Prelude_to_his_death's Xanga

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 13:33:12 GMT

Wow, it's been a year && 5 days since I've written in this thing, it seems like not that long ago that all of these memories had occured

Xanga was "The cool thing" way back when, now it's all so..not.

It's such a faint memory, having all these different xanga names, all of these memories written on them, all the drama, deleting different ones because I was pissed off or there was too many sad memories.

I remember all of those memories, ones in which, I took off this site, or had on another xanga, && deleted that xanga site.

I wish everything was the way it was before, I wish I still had the same friendships && relationships with those certain people, who are now so distant && have drifted away in my life.

Although, the present isn't that bad, it still was just, memorable, there are so many people I've either lost, don't speak with anymore, don't have ways to really get in touch with, see, or as much as just chill with old friends like I used to.

Skateaway was my first ever hangout spot, I made so many friends there, met my first best friend there, && met my first love there, after a while it took it's toll on me as drama city.

The we come upon Colonial Sports Dances, my 2nd hangout spot, that has just...unspeakable amounts of memories.

Now though, times have changed, people have changed, dramatically, it's a part of life, there is nothing I can do to change it, as mch as I'd like to change some things, I can't.

I've come a long way myself, in a good way, I look back at things I said, girls I was with && what I said && did with them, friends I had who I thought were friends, but weren't, && I just feel like...wtf was wrong with me, seriously.

That's all for now...so many memories flashed through my mind, good && bad.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 23:29:42 GMT

New xanga homos...

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=XTake_my_hand

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 20:42:49 GMT

Here's a poem I wrote,and I may enter this one into a contest, not sure yet.......

I lie crying for hours, just thinking of that one true person that I could stand in a field full of flowers, as she run through me I weep knowing she isn't there anymore, she was my one and only cure, I fell for her instantly with a passion, true to the end I thought, she let go, and I grabbed onto her as my pain and love for her started to grow, she lay a broken mess, as I wasn't letting her be broken, I was determined to fix her, to love her and make her so pure, my heart was given to her with intent that she would keep it, to then which I found she would quit, but I wasn't allowing that, for I was not letting love be once again flat, I run to you with hope that you will hold me and cry with me, but you seem to have forgotten my feelings for you and you have set them free, but I am out grasping for them, because that is something that I won't let go of, I want you to love me, I want you to hold me, I want you to kiss me, I want you to hug me, I want you to hold onto me and never let go, I want to be with you until we go to our graves, babe there is nothing more to say, I want to love, I want to be with someone I love, you were never listening to the things that mattered the most, you were always there as a ghost, you were so blind to see how much I longed for you, open your eyes and see for yourself what you are to me, why do you reject the one person who loves you, its so true, why don't you see, you are everything to me, you say we can never be, and I say give me the chance and you'll see