.and i wish you still loved me.
lock in = amazing. end of story.
p.s.- in one of the games i placed third. as in top three. as in go maggie.
I can’t make up my mind…
I wake up in the mornings, hoping that I’ll see you, yet dreading the moment.
I prepare myself for your judgment every waking hour.
I see you and I don’t say a word. I push you away, but inside I’ve never wanted to be closer.
You are your normal self and I hate you for it. Your mannerisms are so alluring.
My desire to be independent and your desire for my approval just don’t mix.
Make me forgive. Make me understand. Make me accept you as a person, a friend.
Make me forget you. Make me turn away. Make me never want to see you again.
Make me, make me make up my mind. This is so hard for me. Make it easy.
I’ve seen the way that being yourself has hurt the people close to me.
I don’t want to get hurt like them. I just want you to help me, to help me make up my mind.
I go out of my way to avoid you. I go out of my way to be rude and cold.
If only my life was a glass house, you would be able to see everything that was going on, inside and out.
I want to hate you. I want to love you. I don’t even know what I want.
But for now, I’m going to go through my life as though you don’t exist.
I’m going to continue to push you away every time I truly want to get closer.
I only wish I could make up my mind.
.just a little something that was on my mind. | 
