I'm feeling so...

HAPPY!

im also having waffles right now, in MY bedroom, and I slept in MY bed last night... and I woke up at 1:20 in the afternoon... which was 25 minutes ago. I don't think I've ever slept that late before and it feels awesome!

I have some homework to do today.. but then I'm goin to Circle Center with Russ, so that should be fun!

This upcoming weekend is going to be fun too. EEK! And a week with just three days of school...I can definitely live with that.

So I'm gonna go shower now.. byee!

Well.. here I am, needing to do some MAJOR studying for my Psych test tomorrow morning. Yuck. But a certain someone *cough* has been telling me my updates are boring, and few and far between, so I did this just to make him happy. Even though this is gonna have to be boring, because I have a lot to do and only one evening in which to do it all.

This weekend was.. eventful, to say the least. Learned a lot of things.. good and not so good. But, that's alright. I'm definitely in a confused state at the moment, though. Maybe not so much confused but... unsure.. curious.. kind of excited.. umm.. but mostly unsure. I guess I'll figure it out as time passes. I'm not really worried about it at the moment. At least I'm trying not to be.

Well, that's all for now folks. Psychology becons. *gag* Hope everyone had a great weekend!

I'm enjoying being in poetry-writing mode again. It was inspired today by a certain song that I found on Laura's IPod, that I've loved for years, and has amazingly beautiful lyrics. So before I napped today, I grabbed some paper and started writing. The results were.. interesting. I'd like to put it up here, but I think it would be a bad idea, for reasons I'll leave unmentioned. Its rather cryptic, but for some, the subject would be extremely apparent. But- like I said, I love writing again. Lately I've just felt... trapped... behind a wall that I'm pretty sure I could tear down if I really wanted to, but haven't made enough of an effort. Maybe because I don't want to just yet. Unfortunately, the difference between what I want to do and what I probably should do is fairly large. Go figure. Who hasn't experienced that one before.. its never very exciting. There's just a lot going through my head. And I haven't really talked to anyone about it. I feel like I need to completely spill out all of my thoughts. So paper, pen, and music were my best friends today.

And I'm doing as well as I can be, I suppose. I keep telling myself it'll get better. And it will.

On a different note.. I'm getting a visitor Saturday night! Eek! The weekend seems an eternity away...

This is usually my Charmed (as in the tv show) sleepover night, but since the person I usually watch it with is nowhere to be found, I suppose I'm gonna just watch a movie and go to bed. I was going to be a good student and study.. but I've done so much of that in the last two days.. I think I deserve a break. I've fulfilled the good student quota for the evening. And so I say... farewell.

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I'm in the mood to communicate through song..

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

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What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

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The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

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I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

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Well.. this past weekend has proven to be quite interesting. Not necessarily all good interesting, but of course, there were good parts to it. I love having a roommate who is always making me smile. Helping her write her english paper was probably the funniest experience of my weekend. Yes, THAT is how much fun we have.  Gotta love it.

Most aspects of the last few days.. I'm pretty much gonna leave out. I know how much everyone hates that. haha Woops. But what must be done, must be done, and I apologize. Everyone has occassions that require little detail to be revealed. I'm not really sure what I'd say anyway except..... AAARRGHH... or more like..  Why can't things just fall into place for once?

And on a seperate note... how about some more.. AAAAARRGGH! Just because... well, I hate it when people lie. Especially about things that DONT matter, and that people KNOW isn't true anyway. Pointless, a bit? I think so too.

I'm done venting for now. Even though there's much I could say, I have friends over, and I think I'll stop typing now.

ILOVECOLLEGE  

goodbye for now!