does. i'm so excited to go down there. the week will fly by, i'm sure. But dont worry friends, i will miss you! haha. i'll miss my friends a lot. i told brad to write me a note everyday so that i dont miss n e thing important (he prolly wont write one everyday, but a recap of the week would be alright). i'll be taking my cell phone w/ me, so if n e thing terrible happens, i hope that someone will notify me. hopefully, that wont happen. TN will be awesome.
i have a feeling this will be a long post... anyways, i have to do a band weblog for the st joe band, obviously. and well, its being really difficult, and its not workin out too well. st. joe's server sucks, as any of my fellow classmates kno. so the weblog refuses to load, and i cant edit or add any news, so as of now, the weblog is completely useless. UGH! also, i THINK that theres a band meeting tonight, and i dont even know for sure, but i have to work, so i'm going to miss it and i really need to talk to Mr. B about it and tell him whats going on.
i havent been in good moods lately. which is really weird b/c ITS FUCKING SUMMER!! whats wrong w/ me?! i love summer. and i love being out of school. i've been a bitch to a lot of ppl, and i think i'm taking my "blunt honesty" as some ppl might call it, too far. i wish that i could just be that person that stands by and watches and that doesnt feel the need to say anything. blaaaah. sometimes i wish that i'd just let ppl walk all over me coz then i wouldnt be opening my mouth all the time, and i prolly wouldnt piss ppl off as much as i do. nothing should be making me so bitchy and grouchy b/c its SUMMER! *sigh* what is going on w/ my personality?!?! if i turn into a hanis bitch, i'm just not going to talk to n e one n e more lol in fear of them hating me.
w h a t e v e r . . . . . . .
I LOVE YOU BRAD!  
ps - my GPA for the 4th Quarter is only a 3.7 ---- damnit.
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| One Year w/ Brad!! wow is all i can say. its been absolutely amazing... and its gone so fast.ive had so many good memories with Brad over the past year. many more will be coming up and flying by, i'm sure. I LOVE YOU BRAD!!! 
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