Today was a little frustrating with Ali. She was fussy and would have nothing to do with patience. Patience is a virtue but it isn't hers.

I was really frustrated with her at lunch. We went to Rosa's and she wouldnt chew her food that was in her mouth. She was testing my patience when a lady came up to me and ask if she was my sister. I said no and that I am her caregiver. She went on to say how great that is and how I am a real 'hero' and some other stuff which I do not really remember because the whole fact that she was doting on me was embarrassing. I'm not overly fond of attention.  I do not agree AT ALL about being a 'hero'--especially since I wasnt being very patient and I was aggrevated. I am not the hero type.

The Lord brings you things at the exact moment you need them. Sometimes its a slap in the face. :)   I think He did that just to wake me up and stop being so frustrated. Ali was just being Ali and it was my attitude that needed to change.

I have to learn that I can not stay in my own head for very long. It's dark, dank, and kind of smells. I have to stay out of it and keep my eyes on loving others like Jesus' loved me--though that is rather impossible but I can try.

This job is a huge blessing in many ways. Financially, of course--but I think I will really, really grow in patience, you have to in this job or you will not last long. I hope also, that I will grow in grace.

God only knows.

Tonight John is having some of the boys I grew up with over to play some Axis and whatever war board game. I am going to spend time with Abby. I am so grateful she in Texas. :)

Until next month,
Anna Murphey