Well, as of last night, the Steven Curtis Chapman China tour is no longer making a stop in Chengdu.

Our original venue cancelled on us 2 days ago, just 3 weeks before the concert date. We were then left to find a new venue, which would add an extra 20,000 rmb in addition to the original 40,000 rmb we had to cover. Our community just doesn't have the funds to cover that kind of money.

In one way, I am so disappointed because I feel like we failed. My competitive go-get-'em nature does not like to give up easily, and I feel like we went down without much of a fight.

On the other hand, I know it was a wise decision to make. If we don't have the money, it would not be fair to anyone involved to go blindly into the situation just hoping we somehow got the money. Granted, HE could provide for us at the last minute, but we cannot jump into it stupidly. Bethany compared it to jumping in front of a mack truck saying "I trust that G*d will protect me!"

I've been reading through a lot of my previous entries, some back as far as two and a half years ago. I used to write some really great stuff on here! I was challenging myself and making myself laugh...I used to be funny! I'll work on getting the humor flowing again.

okbye