Currently Listening Twenty Three Places By Matt Wertz see related

Ok Ok I know it has been nearly a month since I've updated and really there is no excuse but pure and utter laziness. Working two jobs mean the last thing I want to do when I get home is write a blog entry. But I kn ow it's been nuts so I'm updating now.

Well it happened my 21st birthday and to tell you the truth I went against Socity stigmas and didn't get drunk. Big suprise right? I was just excited that Blaize got home intime to share it with me.

Well I got myself, my parents, and my brother-in-law and sister moved. After 3 exhausting weeks! I've never been so glad to unpack boxes in my life! I'm living in a apartment and I like living by myself. People should still come see me!

Honestly though I've had no social life since my birthday. Blaize and I hardly see each other too. But it's about to slow down. I'm thinking about dropping down to one job again. It's just way too much with school and everything.

Newsflash everyone!! I am tired of kidneystones!!! Sickness sucks!! Crap more later. Adios~

Currently Listening Live Unplugged By Jeremy Camp see related

Ok I know it's been about forever and a day since I've updated. I am sorry! Last night Amber and I went to eat and she said something about xanga and I was like I really need to update. So here I am!

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMBER!! BIG 2-0!!! NOT A TEENAGER ANYMORE!! WHAHOO!!

Today is Miss Ambee Horton's birthday so give her a shout and make her smile by telling her happy birthday! Speaking of b-days guess whose is Monday?? That's right ME!!!!! WHAHOO!!! Big 2-1!! I told Blaize I was going to get plastered on my birthday, and he laughed at me. He said that was funny even coming out of my mouth. Well maybe plastered is a little much, I'm probably just going to have a fruity alcoholic beverage. One that doesn't taste like Alcohol. I will probably buy Amy a shot. Somone will be driving her home that night! Come on Am!!

Well enough about birthdays, I'm actually at work right now and I'm trying to finish this before I have to open the bank. So here it goes.

Yesterday I recieved word that my accountability partner from Camp this summer past away in her sleep on Christmas Eve from Carbon monoxide poisioning. Lelane had such a sweet spirit. She was always getting hurt at camp. Within the first week she had about 10 injuries. But she just laughed about it. She used to say, "Hey man, if someone can get joy out of me being hurt then I be just like Jesus dawg!" (Keep in mind she's totally white). No words can describe how much we all loved and adored her and her impact on my life was amazing. She kept me trucking this summer in times I didn't want to. I love you Lelane and I'll miss you!! Please keep the Edwards family in your prayers.

For further news, Blaize left yesterday until Monday.  I really love that guy ya know? He went to visit his family in Abilene. So keep him in your prayers for a safe trip and he will be back on my birthday.

OK back on birthdays, I want to have like a ice cream sundae for my birthday. Everyone get's plastered I might as well just go against society and act childish in my old age!

Anyways, I love all of you guys and I've realized how extremely mortal we all are so please guys live each day with the utmost potential. God blessed everyday and I will continue to give thanks!

Currently Listening Some Hearts By Carrie Underwood see related

Ok I know that I haven't updated in like forever! But listen guys! It's been crazy around here! I've been working and trying to get a new car. And looking at apartments. It's been absolutly nuts!

But let me tell you something...LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE!

Yeah thats right I said it! Courtney is moving out, Christmas is about a month away, My birthday is about a month away, Blaize moved into a HOUSE, I'm getting a new car, Ally is coming home at the end of the semester, Amy and Amber are doing crazy things on there new job.

So what does all of this mean? Let's adjust people. I'm used to having a set schedule and so forth but is that really how the Lord wants us to act. I think that we should be going out and starting a movement. I've had the best quiet times lately and I feel that A-town is about to change dramatically!

I know I'm on my soap box and so forth but listen, We all love the Lord and the Lord loves us. So why not rejoice be glad!!

Ok I'm sorry I'll shut up now. I'm preaching to myself here too people. I've been so burdened for the less fortunate and the unbelievers now. Probably for the past few months I've needed a change. And God is the one to do it! Let's come together people rejoice!

I don't want to spend my life jaded and wasted,

To wake up one day and find.

That I let all these years go by.

Currently Listening Imagination By Bethany Dillon see related

This week has been kinda up and down.

God has broke down barriers and I just feel raw in front of him.

I have had so much stress in my life lately and I'm wondering why. Why do I overwhelm myself with hysteria? Everyday I'm crying over something dumb or insignificant.

I remember this time last year wanting to bust out of this town. Now what?

Yes I'm about to get married and it's different in itself. But where am I going to go? What am I going to do?

I dream of getting my PhD in Psychology and eventually going to Dallas Theological Seminary. I dream of being accepted as one of the only women for that year. I need to rest in the assurance that everything is going to happen according to the Lord.

When there's nothing to believe in, I believe in you

Forget te past and let my hand in yours be the proof.

Though the strong can be my company,

Your the one I choose.

So Remember I believe in you.

I know it feels like every eye is watching you.

Waiting for you to fall, expecting you to lose.

But I see victory, so all you have to do.

Is remember I believe in you.

I believe even when I see you crying.

I believe, let me dream for you.

When nothing comes from trying.

Remember I believe in you.

There will come a day when love will life you out of here.

There will come a day when love will bring the truth.

There will come a day when love will free you from your fear.

And you'll remember I believe in you.

I believe even when I see you crying.

I believe let me dream for you.

When nothing comes from trying.

Remember I believe in you.