Currently Listening Late Registration [Limited Edition Digipak] By Kanye West Gold Digger see related

This morning I talked to my man before he left for work. It was wonderful, because he assures me that I am the only one. He says I am insecure and I worry about too many things. But he says he will help me get through it. He says to keep praying through the doubts. He actually LOVES me. He deals with those who make me cry...and beleive me you don't want to mess with him cuz he was a navy seal and is going to train to be a cop. He's 20. and he's like my soul right now.

My baby was BEGGING me to call him during his lunch break. I won't be the diva this time...i shall call him, even though he turned his cellie off last night. Actually, he was in the subways, so I can't say he turned it off. I won't punish him....he will be hanging by a thread until i call him, so i should just put him out of his misery and call him during lunch. He can't wait for tonight to talk on the phone. He wants the LUNCH call and the NIGHT call. Haha. I'll suffer and call him both times.

I really deal with doubt. I need God to help me with my doubt. Unbelief is a sin. I need to trust Jesus. It is so hard being mixed in a white family. I really need prayer on the whole being mixed in a white family thing. My mom is going crazy, b/c she knows that i am part black, but she has raised me white. it's like an identity crisis in a way.

Anyway, I will tell you about my day when it actually begins...i am still in my P.J's!!!

Love,

ME