school is finally over...it feels like i have been going nonstop since january, but i finally got a month and half to relax. when i mean relax it includes working my ass off. i recently got the promotion i have had my eyes on for the last two years. This is the greatest achievement that has been accomplished this year, especially since i worked very hard during the second panel. i cant believe i didnt pass my mgmt class tho...getting a  D+  and not passing the class....really lame. then had the bbq yesterday. great turnout. cant wait for next year's cuz its gonna be better with alcohol! 

its too late...i finally give up u know. u made it seem like i need to feel whole with u, but now that i have finally gotten u rid of my system, i am better...u lied to me so many times, and its when ur actions are caught in the act, that reveals who u really are. i cant forgive u for the things u have done, even if we have never even started yet. it seems like u will never make a difference. u have that special effect on me, but now its comes to an end. i will move on, and u already have. so it makes no difference. ur impression has made ur mark, now to escape it

First week of summer school...what a bitch. so much reading and writing to do....i feel like i want to fall asleep in my mgmt class or at least throw the textbook at  the professor. its so boring!! i have my interview next week...stress on top of stress. where are my desserts...ya kno, if im stressed, i should be compensated with desserts..haha stupid joke. iono, i felt like i need to blog, and get the shit out of my head, but i cant seem to type what i thought up.

shit, why does this have to happen? ur words make it seem so ambiguous...i duno whats up. i wished u know what i've been through, and how much you mean to me...but i guess u will never know. i have to give this up, because im tired, i really am....but everytime u get close, and i seemed to want to run back but why? is it because this has been going on for over a year, but there was someone before...and that ended up quite well...why can i do that the same...does this infatuation mean something else? maturity?  iono, but is it the same....do i really feel the same...im attacked by all sides: school, work, events, and everything else in between...i feel like i set you as a priority, but why......i kno im not supposed to but anyone who makes me an option a priority....but it feels like i do sometimes. i have given in to you for all this time....helping you before helping myself.....did i not do all the right things? or was i just imagining all the things and feelings i have for you. i tried to not think of you....tried to move on, but it doesnt seem to work. i've fell into another infatuation, but it seems like i like coming back to you...fallen for someone who is a splitting image of you...ur personality. i cant seem to fall that again....ugh this is so confusing....i duno if this summer is going to be confusing....what lies ahead.

A love that lacked oxygen

I know it is not your fault or mine.

i just havent been able to balance my time as well....things are falling out off equilibrium cuz i try to balance all this shit and not freak about it. there is only like a month of school left, but that means a month til the finals, then two weeks off before i go back for summer school, and freak about other stuff! i lost my promotion cuz i was under the impression that i got the job regardless, and that was the case, so i was/am really depressed about it. i have to try harder the next time. i've been using my phone to remind of all the important stuff i gotta do, cuz without it i probably would be so lost. i hella need a vacation....anywhere is find...just give me a break!

here we go again..this always seem to happen. u must already knew what i would do if you asked, cuz here i am for you, at ur knees again. its like you have a leash on me, and i kno i would listen to my owner. i will always protect you, u see...even tho there has been some stuff said, i still defend you, cuz i kno i care so much to see you on the bad side of the light. i must have glorified you, and see you as the angel that touched my heart. i feel so guilty that i cant be there this week, making it another event i wish i can make it up to you......i should really cut the charades and come clean. but i cant seem to do it with all this drama that is happening. separated by distance, alas, i duno what to do.