Well…im back again.  Not for another entry on life…my mind is on vacation at the moment so that will not be available until the beginning of school.  But no worries im sure all of you would like to hear the next best thing….how my lifes going!!  Eh?  Hehe…well lifes going well with me…not exactly bored too much.  I’ve been reading the past week and it has done me good.  It has strained my eyes quite a bit, but hey it takes up time so woo hoo.  Ive been preoccupied helping my grandfather move into his new apartment a mile or so away from us…its in ‘Kernan Forest’..sommin like that…its on Kernan that’s the best info I can give you that im completely sure of; directions are sill not one of my greatest abilities.  N ive noticed that ive been stubbing my pinkey toe a lot this summer…maybe its growing bigger without me knowing??…possibly.  all I know is everytime its stubbed (is that a word??) it hurts like hell..i try to muffle my cursing but I seem to bite my lips doing so…so that hurts too...Ahhh pure stupidity…oo how much I am going to miss it when school opens.  Or hows bout the time when im in my car driving and realize I forgot where I put my car keys...but yes it was in the ignition. As you may have guessed.  Don’t get me started on how I almost put my shoes in the refrigeratior….that’s for another day….sooo I guess the moral of this entry is where I put my mind…I don’t really know….plz tell me if u find out….till then heres a ..math joke  that I read in a book…plz bear with me if its not funny…remember….imma dork…hehe

Theres these 3 people on a train an economist, a logisist, and a mathematician and they see a brown spotted cow parallel to the train.  The economist says there is at least one cow in this land that is brown spotted.  The logisist says, “ahh there are many cows possibly that we have not seen that may have brown spots,”  but the matematican..the smartest of them all says, “ ahh…its fact that there is at least ONE side of the cow that is brown spotted.”.. come on…that was sorta funny?….kinda?…u guys are such party poopers u kno that…hehe

no...particular reason why im writin this entry.  Maybe im juss a tad bit bored....job searching is becoming a pain, video games are getting old, reading a boring required book, eating the same healthy crap, i need to see old faces again...or maybe im juss reacting cuz i miss this one particular face...yes ill admit it...i miss jomarie.  or maybe im juss being too sentimental for my own good.  or am i juss thinking too hard?  aw hell...ha..well i hope all of ur summers are not as confusing as mine...till then take care all of you "be safe" heh

Ok…well…if yall still remember me…yes I’m still alive n’ well.  Im prolly not gonna find another excuse for taking so long writing so ill be truthful and just say I was too lazy to do so.  Now, I hope your summer has been nothing but good…if not, well…u still have a few months to make it so.  Me on the other hand, ive been in the market in looking for a job…car….and community service hours all at the same time.  It seems like summer took the place of school without the percentage values in grades.  I guess that’s what we get when we get older…responsibility.  Ahhh and getting older….now that junior year is over for me…I can imagine a few years back.  I remember when I walked down the main hallway as a freshman in Paxon.  Damn that school was intimidating…it was so tall…ceiling n everything.  But, when I look at it now, nothing has really changed…I still have to use binoculars to look at the ceiling…guess its what I get for being an Asian.  I remember the people I met…which thankfully I still have today.  The opportunities I missed to meet new people; the classes I had that made me grow gray hairs, the fun, bad, sad, depressing, stupid times.  N ur saying…is this a reflection period Mark?  Well, yes actually.  As you grow older and you reach an end to some part of your life, you realize how much of a better person you can become.  And if you strive at that….which is living life as a challenge…you get to gain one of the most important aspects of living….experience…in what you do, who you meet, how you are.  Junior year is over, but that doesn’t mean I will not encounter the same situations along the way as a senior.  I will expect to study..as always….but harder.  Teachers will expect dedication from you…but at a higher level.  If you think of life as a line..you are clearly mistaken….life is more like a spring..which twirls forward to move ahead in life but spins in a circular motion representing new forms of the same issues you will face in life.  Challenge yourself, be better that who you were, but don’t change who you are.  Some people I know make that mistake.  So, have fun this summer..just don’t lay idle…you might get used to it…heh.. Take care guys.

Sometimes I fear that the experience gained from a letdown is not enough to compensate for the feelings of sadness in that particular moment.  Any of you think the same way?  But what have I done?  I am thinking with the end in mind.  All of us should not look back on issues and past failures unless you’re planning to go in that direction.  Maybe its how you feel after you studied so hard for a test but don’t get a result you wanted.  Or you wanted something…like a car n instead you got an air freshener.  So is it safe to say letdowns are filled with wants and needs that you didn’t receive?  As simple and unbelievable as it may seem….yes.  Life is filled with wants and needs to live properly, and be emotionally stable at the same time.  We all seek some sort of balance.  If you become too happy you will not be able to support yourself when something goes wrong and unable to treasure the meaning of success.  And sometimes if we feel too sad that same feeling will overcome anything that should make you happy.  So what do we do?  How can we simplify this struggle?  Well, first by accepting that both of these feelings in one way or another will affect your lives.  Know that there will be sadness to overcome, n know that happiness is not the only feeling in the world.  Second, live it.  N you may ask…‘What are you saying? You mean you want me to intentionally be unhappy?’  No…in this life some people are afraid to stick themselves out on a limb because they are afraid of what may happen to them.  But how boring and stale life would be if you would let nothing happen to you.  Your mind would be so linear…it could even surpass the straight edge of a ruler.  Know the feeling…because there is never a short supply in our lives.  And third, learn from it.  After you let the feelings affect you…learn from it.  You may think.. ‘Mark who analazes their feelings?’  Heh…im not saying do a science experiment on it…im saying that if something good happens..be happy but don’t take it for granted.  Sometimes something so good comes up and we are so happy that nothing can bring us down..but its within those time that we ignore other feelings.  When something bad happens take the time to understand what’s making you feel the way you do.  N do your best to correct it if it can be corrected n apply it to your life so it can be something your ready for if it comes again.  Sadness is always there….but if you are not prepared for it….it can be unforgiving.  Life is an opportunity…to be better? stronger?  No, to be whatever you want it to be.  (so make it easier on yourself)

"Persevere..Nick.  As an old saying goes...its when your hardest hit...you must not quit...im here for you buddy"