*You ask me what i need and what i want to do. Youre everything i want to have, yet im scared to be with you.*

*Everything i see in your eyes .... it scares the hell out of me.*

*This girl doesnt need to make up her mind, she knows exactly what she wants. Shes just afraid to find it. So, she finds another reason to run from you.*

*Dont walk away from me without kissing me, i need to hold your hand once more. I need you to give me that feeling, the one just like before, thats feeling only you can give, with every little touch .... while everybody wonders why i love you so much.*

*I want to have what everyones jealous of, That fairytale thing. When every girl sighs in aw wishing they had the ring.But i lost you, im back to faking a smile and hiding every tear and wishing i wasnt crying with you sitting right here*

*Every word i ever said, i meant it. Its just so hard to see. To know that dream relationship was hidden in you and me* 

these r all to the same person = /.

"You Didnt See It" November 29

Everytime i see you, it hurts a little more.  I know its all different, it wont be like before.   You did everything you said you wouldnt, You said you loved me then took it back.    You said our love was true, it wasnt and thats a fact.I want to be over it, All the pain you put me through, You put me through hell ..... So why do i still love you? What did i do? Why cant i see? All these questions to find out, exactly why you hurt me.  Youll always be the one i lost. The one i wanted forever with, The one who had me wrapped, from the first time we kissed. I wanted to be yours, i wanted to be it .... I wanted you to love me, too bad you didnt see it.

"If Only"

You dont know how hard it is, to only be your friend. When you were my everything, just for us to end. I hate writing these poems, it proves i still think of you. I dont know how to act, i just dont know what to do. I loved you and lost you, yes youve heard this before. I just dont know how to stop myself, from wanting so much more. I see you with her, notice you so happy, then cry just thinking, that girl WAS me. If only i could stop thinking about you, If only it was easy, If only i could face the fact, that you never truely loved me.

"Untitled"

I got up the nerve today, To listen to our song, then was mad at myself for crying.... Because aching for you seems wrong. I listen to those lyrics, Stabbing me with everyline. Tears just flowing faster, with every word and every rhyme. I say im over youbut why should i lie? When every other day, you seem to cross my mind. I listened to our songs, reread eevry letter, thinking id move one ... it would somehow make it better. It only made it worse, it only made me cry, I want you to tell me, i just want to know why. Loving you is killing me. It hurts more everyday. I hate how it was, and knowing its never gonna be that way.

"WHY?" (couldnt think of a better title any ideas?)

Your laugh, your smile , your touch , your skin. Thats where i fall for you, thats where it all begins. I dont want to love you, i dont want to care , but how can i deny it when i see you standing there? You call me beautiful, and know it gets to me. You know what words to say, its like you want to get to me. You know exactly what to say, to make me smile then i frown, Because i know i love you, but thats not what youre about.I want you to stop getting to me, i want to stop looking for your smile. I want to relax and just be me, have fun for a little while. Why does love have to be a concept, why did i have to fall for you? Why does it hurt to know i want it all, but you dont want it too?

 

"I Really Feel"

I really feel youre stupid for all the selfish things you do.  I really feel you know it and that you feel that way too. I feel i want to hate you , but i really feel its tough, just because i really feel that what im feelings love.

*i wrote this a long time ago too. But its always been one of my favorites.Even tho its short*

QOUTES!

NOT ALL OF THESE ARE MINE!*=mine

• *You still have control over the way my heart beats, faster everytime i notice you notice me*
• *I think i may need you, i think this is so. I dont think i love you, that much i know*
• *I hate looking for you, It proves i loved you, it proves i still do*
• *Ive never wanted anything more than to be the one you think about*
• *The other day someone told me I loved you ... i just denied it. But i think thats really when it hit*
• *Theres no fine line between me being yours and you being mine*
• *Youre so hard to figure out .... maybe thats why i want you*
• "Im afraid of walking out of here and not feeling the rest of my whole life, the way i feel when im with you" -Dirty Dancing
• "Im afraid of not being with you" - A Walk To Remember.
• Theres nothing queer about loving another human being
• I want to tell you how good it feels when you look at me that way.
• I taught your boyfriend how to do that thing you like (lmao!)
• Theres WAY more things about heterosexuals in the bible, this is true but that doesnt mean God loves them more it just proves, they need more supervision. (hahaha)