I think I'm back.

Back from what? No clue.

Right now all I need is for people to pray for me. I can't explain anything, but please just pray for me. Did I mention Pray?

~Whitney

Currently Listening The Trinity By Sean Paul We Be Burnin' see related

Once again, I had a classic Whitney moment. Today before my voice lesson, I went to Acme to get apples, coffee, and meat. There was this hott black guy that was from the Coca Cola company and was bringing the soda etc. into the store. He must have tried to speak with me 10 times while I was in there. Do you want to know the funny part? When I got coffee, he was like, " Coffee!" and I said, "Fo' sho...you know!!!" Wow. My boyfriend would've done something to him. It was like harassment. I couldn't go anywhere in the store without that scrubber following me.

Voice lessons went well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have my college audition on FRIDAY!!! I get to see my beloved sista CHELSEA from Interlochen!!! Holla back! I am soooo ready for this audition...like, get ready and listen to this program! Pray 4 me!

My boyfriend is tooooo patient with me. I admire him 'cuz he never gives up...even when I spazz, yell, cry, blame, whine, and freak. Today, he was late for work. He is going for an interview tonight with the City of NewYork. He wants to do some winter road-plowing in those trucks 'cuz they pay like $40 and hr. He is going to go to police school. I can't wait...he'll make a great cop. Okay, I am done bragging on him.

Monday at school was one of the worst days of my life. I have the most AMAZINGLY awesome senior class. They are all so great. I was just in a bad mood 'cuz dad and I had a disagreement before he left on his business trip. And it bothers me when I fight with him. I know he loves me, though.

Aargh. I really love Shakespeare, but I must admit that Hamlet is my least favorite of his plays.

Well, I am going to go practice singing for my college auditions!!!

MUAH....<33333333333

LOVE,

ME

Currently Listening The Hunger For More By Lloyd Banks I'm So Fly see related

Finished the college essay. Time to get pics taken and get some bling and get my nails pimped up. There is nothing better than talking to your man at 9 oclock on Sat. morning!!!!!!

Leave me sum love!!

~~Laterzzzz~~~~~~

Much Love...

ME

Currently Listening Confessions/My Boo, Pt. 1 By Usher My Boo see related

Today when I was reading in Proverbs, I realized that God talks about bling. People related to it in the Bible days, and they relate to it now. I thought that it was pretty amazing.

~~~~~~I talked to my baby at lunch. He is so patient with me. Wow. I can be hard to handle, but he understands me better than anyone else. He knows that I am stressed to the max right now. He tells me that "patience is a virtue that even my whitney baby needs to learn." Which is undoubtedly extremely the case. We are gonna see each other a LOT in December. And then a LOT the rest of the year.~~~~~~~~

Speaking of college, my audition is NEXT FRIDAY!!!! HOLLA BACK YOUNGIN!!!! I have all the songs completely ready...it's gonna be sooo sooo fun. What a great collection of arias my teacher has chosen for me to sing. I have to write the essay...which will be a blast because I can write about OPERA!!!!!!

I really need some spiritual motivation right now. Sometimes it seems like God has taken a vacation. I know He hasn't, but it seems really strange.

I would encourage everyone who hasn't seen the movie "A Beautiful Mind" to see it. What a wonderful movie about a man who overcame the nearly impossible mental condtition of Schizophrenia. It is so encouraging to see someone with that much incredible will power.

Have you ever looked back on your life and wished that you could relive a really fun day and experience it again? I have, but I know that many good days are to come.

Dad got home from his business trip. I saw him this morning. It's fun to have someone you can run crying to, get money from, get advice from, fight, get on their nerves on purpose, tell stupid jokes to, and just be crazy. That's my dad. He's pretty sweet. We had a pretty sweet time this morning before he had to leave for work. My sis and I attacked him...hahaha.

Well, I need to get my lazy self on some more hw.

Much Craziness and Love,

ME

Currently Listening Late Registration [Limited Edition Digipak] By Kanye West Gold Digger see related

This morning I talked to my man before he left for work. It was wonderful, because he assures me that I am the only one. He says I am insecure and I worry about too many things. But he says he will help me get through it. He says to keep praying through the doubts. He actually LOVES me. He deals with those who make me cry...and beleive me you don't want to mess with him cuz he was a navy seal and is going to train to be a cop. He's 20. and he's like my soul right now.

My baby was BEGGING me to call him during his lunch break. I won't be the diva this time...i shall call him, even though he turned his cellie off last night. Actually, he was in the subways, so I can't say he turned it off. I won't punish him....he will be hanging by a thread until i call him, so i should just put him out of his misery and call him during lunch. He can't wait for tonight to talk on the phone. He wants the LUNCH call and the NIGHT call. Haha. I'll suffer and call him both times.

I really deal with doubt. I need God to help me with my doubt. Unbelief is a sin. I need to trust Jesus. It is so hard being mixed in a white family. I really need prayer on the whole being mixed in a white family thing. My mom is going crazy, b/c she knows that i am part black, but she has raised me white. it's like an identity crisis in a way.

Anyway, I will tell you about my day when it actually begins...i am still in my P.J's!!!

Love,

ME