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| I Just Don't Got It AnymoreTo talk to me, you'd be interested.
To see me, you probably wouldn't.
But to hang out with me? You'd almost 100% guarantee like me.
I was supposed to hang out with my ex-boyfriend today. He wanted me to call him on one of my breaks. I forgot. But I called him as soon as I got out...it went to voicemail. I left a short message, telling him to call me back.
He called back five minutes later. Said he and some other Army dudes were going to Hooter's and I was welcome to join them. My problems with this? They were 5 minutes from Hooter's, I was about 45-50. Also, I was going out for a quick bite to eat with my friend...still 45-50 minutes away from home. I told him to call me when he left Hooter's.
So, either, he's still at Hooter's almost 6 hours later, or he forgot about me. And didn't call.
I know if we hung out again he'd like me again (but I honestly don't think he ever stopped, considering the things he remembered I do...and we haven't dated for almost 5 years.) But he won't ever remember much more than that if we never hang out.
What do you think your best asset is? How would you go about exhibiting this to someone is isn't physically near you?
<EDIT>He called me. Wants me to come over. He's drunk. I'm not going. I don't trust myself.
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| So ConfuzzledThings...not going so well in the world of Jen.
Apparently not so in the blog of Jen as well...disappointing...but that's another story.
Have you ever been with someone so long to find out that you both know it's over and you're both still holding onto it because you've been together for so long or for some other invalid reason? Maybe a child is on its way that he wants nothing to do with but he stays with you because he wants to be with you...
Then someone else comes along that makes you start thinking about the possibility of making another attempt with this person.
Well, I'm there.
And it sucks.
I don't really know what to do right now. All this is recent findings.
And now, I don't even think anything will happen with other person. Crisis averted?
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| America's Worst Breakfast FoodsSo, you're driving to work and, all of a sudden, you are now STARVING!!!! You can get breakfast for some relation to free once you get to work, but that's still so far away!!!! What to do? Pull into a drive-thru, get your food, and on your way to work you go. Well, here's some food you MAY want to avoid from now on.
  
Burger King Hash Browns (large) - 620 calories
- 40 g fat (11 g saturated; 13 g trans)
- 1,200 mg sodium
- 60 g carbs
CALORIE EQUIVALENT: 12 CHICKEN WINGS That is more trans fat than you're supposed to eat in one day!!!! This is insane. Guess which chick isn't eating BK's hash browns anymore (not like they were my fave, anyways...). Next up?
Hardee's Monster Biscuit SODIUM EQUIVALENT: 6 LARGE ORDERS OF FRENCH FRIES It contains nearly a days worth of saturated fat and sodium. I don't have a Hardee's around here, and even if I did, I wouldn't eat that...that is HUGE!!!! Next!
Denny's Big Dipper French Toastix with margarine and syrup FAT EQUIVALENT: 23 CHICKEN MCNUGGETS The hotcakes are better for your children than this. Go with those. 770 calories for just a child...for ONE MEAL? Ridiculous. What if you work in the mall?
Cinnabon Classic Cinnamon Roll - 813 calories
32 g fat (5 g trans fat) 117 g carbs
CALORIE EQUIVALENT: 7 BOWLS OF FROOT LOOPS The biggest downside? There is NOTHING nutritional about this. AND there's no healthy equivalent to it at Cinnabon. So stay clear unless you're sharing! Oh dear, do you really want to keep reading now that I've taken away the mall's version of crack? Oh, but I believe you will...
Smoothie King Grape Expectations II (40 oz.) - 1,102 calories
- 256 g sugars
- 740 mg sodium
SUGAR EQUIVALENT: 12 HAAGEN DAZS ICE CREAM BARS That's more than half the calories an adult individual needs in one day! And who wants to spend it all on a drink? Choose wisely (ie...not this next time you go to Smoothie King.) But I guess we don't have these around here. 
McDonald's Deluxe Breakfast SATURATED FAT EQUIVALENT: 22 STRIPS OF BACON Yes, this is a lot of food, but that is a lot of calories, also. Who needs all that food? (Though, as a former McDonald's manager, I can tell you...lots of people get this...) They could have just ordered 22 strips of bacon for the same content. Blech... 
IHOP Big Steak Omelet CALORIE EQUIVALENT: MORE THAN 7 GLAZED KRISPY KREME DOUGHNUTS Well, I guess my steak-loving uncle should just eat this instead of eating a whole DOZEN of Krispy Kreme donuts...he'd have more variety and such, but...ew. It looks massive and any normal person should not be able to eat it in one sitting. Though THIS person wouldn't be able to eat it at all. I hate steak, and tomatoes, and cheese, and eggs...oh darn, I hate everything on that plate. And finally... 
Bob Evans Stacked and Stuffed Caramel Banana Pecan Hotcakes SATURATED FAT EQUIVALENT: 26 STRIPS OF BACON SUGAR EQUIVALENT: 12 CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES SODIUM EQUIVALENT: 12 SMALL BAGS OF POTATO CHIPS Man, eat this, and you won't have to eat much more all day. But, lemme tell you, that thing looks damn good...sounds good too. Hotcakes may be the better way to go than toastix at Denny's...but THIS has SO many things gone wrong...this really does just need to be a once-in-a-lifetime thing. Cuz after viewing this picture, makes me want to go bust down the doors and eat it...without the whipped cream, of course. And I'd bring someone along with me cuz I'd really only want a couple bites. Wanna come? I'll meet you there.
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| What Makes a Great Mom Great?I wonder, sometimes, what makes a good mother a good mother...and what makes a great mother even better. And I wonder, with my lack of maternal authority in my childhood and adolescent life, if I'm going to be one.
My mom, though I think she's great now cuz she's a better friend than mother, was not always around while I was young. As I grew older, she was around more, but never really had any rules for me to follow, and didn't talk to me about anything. She didn't come to choir concerts or school plays or anything like that. I basically raised myself.
My dad was not around, and didn't even talk to me for about 9 years of my life. So he doesn't count, either.
So I wonder, with this lack of parenting, how the hell am I going to do a better job? My aunt told me today that I will be a great mom. And I think she really means it because she doesn't have much to say about anything ever, so if she said it, it must be true. And while it flatters me to think she means it...I'm afraid I have no possible way to live up to it.
When I give birth to this baby that's growing inside me, am I going to well up with tears and instantly love my child when I first see him/her? And if I don't, will that make me a bad mother? What if I look at my baby's tiny little face and feel nothing? I'm so used to feeling no emotions on a daily basis that I wonder if something so new and small can make me feel something. Am I going to hold against my child all the pain, sickness, and puking it's put me through? The fact that I'm still occasionally throwing up, despite being 19 weeks pregnant, does not help much. Is holding something against my child which is technically it's fault, but it doesn't do it on purpose making me a bad mother?
If my baby is deformed, or mentally handicap, am I going to love the baby? Am I going to be afraid to look at him/her, or touch them? Will I, at that point, decide to give the baby up for adoption? And then the child will never be adopted because most people would not willingly take a "messed up" child. Such a sad life I would have built for my child...
When the baby cries for a bottle or to have their diaper changed at 2 in the morning, right as I'm laying down cuz I have to wake up early in the morning for work...am I going to ignore it? Am I even going to wake up? We've all heard about sleep-deprived women in their post-partum depression drowning their babies or shaking them until they stop crying. I'd love to say I won't be one of them, but one thing I've learned about life is to never say never.
When my child brings home a less-than-desirable grade or fails to learn something by the time I, a very bright and ahead-of-the-norm child, did, am I going to hold it against them? Or will I help them improve? I hope to not turn into the mothers that have to bribe their children to get them to try hard in school. I want my child to be self-motivated as I was. But knowing the child's father...I probably won't get this. I mean, he's smart, but he had such a hard time in school they thought something was mentally wrong with him for so long...until they realized his IQ was quite near genius and figured they just weren't challenging him enough. In first grade, I was doing second and third grade stuff because I was too bored and moved too fast. I still have the problem with catching onto things quickly and moving so damn fast...I'm still ahead of everyone. Even people who have been at my job since I was 11-14, and I've only been there for almost two years. Now that I've digressed, am I going to be harder on my child if they aren't like me? My mom taught me that as long as I try my hardest in school, she can't be mad at me for my grades. She wasn't that good in school, though, and I never got help from anyone in my 9-person household because no one understood my work from 6th or 7th grade on.
If my child gets pregnant at the age of 15, am I still going to love her? Or if he gets a girl pregnant at 15, will I love him? Of course I'll help out because that's what you do, but how will I FEEL about it? These questions are what's keeping me worrying about it.
I wonder what it takes to make a child say when they're all grown up, "I love my mom, I think she's great. She couldn't have been better and she couldn't have taught me to be better than I am. My hero is my mom."
Of course I can't answer these questions now, but I'm wondering how far will I have to go to be the great mom everyone expects me to be? What do you think makes a great mom?
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| Allright...I want an AMAZING sex pregnant dreamI've had a lot of dreams lately. I've been reading The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy. The author stated when she was pregnant, she would have a dream where she was having sex with random people and she'd wake up in the throes of an orgasm. No hands, mouth, or other body parts needed, it sounds great.
Anyhoo...my pregnant dreams? No...they're only slightly more than they were when I got pregnant. Let me see if I can break down the array of different dreams.
My mom and I were in Wisconsin at our friends' house. The Pope came, and by the Pope, I mean a young, AMAZINGLY hot Pope. We were at the Riverfest-type deal they have in LaCrosse every summer. We left that area and walked back to our friends' house. Inside was Nick fucking Carter from the BackStreet Boys. I got all nervous cuz I saw him there and he was chatting up me and my mom and then he KISSED me!!!! I didn't want him to go into my room at my friend's house because it had posters of him everywhere (in real life I don't have a room there and in any rooms, I have NO posters in it..though I used to when I was still a teenager.) I don't remember most of the rest of the dream but he stayed there.
There was another dream I had it was just really weird. Really really weird. But it was completely uninteresting. And I think last night was the first dream where I went to the bathroom in it and didnt actually go in real life. I dunno why that is...you go to the bathroom in the dream, you wake up peeing in your bed. But last night I didn't.
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