i feel like shit... and i feel like such a terrible person...

and...

i'm retiring from xanga... bye all

starbucks coffee and a carmel pecan tart... this is how my friday night is being spent. this week has been a mix of good and bad. had a lot of fun with friends, but i got in a fight with my mom and we didnt talk for 2 days (dont worry, everything is fine again), confusing guy stuff, decisions need to be made that i really dont want to make, mainly because i cant really make up my mind. just a lot of feeling... blah...

i just got my nose pierced!!! so b. pross and i went to get it done together. i like mine, and i think it looks really cute on beth. yay!

so the musical is over now, which is a huge relief and also very sad at the same time. its neat because there were all kinds of different people in our dressing room, so i ended up really 'bonding' with people i never really thought i would get along with. we start our film unit tomorrow which is awesome cuz we're watching finding neverland, an awesome movie.

so things are good right now, although i'm slightly confused about certain things. it seems like once i get what i want, i want what i use to have or something that i know could never work.

we've been doing compliments in drama this week, which are always nice to listen to. i got mine today and it was pretty good, it made me smile. i also gave my compliment to sam allender... sorry if it was lame, i'm sooo bad at giving those things... it always sounds good in my head and ends up all messed up when it comes out of my mouth. haha. but sitting there listening to compliments made me realize how much i really value my friends, and that there are so many people that deserve a heartfelt compliment just for simply being themselves... it also made me realize that all the wonderful people that i have so many things to say to are going to be gone in just a few months. and it saddens me to think that i might lose touch with a lot of them, and that i wouldnt want them to leave for college without knowing how much they've meant to me in our high school years. this gives me an interesting idea for graduation presents...

musical opens tonight!!!

and to all my friends... thank you

so, quick post before i run off to bed. musical next week, you all have to go! april 13-16. i'm working with my mom at staci & co. now, and i love it! its really busy so i always have something to do, and i adore all the girls that work there. today was way hectic b/c the morning shift person decided that since it was her last day, she would just sit on her ass and leave everything for me. but oh well, its still fun. answering phones, greeting clients, gossiping with the girls, and running around trying to do a million things at once... i love it