yeah..imma lil confused..

too late now

i just dont get some things..oh well imma keep my mouth shut

remember how you said you felt distant that one night?

iunno why..but im starting to feel it..but its not like how you had it..which was for like a day..or so i noticed..mine is more of a..iunno how to explain it..everyday ive been broughten back to it and i cant get it outta my head its just been killing me..iunno why i keep thinkin about it..its just ever since all that..i cant get rid of it..cause it seems like you just dont wanna let go..i thought you said to make new memories..not to cherish the ones that are in the past..iunno why i feel this way..i want it to go away..its always gunna bug me..it might not seem like a big deal to you..but to me..wow..you have no idea..i tried giving you hints about it..i guess you dont understand it..but its ok..i guess..i cant stop you from living your life..so imma leave it like that..till i cant take it anymore....i just wish you'd understand how i feel..i tried telling you in soooo many different ways..

now..it just seems like its a routine..i dont get the same kinna response that i used to..i seriously wish this would all go away..maybe all this is torturing me because of what i've done in the past..i admit...i was a bad person..made bad choices ending up in losing most of my friends..but hey..its alright..its life..just gotta live it..but its really hard tryna live it when you're only halfway there..i feel like i need help..a lot of it..i dont wanna go back to how i was..i dont need to..maybe its just me going crazy..so crazy that its making you see me in a different way..i had a feeling this would happen when school started..everytime i think about it its gets me real good..making me wanna throw up..but thats enough...time will only tell.....

umm....

i know its wrong for me being all uptight and stuff...

im sorry for it too...

but...

i see more than you think...

and seriously...

you just have no idea....